• a) i decided what to tell you
    to make us perfect
    again
    but something changed
    and i just clean forgot it all
    it's killing me
    because i know
    i'll never get the chance
    to be as beautiful
    to you
    again
    you'll never see me
    as the friends we could've been

    n)how can i love you so much?
    i don't know anything about you, like
    your shoe size
    your favourite flavour of icecream
    what colour your nails are
    how many red cars you can see right now
    all the important things
    so why doesn't any of that matter?

    t)i need to kill off this girl
    properly destroy her
    let's see her survive this
    if hurting her won't work
    how about hurting somebody she loves
    anyway
    it'll be funny

    z) i promised you that everyone lied to me
    you promised they didn't
    completely missing the point
    (i knew you lied to me, always)
    i'm hitting rock bottom faster than you could ever hit me
    (is that a challenge, b***h?)
    i threw out all my shoes
    (you're carrying me now)
    and doused myself in
    sugar
    spice
    and all things addictive
    just the way
    you love me