• Chapter 5

    April came out of nowhere. It's almost similar to the time when I went through that horrible moment of February, where a liar had told its true feelings about me. In my mind, I tried to think of something positive, but nothing ever calmed or soothed my brain, as if something had blocked my happiness inside of me. I missed Poppy. I missed being best friends with a person. And, to tell you the truth, I had missed the commercial I had made ages ago the most, which I was banned from watching television because I broke it with a remote control. But, even prohibiting me from watching TV, the screen is broken anyways, making the view so odd and full of shattered glass.

    Going back to school became normal now, which I mean it the bad way. I sat alone again at lunch time, and I never saw that liar Ryan ever again. Poppy still looked at me weird, and so were her friends. I tried my best to avoid those nasty looks, but they just keep coming.

    Somewhere in my mind, I feel sadness and anger. Like the time I broke the television and was later told that I was banned from watching TV. Like the time Poppy and I destroyed our friendship entirely. Even like the time I created all of these chapters of "The Double Rainbow" and was still being rated as a one star writer. Like, seriously. My writing is at least much better than the other writers' stories which they did not even tried to add paragraphs or had not revised their writing. Not one bit. They had just given up.

    So, I am going to change. My whole appearance. My personality. My life. My future. Everything. I will forgive Poppy, which I had kept my anxiety all this time. I was to scared to even speak to her. I did not even communicated or even said hello to her. Instead, she and I looked at each other, like we were total strangers. But not this time.

    After school, I turned my head back and forth to search for Poppy. She''s not there. I looked for her in the classes. They are all closed or are occupied by busy teachers trying to input their students final grades. No sign of my old friend. I even searched the restroom. The stalls were completely open, with no one inside the room. Not giving up, my last option was to search for Poppy at the park. And, to my disbelief, she was there.

    She wore a long dress, similar to the one she had worn last time at school, but the color was ocean blue. Those heels from her tall shoes made her wobble as she walked across the grass, and then I saw her sat alone, looking at the clear, cloudy sky, and also drew on her notebook. Her jeans were ripped, and I do not even know why she wore jeans with a dress. To keep her legs safe from the hot sun, maybe. Anyways, she looked closely related to her previous self at school, the day when I had met her in eye contact, the first day which it was clear that we had broke up being friends.

    I walked towards her. I will not give up. I will not turn away.

    I trudged closer to her, getting sweaty because of the bright and scorching, extremely warm sun. Remembering about the past, I felt sorry about what I did to her. But, I had to explain it to her. Everything. No turning back now.

    I was now four feet away from her. My face is getting all red.

    Eventually, time had stopped. But Poppy and I are still moving, with me desperately wanting to have my old friend back from the past. To keep me company. Safe from weird looks, gossip, and shitty liars.

    At last, she had stopped drawing and glanced towards me as a strolled a foot closer to her, my shadow as her shade, like the time when we were little.

    "Hi." I said confidently, wearing a stylish pink T-shirt and jeans that I had worn in 6th grade. I am surprised that my outfit could still fit my body perfectly, even after all this time. Suddenly, dark clouds had appeared in the sky, blocking the sun and making the scene almost pitch-black.

    "Sorry.....for everything."