Confused

• Artist: Touketsu-x-Tsuki
• Description: I wrote this because I'm going through a problem and I have no one to help me with it.
  All I want is a bit of advice, so please comment or message me!
• Date: 11/28/2008
• Tags: confused friends problems advice

I have a best friend who I want to help
But I can't

She's built these walls around her and I can't brake them.

On the outside she seems all happy and joyful but thats just an act. Hell she could make a great actress.
On the outside she's happy and always making people laugh.

Sure she's crazy and fun but everyone has their faults.

On the inside she's letting the pain spread. On the inside she's crying.

She doesn't tell me anymore. She used include me, she used to let me help.

But she's beyond help answered

The only thing I can do is be her friend and be there for her, but there are so many unanswered questions

Sometimes she becomes annoying. I think the word I'm looking for is "smartass"

She answers everything, and she uses her answers to get her out of things.

If her Aunt told her to stop playing, she would recite The Children's Rights.


I can't help but feel so many emotions. She makes me think too much.

I feel annoyed at her always disrespecting people. Even her own father who loves her dearly.
I feel annoyed that she always talks-back.

Yet I love her because deep inside she's caring.
Yet I care for her because I know that she's good.... you just have to get to really know her.
But god, its hard.

I don't really know how to describe all of this, but at least I'm trying.

I've cried for her... because she's done things she shouldn't have to do.
Things that make me cry just thinking about it.

We're so young yet we have to go through all of this in Middle School?

Give me a break here.

She has her reasons.

I'll even tell you her name.

Sue.

That's her name.
Now I just have to hope to god she doesn't see this. he. Well that's another problem.

If I talk to her about all of this, then I'll probably lose a friend. But what type of friend would I be if I question her every movement.

I can't believe that I complain about this, when most of my friends have worse problems. Compared to their problems, my problems are nothing.

I also have a feeling that all of my friends aren't going through this. So in a way, I feel alone. And that's one feeling that I hate with every fiber of my being.

What a case. Anyway I wrote this because I want people to try to maybe give me advice.
I'm just a young girl who's really confused. It doesn't even matter if your actually a kid too... a little advice is all I'm asking for.

A little advice so I won't feel so alone.

Comments

[chinx22]

yea, trying sometimes to be a good friend is hard, people put up barriers to avoid being hurt cause their afraid. Being a good friend also means having a lot of patience. There certain things ppl do that "hint" about what is going on with them, You need 2 watch their body language, what they say ( just certain things, you would come to realize).Sometimes just listening to person and being their helps more than you'll ever know. And If all fails ask GOD XD

[Peppermint Coco]

You said it yourself, "The only thing I can do is be her friend and be there for her."

Of course, you might also slap her when she's being obnoxious. It sounds to me like your friend is trying to overcompensate for her inside pain by being rambunctious with her friends and by rebelling against her family. It may be that this rebellion is a way for her to create her own space, her own sense of indentity, to secure her sense of self (like reciting The Children's Rights).

[King Exseada]

you can go though some real hard times in life. the important thing is to just never give'n up, no matter how many time you may mess up. we messed up so much, but God never gave up on us. I never want to lose a friend. if i lost a friend it's not because i wasn't a good one.