• Crumbling to pieces
    I do not make a sound
    Listening to my heartbeat
    As I fall to the ground

    Holding my chest tight
    Unforgiving is the pain
    Keeping it inside
    There is nothing else to gain

    Whimpering, I move
    But the pain is way to deep
    Tears held in my eyes
    But I do not dare to weep

    Screaming in my mind
    But keeping my mouth shut
    Scared of what will happen
    As I make another cut

    Blood drips on the paper
    As I write my last goodbye
    Holding the pencil tightly
    As I slowly start to cry

    The papers soaked with tears
    The blood has stained the floor
    My note is on the table
    I close my eyes once more

    Standing up, I walk
    Towards the corner of my room
    And ball up on the floor
    As if it was my tomb

    The room is spinning around me
    And I want to make it stop
    The razor blade still in my hand
    I take another chop

    The pain seers up my arm
    And you would think it hurts
    But I don't feel a thing
    It just stops all the alerts

    I close my eyes again
    As the dizziness is making me sick
    I think of a happy place
    A forest beside a creek

    The image starts to darken
    And my life passes before my eyes
    Suddenly I want it to stop
    Though I know that everyone dies

    It's too late now
    I can see the light ahead
    I smile as I walk towards it
    No more pain or dread

    The next morning I was watching
    As I sat up in the sky
    My parents walked into my room
    And I had to watch them cry

    I wanted to look away
    Because it hurt more than the blade
    I wanted to go and comfort them
    Even though I disobeyed

    My mom died of cancer
    One mother after I was gone
    My dad shot himself
    He just wanted to be withdrawn

    I had to watch as they died
    As they walked towards the light
    I cried myself to sleep
    Knowing it'd never be alright

    I never saw them again
    Though in heaven they say you do
    But my parents must have hated me
    I can't say I wouldn't have too

    I sit in the clouds all day
    And I watch people die
    I don't think this is heaven
    'Cause in heaven you're not supposed to cry

    This must be what hell is
    To watch the world go by
    I know why I was sent here though
    I made my family die