• Shouldn't I be happy......?
    I mean, after all,
    this death was for
    him
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    I saw him sitting in his room, studying
    again.
    I could look across th hall and see him playing with toys.
    again....
    Me?
    I was sitting in the hall in between the two boys rooms. playing video games.
    again.
    ...
    Later.
    It was after another big test. My score was pretty good....but, whatever.
    Mello had gotten second.
    Near with 100%
    Mello with....98%
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    What is this....?
    These tiny memories.....?
    Why am I seeing this?
    These tiny insignificant things.....in the dark
    There is only death without him

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    "...." I held the umbrella over his head.
    He did not move or look up. Blonde hair covering his face.
    "So.....you are a girl, right? Because you know, its ok for girls to except some friendly help from a boy"
    He leaped up and attacked me.
    The umbrella dropped to the sidewalk. A single color in the rain.
    He pinned me down. I smiled "knew that would get you up"
    He glared at me.
    "so.....is it that your attracted to me and like sitting on top of me or is it that--"
    Mello jumped off of me before I was even finished. I smiled got up and dusted myself off.
    "Aw, come on Mello. You know I'm kidding" I picked up the umbrella and held it above myself. I extended a hand.
    He sighed and walked with me back to whammys.
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    oh god....
    that walk in the rain.....
    That place next to him...
    man, it sure as hell felt like some kinda home

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    Mello walked out of the room. Man, he looked pissed.
    REALLY pissed.
    And...were those tears?
    I walked up cautiously. "Mello...?"
    He walked with his fists curled. I jogged to keep up.
    "Mello....whats up?"
    He stopped and hit the wall. "HE'S DEAD. HE'S ******** DEAD MATT"
    He cried. It was hard for me not to. My throat burned.
    "L" It wasnt a question.
    Mello sunk to his knees.
    I kneeled down and pulled him to me.
    He just shook. You know mellos upset when he lets me hug him, ya know...?
    The joke didnt cheer me up.
    We both cried in each others arms.
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    Man, we were sissies.....
    No.
    We were in pain.
    Even then, he was there to hold.
    ..................dont cry, Mello. If I was going down, I swore to myself it would be for you

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    "I'm leaving"
    "I'm coming with you"
    "I dont want you hurt"
    "You think that will stop me?"
    Later we both left. Yep....gang members. Count on mello to find a way to fight for justice....with gang members.
    ....Then later he went and blew them up.
    Then it was just us.
    I liked that much better.
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    Ha. We werent even together.
    Ah, what is this feeling in my heart?
    Why do I suddenly hurt?

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    Mello was bleeding.
    So was I...hell, it was suprising I was even alive.
    Death sure does hurt....
    "M-Matt...?"
    I grunted and fell through the door.
    "Mat? How did you...get here?" he held his side.
    "Nothing could keep me from you"
    I crawled forward till I was sitting before him.
    "Not even death?" he whispered.
    I kissed his lips.
    A first kiss....in death and blood....
    He tasted like chocolate.
    "I love you"
    "...I know"
    I kissed him hard.
    DEATH