• My feelings all jumbled
    They hurt like pins
    Every emotion
    Every twinge
    Every burn
    Every hint
    Your seldom sweet words dont work
    Atleast not anymore

    Crazy as it sounds
    I feel all on my own
    The person you once thought i was is now gone
    While the new degrated self-hating me
    Is now threatining the position of loneliness

    Your by my side
    But greedy i have become
    For perfection is my achievement
    In this small shallow world

    My envys sticks out like a sore thumb
    Isnt it obvious?
    How the way your not here every second means your not all mine?

    The mind wanders places
    Places unspeakable
    Unmentionable
    Pondering not just on you
    For my wondering eyes are the cause
    Lust is the final explanation

    Perfection at its peak
    Truth be told, i work for nothing but the best
    I am who i am
    Pride shows through my teeth
    I wish for no more

    Screech the voices
    Lungs shrill on the highest notes
    Anger piles out
    In sadness
    In pain
    In hate

    S is for the sinners choice of the day
    L is for the laziness chosen
    O is for the over exagerattion of life
    T is for the truth settled deep with in your lies
    H is for the highest degree of interdependency
    Sloth if for nothing more than a con-dependent self-loving being

    Food rises up
    Past the mile high mark
    Gluttony takes its place
    In the darkdepth of a blackvoid
    Takes on the shape of a man

    My crimes compliment the seven deadly sins
    My damnation such as these selfish thoughts
    Turn me to the only possible solution
    My being, my self is the one true at fault

    The error souley on my part
    Feelings connected to heart
    Heart connected to dreams
    Dreams connected to hope
    But it all stops thier...

    For such a sinner hope no longer exists
    Critize everything on life
    On liberty
    And condemn justice
    Condemn is just another word for blame
    But blame is all i have left
    Blame is the only thing i expect
    Blame nothing more nothing less