• The Names Jess
    A lost soul of forgetfulness
    Trapped in a surrounding of torment
    A world full of hate and pain.
    Forgotten, alone, confused and worried
    So much on her mind
    The agony
    The feeling she done something wrong
    With no one there
    With no one to help
    To much for one to handle
    To much for one to comprehend
    With family and friends.
    Thinking and studying.
    Fear of losing.
    College on one end.
    Life on the other.
    Hidden behind the curtain
    Yet trapped behind the bars
    Screaming, yelling and frustration
    Unable to be heard
    Hiding behind a smile
    Not knowing what to do
    Worthless
    Not knowing who to trust
    Losing control
    Tears falling from her eyes
    Her hands shaking
    Dizzy spells
    Nose bleeds
    Heart racing
    Always cold
    And always feeling alone
    Wondering who will be there to hold her hand
    Wondering who will catch her when she falls
    She is lost
    She is alone
    Always alone
    Blaming others
    Holding her anger inside
    Biting her lip
    Holding back cuss words
    Wanting to help those around her
    Wanting to help others through their pain
    Hoping that when she helps them a weight will lift off her shoulders
    Curled up in corners
    Arms around her legs
    Rocking back and forth
    Saying good bye to another day.
    As she lays there,
    Tears still falling
    Her heart is broken
    Her soul gone
    She is again alone
    With no one there to guide her.
    No one truly beside her
    She gazes out her window
    As she lays there on the floor
    Closing her eyes
    And saying a-due
    Goodnight dark sky
    Good night hopes and dreams
    Good bye.
    Dressed all in black
    From head to toe
    The all attend
    She actually had friends
    Their tears fall
    One by one
    Her family cries
    She feels it then
    The warmth from them she forever seeked
    The feeling she was looking for then
    She took the easy way out
    That she now sees
    She opens her eyes
    She seems to be on her bed
    With a horror novel beside her head
    she quickly jumps up and runs out her door
    Down the hallway and upstairs to the second floor
    Burst open her parents door
    Her self in tears
    Her mom just waking up and smiling
    "What's wrong my dear?"
    She hugs her tight.
    "I don't ever want us to ever fight"
    Her mom strokes her back.
    And smiles with a grin.
    That there I know is my first
    Best friend.