• i.

    running.
    i think.
    these bare feet giving me hell
    slapping against the pavement,
    burning under the sun,
    crying under the rain.
    this rain.
    my legs have never moved so fast,
    accelerating with each step,
    faster faster faster,
    get me out of here.

    but i have gotten nowhere.



    ii.

    not her.
    no, not her.
    not here.
    not now.
    make the pain go away,
    no no no
    make the pain stop,
    why is it not stopping?



    iii.

    help?
    anyone?
    but i have already received it,
    why do i not feel any better?



    iv.

    you moving on,
    four months ago never expected
    never ever expected.

    i hate you.
    three words run through my head.
    who am i saying them to?
    i do not know
    i do not know
    i do not know!



    v.

    why am i not good enough?
    i was never good enough.
    why am i not pretty enough?
    she is prettier than i.
    why am i not enough?
    she has so much more to offer.



    vi.

    you flood my head
    you take control
    but you did not break the levees,
    why is there water?
    listen to me drown so deep,
    ignore me as i hate so much.
    stop it
    stop it



    vii.

    why was i a fool for you?
    one with so little to offer,
    you cowardly genius.
    was i never the good one to you?
    so why did you ask in the first place?
    do not answer any questions,
    or you will break the levees again
    and the tears will flood the city.



    viii.

    i am so sorry
    i regret it all,
    take me back,
    call it a joke,
    please,
    i entered that math class to see you
    (even though i do not)
    i joined that club to see you
    (but i do not want to ever again)
    i stuck to it
    because you told me to
    and you told me you would save me
    but i am not worth anything to you
    not anymore
    because she is the one you care about
    i hate this
    i hate it all
    curse love,
    that is exactly what i would say
    if i was foolish enough to believe in it.

    but am i?
    i pray not.