• I feel sick...I think I stood to quickly, the blood flowing from my head...my head..I must have been hit, there is a door to the left of me but I already know it would be locked..he would never leave me here with an open door.

    Three days ago I was having a party with a couple of my friends, well not really a party just a little get togeather in Bondi, we had a couple of glasses of red wine and there was a pleasent buzz behind my ears as the alcohole did its job. I remember the whole thing as if it were a dream. We catched a train down to the station then walked to the beach. Sophie, Angus even Holly made the effort to come and the night just was so pleasent as we talked and danced on the sand. Richard was there.. I had only met him once before, he seemed so sweet, dancing and singing with the other girls. Richard is not so sweet...

    I was walking back to the station when he pulled me up and told me I could get a lift. I asked if he had been drinking and belived him when he said he wasnt into wine as much as I was.. so I let him drive me.

    we got closer to my flat in Kirribilli, I remember saying, just here thanks, but he kept driving..locked the doors. I think I was to drunk to realise at that point what he was going to do to me, but I was scared.. I know I was scared.

    We drove for over an hour, the whole time I was trying to ask him where we were going and that I wanted to go home now, after a while he stoped the car, pulled me out of the seat and hit me.. told me to shut up and that it would all be ok. then we got back in the car and he drove some more..

    I knew this wasnt his house when we arrived. It couldnt be... the walls were falling down and there was no other houses around it.. middle of know where kind of thing. I was crying but I kept quiet.

    When we got inside he started dragging me to a room up the other end. I clawed at the walls and screamed for him too stop. I realised his intentions by then. I was still a virgin you know... only 16. Underage drinking with some friends. He was 23, really cute too... my friend Amy had a crush on him.

    Its been three days since I was at Bondi, I wonder how long it will be before.. well before he gets bored, I dont know...I guess even if he just kills me...at lest I wont be his play toy any more. Maybe.. maybe its better that way...