From one who knows

• Artist: XxDarkxAuraxX
• Description: This was written over a year ago, I've met people who said they need help but know one knows what they're going through and that know one can help. To those who might know me here and have admitted it, I hope this can shed some light or at lest give solace that people will listen if you give them a chance.
• Date: 10/17/2008
• Tags: from knows cutting

There was a time where everything was fine
when I could let the sun shine,
then the peace began to burn
things got worse and worse at every turn,
my sense of what was right vanished
my feeling of worth became tarnished,
I didn't feel like there was life
it just turned into a furious strife.
I had lost all my pride
my friends all left as though I had died,
I tried to make things better all in vain
yet everything ended in more pain,
my self respect was the next thing to go
that's when things started to show,
everyone said it was a phase that I was ok
but there were things that wouldn't fade away.
I looked out into the world with a blank stare
disgusted at how people made it seem like they cared,
If they didn't like me and I knew it was true
their act was over with I was through,
for days and nights I closed my door
and watched the blood drip onto the floor,
to me everyday seemed to rain
I thought even the gods knew my pain.
But soon months had past
this habit was doomed to also last,
I was used to every lying face
telling me they had been in my place,
I shook them off as what they were
pity stories to keep them sure,
I was getting sick of it all
wishing that I could finally fall,
soon things in my life were back to ash
every thought in my mind was rash.
For me there was no turning back
everything bright was now a shade of black,
I hid in the darkest places
now hiding from the smiling faces,
they thought things were ok
I wish things were that way,
but I had held onto my secret
knowing that it would bring regret,
still the sound of falling red tears
had made me forget my fears.
Months became years
as I held onto my fears,
though the flames were out I was the same
yet no one tried to end this game,
they let it go as if it was ment to be
little did they know it was killing me,
I soon felt full of shame
I didn't know where I was to aim,
soon I throw it all away
but I know it will be back some day.
Although we try and no matter what they say
some of these scars will never go away,
for the rest of my life I will see
where sorrow and pain have led me,
I knowI am not who I used to be
my scars are something all can see,
I am not perfect and I have my flaws
likely knowing I am there cause,
but I can say this out loud
yes I have cut myself....But I am not proud.

Thank you for listening, it means alot to me.

Comments

[XxWerdna OisanattaxX]

thats deep