• In my eyes
    Love
    is the most sickening
    pleasurable
    dissatisfying
    and the most fabulous way
    to waste my time
    In my eyes
    Love doesn't exist
    it's just another one of those lies
    spread around.
    'Everyone has a true love you just have to find them'
    Bull.
    s**t.
    I found her
    Yes.
    I found her.
    You know what happened?
    She didn't like me.
    I still 'love' her.
    it has been over a year
    since my heart started pumping
    and now I just wish it would stop.
    Every time I try and give you up
    I find some way to sway back
    to the way I feel about you again
    You never seem to exit my thoughts
    and when you do I beg to god you come back at once
    I am desperate
    I'm not going to lie
    But I wish
    you would just sing me a sweet, poisoned lullaby
    So that when I die
    from that deadly poison
    you will be the last thing in my eyes
    but you won't do it
    I know you won't
    and I will never ask you


    It is one of those times
    Where I say to myself
    "She will never love you
    You ignorant fool"
    and I pick up the knife
    and contemplate whether to slice
    but I don't
    For the sake of my mental health
    I keep my wrists clean
    But oh, sometimes it is just so tempting


    And today I had an epiphany
    Love is simply a figment of imagination
    for some the thought is glorious
    you got your one true love
    but for me
    I suffer a tragedy
    in this never ending nightmare
    chasing the one I will
    forever
    want to Hold.


    And it ends
    with me watching her smooch
    the one she really loves
    and I will simply die in her memories