• I stand on the edge of this building, 15 floors above the ground and staring down at the passing traffic and lights of shops, cars and street lamps. The wind feels so good on my hot face, drying the tears that frequently drop from my eyes, roll down my cheeks and land on the front of my jumper. As i stand here i think about penguins, an odd last thought but there you go. Did you know that once a penguin finds a lover, he stays with his lover for the rest of his life? What he does is he waddles along the beach all day and tried to searches for the prettiest rock he can find. At the end of the day he brings the rock to the feet of his lover and if the rock is to the females liking he will become her lover too. If only love was so easy as that. You wonder why im standing on the edge of a building 15 floors up from the ground? It all happened today. I was supposed to pick Kev up from the bus station. i hadnt seen him in a few months since he had been away in Italy for one of his amazing holidays. I was so excited to see him. Wonderful thoughts filled my head of the kisses and the laughs and the photos we would laugh about. As i was fanticising about all this i almost didnt hear the police car sirens. They were heading to the bus station. I became interested and hastened to get there. As i approached, the crowds of people got thicker and thicker and soon it became almost impossible to see what was going on. This must be holding up Kev's bus and so i assumed i wouldnt see him for at least another half hour or so. But just as i was about to turn away, the corner of my eye caugh a glimpse of a boy. Lean and tall, dark brown hair strewn about on the pavement, his eye lids closed and a tanned hand hanging limply off the curb. A dark red puddle had formed on the pavement with little rivers flowing out of the dark hair. I suddenly felt very hollow as i realized that a bashed up car was being pulled away from the front of a battered bus and broken bodies were being lifted up onto strechers and pushed away to ambulances. All i could hear was the sound of my heart pumping in my ears as i walked towards the body. I closed my eyes as i got nearer and bent down beside him. I didnt want it to be true. Anything but this. I would open my eyes and see that it was a completely different person to who i thought it was and that i would walk away from the incident and wait for Kev in a coffee shop. Slowly i opened them. Kev. Oh god. No. Anything but this. It couldnt be true. What about the amazing day they were going to have? The kisses they would exchange? Oh s**t... It felt as though a knife was stabbing me a thousand times over but i was too numb to feel any pain. And thats it. Thats why im standing here and i ask myself, if the penguins lover died, what would he do? Would he back away and turn from the incident or would he jump?