• In the crowd, I see Kelly. She looks at Eric admirably. Still, most of the girls in the crowd are still squealing. Ech. Eric waves to the girls, they squeal again. I miss the ball while kicking it into the goal. "Is it okay if you girls quiet down for us to practice?" I asked them. The quieted down. I feel guilt now, but the team really needs concentration to practice for the next season.

    When soccer practice ended, I walked home with Eric, through the shortcut. It was quiet and awkward as can be. "Elizabeth.." Eric quietly said, he roughly drew me into his arms.. I still had a plain look on my face. He started crying, and crying. Why?

    "I-I wasn't there, for you when your father died. I'm so sorry, I don't know why I have these feelings for you. I don't think I have the right to even like you! I hate myself for leaving you! I wanted to come back as soon as I could hearing about his death! I used to play with you at this meadow, I still remember. But now I'm back here with you, I thought I'd never see you again! I was little and couldn't understand what my parents said when I was only 8, that you were in an arranged marriage.. They mention you during private conversations about me too.." he said in broken sobs.

    I didn't know what to say during that moment. We're already engaged? I don't believe this. Tears cover my eyes, I started crying too. I was touched, but was is this tingly feeling that I have about him? I think I'm starting to like him? My first love.. Eric liked me this much and couldn't forget me easily, I understand the same way about that, I never forgot about my father, neither did my family.

    "I have to go eat dinner now, my mother is waiting," I said to Eric.

    "I'll see you tomorrow then," Eric said, as we walked to the front of my house. I waved to him and he waved back.

    My mother and brother sit there, looking like they waited for me patiently. "I see you've got along with Eric," my mom giggles.

    "Mother, you knew everything about this? How could you..." I angrily said.

    "Honey, you were too young to understand! You know that!"

    "I'm not hungry, I'll eat tomorrow," I walked to my room calmly.

    Orneal is sitting there, "I see you found out..."

    "YOU KNEW TOO?"

    "I read the documents, its official that you guys are engaged until you turn 21 and you'll get married..."

    I shook my head in disbelief. Why is everyone hiding things from me? I should've found out sooner or later. I don't have a crush on Eric, do I? I just have a small tingly feeling about him, that's all! This is too much to be true. I pinched myself numerous of times, its not a dream.. T ^ T.. I sobbed.

    "Honey, are you okay?" my mother walked into my room,"sweetheart I know this is hard for you but if you marry Eric, then he could success our posterity and-"

    "WHY IS THE POINT OF MARRYING SOMEONE THAT YOU DON'T EVEN LOVE?!" I snapped.

    My mother went silent, so silent that we could hear breathing. I looked outside the window, oh gawd I see Eric, this is a dream, curse? His room is right across from mine! I scream. "What is it?" my mom panicked for me.

    Er-Eric is changing, GAH. MUST. COVER MY EYES, BUT CAN'T STOP. Orneal jumped at my face, "You're too young for this! Don't look, you're getting tempted, for goodness sakes!" My mother walked out of my room, whew. Orneal jumped off and gave me a snarling look. He's suppose to a cat, not a dog -_-. Did my mom just leave? I heard this saying: Deal wit it... Why mom?!

    I'm still thinking about, when Eric confessed to me about his "immaturity" for leaving me behind before my father died. I always thought that a shock, such disquieting news before he died, but mom doesn't want to talk about it.