• Slash! Yes that means BoyxBoy relationship. If this is not your cup of tea, then I strongly suggest that you do not read. I dont feel like reading negative comments about it. Anyway...I am just putting this here, kuz I thought I should share with others, and if you do happen to like it, I will be putting it in my Journal.

    Lies, Love, and Pain
    Prequel – The Story/Past or Present?

    The Beginning

    We were around the entire school, which is different for us. We never really have any contact in school in front of everyone, let alone fight here. But it couldn’t be helped, I couldn’t take it anymore. I felt the tears slowly fall down my face; the pain I felt burned itself into my heart; as if to never let me forget this moment.

    “Just tell me” I started as even more tears burst out, “Look me in the eyes, for once, and tell me what it is you want from me.” I could see the fear and confusion in his eyes. “Because, I am sick and tired of these lies Damian, I won’t -- I can’t do it anymore.”

    He opened his eyes after closing them for a brief moment, as if he was thinking. It took him a few moments to answer. “I-I don’t know. I really don’t know.” He said as we each let out another burst of tears. He didn’t even look me in my eyes-no he couldn’t even look me in the eyes; even as he said this.

    To say I was angry or sad would be one hell of an understatement! I was beyond angry; way beyond sad. To be honest, I really don’t know what I was thinking at this very moment. But, I do know what I had said next, “You know what? I don’t know either. For the past three years I thought I knew, I thought what I wanted was to be with you, but I don’t know anymore. You’ve caused me so much pain.”

    I was beginning to get a little light-headed; another shot of tears came flying through as I stumble to keep myself balanced. “I…I love you so much -- it hurts.” I manage to get out between gasps of air. “It hurts so much!”
    “I’m sorry.” He manages to say

    What was he thinking to say he was sorry? Did he honestly think that, that was going to fix this problem? I cannot believe he just said that!

    “You’re sorry?” I snapped back, “That’s all you can say, is your sorry?” That was the last straw; this was the last time he was going to hurt. This is the last time he was going to see me, the last time I was going to see the one person I truly loved. The very last time the students of this school would ever see the face that they could have cared any less for.

    “You know what? Just forget about it, because we’re done.” I say as I turn around to leave. But he grabs my wrist forcing me to stop; if only for a little longer.

    “Wait!” He tries to say, but I cut him off, yanking my arm away from his.

    “NO!” I shout, “I’m done waiting for you, Damian. I’ve waited three years too long!” And with those final words I was gone forever. Gone for good, I left never looking back. That was the last time I ever saw my friends, who I had loved and trusted for so long. But I couldn’t face them, not after that. The last time I ever saw that school again and the school boys and girls that lied within its walls. The last time I was ever going to see my everything…or so I had thought.

    My name is Robby, and this is my high school story. Every dirty little detail, every secret, every nasty lie, and everyone I had hurt for just one person and the person that got hurt the most…me.

    It started innocently enough. We were just friends; at least that is what I thought. Three years ago, if you had told me that I would soon be starting a secret relationship with the boy of your dreams that would cause you so much pain. I wouldn’t have believed you, but that is exactly what had happened. I met him my freshman year of high school. I never would have thought that he would be the object of my deepest affections and my greatest pain.

    We became friends, and not too long after we became a whole lot more. I loved it; to be honest I couldn’t believe it. But we had to keep us on the down low. Of course I didn’t like the idea, but if I wanted it to keep on going I was going to do anything and everything in my power to keep it going. He was my first love, my first everything. I only feel sorry for his girlfriend; for she had no idea just what kind of friendship he and I share. She just thought I was another one of his guy friends, if she only knew that I was so much more.

    Now three years later, into senior year and I don’t think that I can take any more of it. The on-off-again relationship we have shared for the past three years was starting to tear me to pieces. All the lies I’ve told just to be with him in secret. My friends, my family…so many things I have missed out on because of him. I just couldn’t bring myself to end it; so many times I have come so close to bringing an end to our unhealthy lustful romance, but every time I stare into those dark brown eyes to end everything. I can not bring myself to do it. I just couldn’t…why was that?

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