• I thought you would have been here for a bit longer. So I could help mum and dad care for you as much as I could. Mum was devastated when you had disappeared on mothers day. We didn’t know what to do.

    I know you couldn’t talk but I knew you could understand me. I hope you know that I love you very much and never wanted to let you go but I knew that someday you would have to go. I was only nine years old at the time and I didn’t really know what had happened but know I have grown up I miss you more and more.

    I really wish to see you again and one day I will. Just thinking about the good times we would have had sometimes makes me wish that I was there with you. I hate to think that it was the hospitals fault that made you that way and I don’t care what way you are I will always love you for who you were and know that you aren’t with us anymore makes me mad that they didn’t give mum the help when she needed it.

    Every night before I go to bed I put your favourite teddy next to my pillow so I will always have memories of you. The way you used to smile, hold my hand and even vomit will never go away from me because you are the best brother that I have ever had and it will never change.