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  • Artist Info: Hey.. I'm Felicia... I'm sick and tired of explaining that I'm in love with a girl, yeah a girl. I'll never get sick and tired of explaining how much I love her, but I won't do that right now because that's otherwise this time... My friends mean the world to me, just not as much as Rae(girlfriend).. I try as hard as I can to keep them both at the same level but sometimes my friends just aren't that great to me at all... I've never in my life hurt one of them, and they constantly hurt me. But I get over it. The facts are, I have problems... I have many problems. My mom died either 3 or 4 years ago, sadly I can't remember... I'm not known to cry in public, but today, 3 or 4 years ago.. It's been hitting me harder than it ever has(besides the first year). You can say get over it, I have gotten over it. It's just hard being this age and not being able to share it with your own mom... I'm a new aunt, my sister just gave birth to a baby boy named Braylin in March, I'm proud. Gender and race don't control my life, but I respect your opionion... I usually have one big break down each month or all at once... The all at once ones are the ones that kill me most, I can tolerate the every month ones but it's hard doing it alone. I've pretty much raised myself, my dad was always too busy caring about my sister to notice that I was attempting suicide in the other room... Even when so, he took up the responsibility of NOT caring about my sister, acting like he cared about me, and then forgetting it all and letting us go our own way... But that's ok, because I will be fine in the long run... I've always dealt with my problems alone, but people that doesn't mean I don't want help, sometimes I NEED help... I've cried out to my friends and they just sit there, you have any idea how much that sucks TOTAL ass? Anyways this wasn't an official about me, but hey... It's a list of somewhat whats wrong with me.. I guess. Also, my life is GREAT. Trust me, it is. I love my life, but I do have problems, just like everyone else. I've been through a lot, but that being said I haven't been through half as much of the shit some others have... I respect them for the strength and courage they have for getting through things. They are my idols, and they are somewhat what keep me going in life. <br />
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    Wrong:<br />
    -I'm mentally ill<br />
    -I need help<br />
    -I sometimes get suicidal very easily<br />
    -I love a girl, if that counts to you<br />
    -My dad isn't the adult, he's the kid and I'm more so the adult<br />
    -I have to keep him and I sane<br />
    -I cannot fail, or else I freak out majorly...<br />
    -I used to smoke, I stopped for my girlfriend.<br />
    -I used to be heavy into drugs, not the bad shit just weed and certain pills, also into drinking. Also quit for my girlfriend, and for me.. <br />
    -My mom is dead and suddenly that kills me<br />
    -I think too much<br />
    -I have heart problems<br />
    -I have migranes that make me throw up and shake constantly, exactly why I take migrane medicines... that were created to treat schizophrenia and NOT migranes, but they work...<br />
    -I have a slight case of asthma<br />
    -I'm way too aware about what's going on around me<br />
    -I never truly have had a childhood, it's always been full of stress and growing up too fast<br />
    -Everyone says I'm more mature than my 19 year old sister, whom of which has a child... My father even says I'm one of the most mature children he's ever met.<br />
    -He thinks it's a bad thing, and somewhat so do I.. <br />
    -I just wanna be a kid<br />
    -I stress and worry way too much<br />
    -I'm stubborn<br />
    Good:<br />
    -I can fix nearly any problem or at least have some type of solution for it<br />
    -I can make people happy very easily<br />
    -I'm weird, and apparently people like it<br />
    -I give people new ways to look at stuff<br />
    -I keep my mouth shut and don't back talk<br />
    -I have good manners<br />
    -I'm VERY respectful, it's a big thing to me<br />
    -I'm attempting to quit cussing<br />
    -I want to be a writer and go to Yale University, lets hope that I make it there<br />
    -I'm very shy, dunno if that's a good thing...<br />
    -I have a very complicated and complex mind<br />
    -Dunno what else, I'll add more later
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