• tab I could hear laughter cascading from our lips. It rang like bells and chimes. The air was shimmering with a gold hue against the summer blue sky. We were at our elementary school in the field. The grass was a green bordering the yellow death that shown in so many sporadic patches around us. Far away I saw the grey-blue chain link fence blur in a haze behind the dark green bushes. There were great trees to the left. It was like if I touched one the euphoric memories they held would burst like a kitchen sink bubble. Everything was so bright and... and happy. It was a time I truly lived in the innocence childhood shades us with.

    tab We were sitting down and running, laughing and shouting. The memories overlapped and dissapeared into one another. I watched us joke around and whisper secrets. I saw us making funny faces at each other and then scream with brimming pleasure. The emotions rolled and dripped off the memories like honey too sweet for any flower or bee. My heart ached just trying to grasp the elated and heavenly feelings. But that was no problem for they were already home, secure in my heart. The images twirled and danced. The laughter and giggles harmoniously weaving together hand in hand.

    tab tab tab tab tab tab tab tab tab tab And then everything stopped.

    tab It was suddenly grey and the air seemed to sustain foreign feelings. My shoulders haunched together and my eyebrows bowed with uneasiness. I slowly walk, but the image infront of me never changed. The grey plaster wall never moved. It looked so close and so far away at the same time. The wall seemed like a barrier closing in on me until I suffocated with what seemed to be the worst case of claustrophobia. I needed to get out and away from it. I needed to find the person that was ever so present in my sparkling memories.

    tab I started to panic and looked to my right. The scenery suddenly changed and the grey plaster was now the side of a grey metal plane. I was at it's left side towards the back. The long row of airplane windows held no light. No shred of happiness. They looked lonely and empty. I seemed to be standing on the plane's left wing according to my view. I seeked out comfort and my beloved friend. Swiveling my head to the right an airplane window caught my eye. It was only a meer two feet away from my face. The plane started to take off and I saw a hand press against the glass. I saw no face, but I knew that hand. I knew the person I so longed to see was in there. I desperatley put my hand on the glass. It touched it for only a fraction of a second. Just long enough to feel the stabbing pain in my heart quicken. The plane was picking up speed. I could feel the empty space between me and the window grow wider. With every inch I screamed out NO! I ran trying to keep up and look at the window once more. But it was only a slanted view of a hand now.

    tab I watched as the airplane flew farther and farther away in only a few seconds. The pain and sheer agony was too great. My heart felt numb with it rooting in place. The feeling of crying, screaming, and dieing mixed into one toxic emotion. The emotion was a rotting, sick flavor on my tounge. It burned in my nose. It had shriveled up my lungs. My eyes were dead even though no tears had fallen. I drowned in the emotion as it peeled me away. I felt nothing and everything at the same time. I wondered how I could be so dead and still have strength to breath. I spent a fragment of a second in this state and already my heart had dissapeared and my life had lost all it's luster.

    tab tab tab tab tab tab tab tab tab By the grace of nightmares, I woke up.