• If today is the day i die

    consider this my last goodbye

    trust me now i can not lie

    i cannot speak so read between the lines



    now then this is what it will say

    along the lines of this is the only way

    hoping that the depression will not stay

    praying these feelings will only last one day



    don't get it wrong this is not about suicide

    just because u read this does not mean i died

    look below the surface and you will find

    that love and hate goes with the tide



    if i hate to love then i love to hate

    because love is something for which i do not wait

    and death is something i anticipate

    but they always seem to come to late



    hypotheticaly lets just say

    that i did in fact die yesterday

    will you remember me in this way

    remember me as i was today



    the way i always will be

    please just say you'll remember me

    then the answer you will see

    the way that things are supposed to be



    just remember way back when

    back to a life without sin

    to the way things could have been

    i know it's hard to remember way back then



    it is so very long ago

    it seems another time almost

    the way things seemed to come and go

    strange things we will never know



    things we would never understand

    these things i am not a fan

    it fell through our fingers just like sand

    i mean god damn



    this is my sucky life

    it is filled with strife

    i now hold this knife

    with which to end my life......