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  • Artist Info: Adult's Toy<br />
    There's no evidence of me ever having been loved<br />
    The happiness that came without stopping also disappeared<br />
    I flipped over the leftover toy-box<br />
    Controlling myself, I smile <br />
    Dominated and traumatized like a baby-toy<br />
    The rain pours steadily behind my back <br />
    The liar breathes out<br />
    When even my mind was taken<br />
    And stopped<br />
    The hatred stained with black <br />
    Hey, hold the dangerous toy in your hand<br />
    And take apart this hideous body<br />
    Shake your body at the feeling that can't be told<br />
    Pierce my decaying wound<br />
    Pierce me with the words that hit deeper and heavier<br />
    Than the knife that split me apart <br />
    I could see the world of adults through the crack<br />
    The dirty and suffocating treasure chest of trauma<br />
    My world that was built up in the closet<br />
    Is a country of beautiful and clear dreams and hopes <br />
    Distorted braincells <br />
    In the corner of my opened heart,<br />
    There's a remembered scar<br />
    And the key of the revived memory<br />
    Just one word,<br />
    "Disappear." <br />
    The sun is whimsically blocked<br />
    And hope destroyed<br />
    The shadow-monk became my friend<br />
    Eternal darkness<br />
    Zero guilt <br />
    Fun toy<br />
    Adult's toy<br />
    Living toy<br />
    Useful toy <br />
    Fun toy<br />
    Adult's toy<br />
    Living toy<br />
    How sad- <br />
    Hey, hold the dangerous toy in your hand<br />
    And take apart this hideous memory<br />
    It's time to cleanse me of the clinging dirt<br />
    That is soaked in hatred<br />
    Nobody understands<br />
    The trap of the size of millimeter that only I know<br />
    Even if it's not visible to the naked eye,<br />
    Pierce me<br />
    With the heavy and deep words <br />
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    Potato-head in wonderland<br />
    Elaborate doll laughs; lamenting broken human<br />
    You are my ideal <br />
    Fooling brain, unsatisfied person; Fooling brain, unsatisfied person<br />
    Dance on top of "my hand" <br />
    The girl wandered in the crack of the world<br />
    Since my eyes were exposed from the curiosity<br />
    I was wandering if I was getting neurosis<br />
    I was skilled at living and was enjoying it <br />
    In the worldmap that no one can see<br />
    History, future, scar that needs to close <br />
    It doesn't stop, it doesn't stop, it doesn't stop<br />
    It's cold, it's cold, it'd cold<br />
    It's painful, it's painful, it's painful<br />
    It's not my fault <br />
    In the vortex of desires<br />
    I grabbed the heart's spring<br />
    Fairyland is full of frauds<br />
    That way, this way, around, around, it's funny <br />
    Laughing peasants; lamenting nobles<br />
    That is the ideal <br />
    Fooling brain, unsatisfied person; Fooling brain, unsatisfied person<br />
    Die on top of "my hand" <br />
    Countless things all repeat<br />
    Stop that mediocre acting<br />
    I thought about repenting<br />
    "I'm not bad" I'm enjoying it <br />
    In the sweet trap, I entrusted my body<br />
    Emerging joy of self-mutilation <br />
    It doesn't stop, it doesn't stop, it doesn't stop<br />
    It's cold, it's cold, it'd cold<br />
    It's painful, it's painful, it's painful<br />
    It's not my fault <br />
    At the center of the world, I shout solitude<br />
    If I wanted collaboration but was thrown away<br />
    Fairyland is full of frauds<br />
    I don't trust anything, anything <br />
    Pouring rain; conscientiousness is getting further away<br />
    I jumped off into the mysterious roar<br />
    It's not fun; let's say goodbye<br />
    I wonder if happiness will be waiting in the next world? <br />
    <br />
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    Nothing But<br />
    I hate myself run away<br />
    I was afraid of losing<br />
    I was afraid<br />
    I thought that I'll disappear if touched <br />
    I gathered my scattered thoughts and tied them into one with the past and the present<br />
    Although I broke this blocked off heart, somehow I still couldn't reach you <br />
    I want to stay beside you<br />
    I lost<br />
    I want to stay beside you<br />
    But I'm not next to you<br />
    I lost<br />
    I'm disappearing <br />
    I gathered the lost time and tied it into one with you and me<br />
    Those words that I left won't return, even if I still hate it <br />
    And so I can't say anything<br />
    And that's why you can't realize anything <br />
    I gathered my scattered thoughts and tied them into one with the past and the present<br />
    Although I broke this blocked off heart, somehow I still couldn't reach you <br />
    Even if I carry my thoughts, I wonder if you and I will disappear<br />
    I guess it's good that I stay here alone and embrace myself forever <br />
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