• You tell me these feelings are so wrong,
    That I cannot be , that I should not be.
    But I just close my eyes and listen to this song...
    "Let me be, let me be!"
    Your eyes go red with rage, you launch yourself at me,
    But I am far away, so far away.
    You tear now at my flesh,covered in makeup.
    "bloody abomination" you hiss, you curse at me...

    But I am too far away, so far away.
    The dresses stashed under my bed
    They are my treasure, in my head.
    You cannot take my joy away...
    Even if you locked me up,
    I will not look up,
    I dare not look up,
    To you I am just a shameful mistake.

    To you I am the one damned,
    The one marked.
    The boy that could not be man enough.
    The girl that could never be woman enough.
    "Leave!" I scream, snapping out of my stupor...
    I find myself breathing heavy,
    You break all of my perfume bottles.
    Glass bounces off the walls to land at my feet,
    covered in sores from your shoes you know I wore.

    Bitter woman, bitter b***h.
    I look better than you in heels.
    I am the one that turns heads,
    Yet right now I don't feel like much.
    Your womb rejected me once,
    And you grab your rosary and pray,
    I scream blasphemy after blasphemy,
    Just so that you can see how much pain you've caused.

    I am still your child,
    the one with the matted long hair,
    Almond brown eyes and supple frame
    That makes everyone in the family laugh.
    Want to bone me and touch me...
    They all had their share.
    But I have still my crown, I have my pride.

    Now let me bleed,
    With my head held high.
    I am your f**,
    I am your nightmare,
    Your burden.

    If I go to hell,
    You shall go as well.
    I don't believe in hell,
    Your church has forsaken me,
    And so has your God.
    I throw my mascara at you,
    You grab my already bruised wrist and call me
    Those names you never called anyone. I cry louder,
    I scream harder, I cradle my head and curse you.
    Mother. I am your b*****d,unwanted f** of a child.

    I forgive you.