• why is it so hard to realize

    that i dont want you all over my life

    youve never looked through my eyes

    all youve seen are these stupid little lies



    you dont undersatnd that i like to keep my stuff personall

    but you dont really care about my feelings

    and how you use these stuff against me

    and how it feels your shooting right in my heart

    your breaking it more and more

    while calling me a stupid whore

    but whatever i know you dont care

    cause all you like to do is scare !



    why is it so hard for you to realize

    that your breaking me and your loosing me...

    alittle more everyday !

    cause all you do is spit your venom

    like if you where a poison snake

    but i know deep down you enjoy the problems you make

    cause all you really are is a fake !



    why is it so hard for you to realize

    that your loosing my love and your loosing my trust

    but now i dont really care cause it is as you must

    and now its your turn to burn or go rust !



    your always saying that you know how i feel

    that you know what im going through

    but truth is NO YOU DONT !

    and no one does

    unless your living my life youve been in my shoes

    you breath as i breath

    see what i see

    hate what i hat

    live what i live

    and love as what i love !



    life is sensitive

    so why do you play like that with me

    dont you ever get tierd ?

    or do you just try harder ?

    to break me down

    so whats the prize do you win a crown ?



    i know my mistakes

    i know what ive done

    and i dont regret !

    but you find something out and you freak

    and push me down

    till i get further than the ground

    do you hear my sound ?

    the cry's , the sob's , the pleade !

    the sadness and anger its all in my face

    ...well you finally heard my truth

    cause of all your abuse

    my feelings towards you now is hate !

    cause i realize now that your my only big mistake !



    my eye's are now red and sore

    my head is hot ,red ,and full of tears

    and my body full of purple and black smears

    and i run to my room and lock the door

    ..i pray to god for his help

    as he only knows and can see what really happens between you and me

    ad then i stop and let out the anger

    and write this song about you

    and when you read it you'll realize it's all true !

    and its all cause of you !



    why cant you just realize im done !

    why cant you just realize im tierd

    and i finally stoped !!

    the pain is gone .....

    the hurt and anger left

    as i lay thier on the bathroom floor

    and my heart beats slower and slower

    and my eyes close slowly

    and the breathing ....stops !!

    as it is all complete

    its all over for me

    it all stopped ............

    just cause of an overdose of pills

    but the sadness is still in my face

    and youve regret what youve done

    when you see my body

    right thier,right on the floor

    cold and pale

    like snow after hale !



    my eyes slightly opend ...death before me

    you realize what youve done

    and from the sky i cry as i see my funeral

    and everyone in black

    .....when the prayer begins

    it starts to rain

    its the tears drippig down my face

    and i regret all the blood that ever came out of my vain

    god ,comes to me and holds me

    he gives me his blessing and hiss forgiveness

    for all ive done

    and he lets me see the prayers givin to me from and to sky

    and it always seems

    that no matter where i am

    i guess the pain and sadness will always follow my heart

    and never leave it alone !

    but i know i created this on my own

    and because of this ......

    i die alone !!!