• ALONE:
    In the darkness I sit,
    All by myself,
    All alone,
    Thinking.
    Thinking to myself-
    'Why can't I feel? Why can't the numbness that grips me be broken by the pain I feel when I cut myself? Why can't I stop myself from crying over the smallest things, But when people make fun of me why must I instead bite my lips and pretend nothing happend as I hide behind a smile and as I fight to hold back the tears welling up in me eyes?.'
    As I cry alone at night,
    With no one to comfort me but myself,
    My pillow absorbing my tears,
    Stained with the bitter grief, misery, pain, anger and self-loathing soaking into the fabric,
    All I think about is why I can find no one to love me,
    No one to hold me at night as I cry in the soft darkness,
    No one to save me from the pain that is destroying me,
    No one to stop me from killing myself.
    Thinking this as I fight away tears of loneliness and despair,
    Losing all hope of ever finding someone to love me and to save me from this darkness inside.
    Painful smiles and painful tears.
    What else can I do but smile and cry?
    I know my life is a lie that I am living.
    Dead and empty eyes, glazed with tears,
    Hollow and pale face, tear-stained from constant crying.
    As I feel the pain engulf me forever,
    I feel like giving up entirely.
    My world feels so small that I can't see past tomorrow-
    And tomorrow may be my last day in this world,
    For there is no one here to save me from myself.
    I know I loathe myself,
    So why must I go on any longer?


    Forever..
    As I lay here on the bloody floor,
    The only thought I have is you,
    you always promised me forever,
    But instead you broke my heart in two,
    I cried for you all those lonely nights,
    But what good did it do?
    My only hope was to make my pain go away,
    And all because of you
    I wanted to scream I Hate You!!
    But no matter how hard I tried
    I was still caged in my love for you,
    I knew you thought I was worthless ,
    But now I know that its true
    So here Im lying on this crimson bloody kitchen floor
    I cried.. Im still waiting for you
    Forever you promised me..Forever you lied..
    By: Tessa Bessa