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  • Artist Info: Eh, to sum it all up, I'm a bi-polar maniac that enjoys affection. I have multiple mood swings, a depressive personality, i'm pessimistic, and am just emotionally random. Though I'm considered young, for some reason I tend to be more mature then others my age. Not to say i'm no longer someone who enjoys being immature and fun loving, i'm very fun to be around in my happy moods. <3 <br />
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    In all honesty, I take relationships seriously and hate the fluffy little puppy love others seem to enjoy. I do not refer to my partner as my "boyfriend" I use the term "mate" or "lover" to describe them. Mainly this is because i'm a tad animalistic in relationships. I demand loyalty and love from my mate, because thats the way it should be. Considering how much affection and loyalty I give, it's the least they can do to offer at least half of what I give. Also, claiming is something I want from my mate, I hate when a guy won't acknowledge and flaunt the fact that I am his. One little known fact about me, I find it romantic to have a guy mark me. Whether by a scratch, a bite mark, or an item to be worn, the claming is what I like. <br />
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    Another thing I'm quite serious about is sex. Its not a substitute for love, though many young people don't realise that. But, it's a wonderful thing! Wonderful!! For me the reasons are different, the lustful pleasure and such come second to the greater significance. The emotions you feel, the closeness, the warmth and love you get to enjoy afterwards, those are what I cherish and wish to share with my lover. ((Mainly the reason why tantric sex has been suggested for me)) A beautiful thing it is, and whats even better is that sometimes you don't even need the sex to feel that close. Then again, in todays society it's mainly just for the pleasure of it, the lust for it. That is why so many teachers, parents, religious leaders, and other people of authority say it is bad and evil, sinful in nature. It's a pitty, it's not a bad thing I can assure you. People, they have made it sinful, they have turned something created for good intentions to be evil and unpure. <br />
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    I also have a few fetishes, both sexual and non-sexual. I have a fixation with shiney things, my reason for loving jewelry and gems. I have an oral fixation, I like to bite and chew on things when I am nervous or thinking. Then there is the sexual fetishes, my favored being the domination/submission fetish. The reasons for this fixation are my longing to give affection and receive affection. That is my reason for my fetish, I like being both the mistress and the pet. When dominant I am able to receive all the affection I ask for, and do not necessarily have to give back to my pet. Though, by nature, I always give affection to my pets. When I am the obedient animal, I'm able to revert to my affectionate and submissive side. I think it's perfectly healthy to have fetishes that help you cope with your personal lifestyle. I don't judge and don't feel hate twards anyone, another quality of a domesticated animal. Though, that tends to cause problems, since I'm a pushover and don't really stand up for myself...<br />
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    I've endured many things in my short life. I admit it's not as bad as it could be, and i'm thankful for that.These days it's been hard, I have little hope to find a long, lasting happiness. Anyone who has been through depression knows what it's like, I wish for no one to have to go through it, it's not fun at all. I suggest sunlight and a few activites to keep you busy. then again, I've found that the moon is just as beneficial for depression if your someone like me. I feel close to the moon, feel better when I sit there at night and look up into the sky to just watch. In all honesty, I feel like a new moon at this stage in life. No sunlight is there to brighten me, so I stay dark and depressed. But, I'm sure i'll find some sunlight to warm me one of these days. Being positive is another way to fight depression, even when everything seems awful and unhappy there is always a good side. Coming from a devoted pessimist, the advice for positivity is most likely helpful. <br />
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    Well, other then all that, i'm just a psycho in a nut shell. Still, it's the crazy people's perspective that makes you stop and think about life. 'Normal' people are too busy to notice all the little things the world has to offer, so caught up in the day to day life that breaking away from it seems crazy. though, thankfully there are still those out there that see things my way, that give everything a chance and don't judge something by what others use it as. Just like sex, it's only bad if you make it that way. there are few evil things that are in the world that we didn't create. Then again, the core of humanity is not truely evil, in my opinion.
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