• Lately I've been feeling empty. Feeling like I'm falling but can't stop. As if at the point of which to die and let life die out for the ones who loved you. Falling into a pit of darkness. Reaching for the light and still accepting the dark. Which to choose? Try and reach for the light that doesnt exist or dive faster into the darkness knowing there is no escape. No chance to descide. No chance to think, only to act.

    I feel that I am stuck between the living and the dead. Wanting to stay alive, but at the same time kill myself. Confused by my own mind. Confused on life. Is life good or evil? Does it matter if poeple live or die? Is death predictable? Is anything around us real or is it a figment of someone imagination controling everything we think and do? Able to control everything. When time begins and ends. When someone lives or dies. Almost as if this person is god, But does god exist or not? Acts of his will are present everyday. When a doctor descides who should be given treatment for wounds. When a parent desicdes if thier child should be controled or set free. When a man desicdes if another human is to suffer. God is real to some and fake to others. Who is right?

    I feel alone. Friends being torn apart by others. Me unable to help them. Too scared to live life. Metal clamps and chain connect to my arms. Unable to break them and set my self free. Screaming for help but no one can hear me. Unable to move around on the glass floor beneath my feet knowing it could break any minute.

    At last the feelings I kept inside break out. I realease all of them at once in a loud scream. The floor below breaks. Cuts my skin and stabs me but still lets me fall. The chains shatter and rip against the glass as if paper. I fall for what seems as infinity. Torn between the light and dark. I make my decsion and follow it.

    Written by: xx_Samari_xx