• As I listen to my Christian brothers
    My mind goes down memory lane
    I remember all the things I had gone through
    My past came flying back to me
    I was reminded of when I thought no one cared
    Thought that I had no reason to live
    Remembering how I thought of ways to disappear
    Erasing me from this world
    The world of the living
    Picking up the pills
    Thinking of the time I shall be gone
    Writing in my journal
    Soon another memory filled my mind
    When I had stop believing in my Father
    Cursing him
    Using His name in vain
    Telling myself He was a lie
    Yelling at Him
    Testing Him
    Not believing in my parents
    Rolling my eyes at those who tried to bring me out of my shell
    Making my shell thicker
    So NO ONE could break through
    Not even the Father and His Son
    A grin came across my face as the lesson went on
    A thought came to my mind
    No matter how thick my shell was
    He would break through
    He waited for me
    Waited for me to return
    As of my friends and family
    Soon I came back
    Came back to my family, friends, and the Father
    Came back to believing in Him
    I snapped out of my thoughts when John asked who had not light a candle
    I had raised my hand
    I rose and he handed me a candle
    Soon he lit my candle
    When I sat back down and set the candle down I listen to the lesson
    Jordan came and soon put his foot over my candle
    Forcing the light to be put out
    He explained that Satan put out that light
    He soon told me to re light it
    That is what I did
    Yet, someone had to light it for me
    For the wick was too deep in
    When I sat back down
    I watch the candle burn
    Soon I thought of how deep the wick was
    Then, realized, that wick was I
    It was I at the point of my life
    Thinking of death
    And not believing in my Father
    Soon I asked Jordan if I could say something
    Told those how the candle I was holding compared to me
    Told them how I thought of disappearing
    How I stopped believing in my Father
    When I was done
    I was proud of myself
    I was finally able to get that off my chest
    I soon sat down and listen again
    My mind went back to memory lane again
    As they talked I thought more
    More of my past
    Soon remembering my younger years
    Scaring those around me
    Thinking of magic and darkness
    Thinking of those that are not part of God’s teachings
    Soon I was snapped out of my thoughts again
    I stood and sang with everyone
    Formed a chain with them
    As I looked around at everyone
    One word came to my mind
    Family
    This was my family
    I do not only have a blood line family
    I have a God family
    God is our Father
    While everyone else are brothers and sisters
    Treating us all equal
    At the end of our gathering
    I listen as John told them
    That they did not only have to talk to the leaders
    They could talk to us
    Aron, Jordan, John, Christ, any of us
    I said that they could talk to me also
    We all go through hardships
    We need someone to help us
    Many to help
    We are a family
    No matter what you say
    I shall think of my Youth Group as a Family
    Along with my church
    And my friends
    You will not be able to change my mind
    For we are all family
    And a family we shall stay