• tell me, did i catch you while you were falling?
    and with some strange manuevering on your part, i was suddenly the one closer to the ground.
    i didn't dare speak of the past.
    seeing as how unreliable it appeared to be.
    but, now, that my eyes have opened...
    i've realized.
    the past helps us comprehend what is most reliable.

    i've learned from you.
    my eyes caught your every movement, you never even noticed just how carefully i was watching.
    i noticed as you blossomed into something i could never become.
    not that that's necassarily bad.
    cause it isn't.
    i'm blossoming into something completely different.
    you're just an apple tree, and i'm a pear tree.
    they might grow similiarly, but they bear different fruit.

    not all trees prosper.
    some catch disease which causes them to live in a sickly fashion, until death befalls upon them.

    you could say i look at the sky too much.
    but what do you expect, when i'm so sick of seeing the ground?
    up close and personal.
    i'd rather lay on a cloud than on this rough concrete i walk upon.
    but that could result in one hell of a fall.

    wouldn't it be lovely?
    to be able to predict things.
    to grab a parachute before you start falling.
    glide your way down to a softer landing.
    because you were prepared.

    sorry if all this talk of falling seems repetitive.
    it just so happens to be something i know all too well.
    and i have a certain fascination for thee sky.

    for some reason i got this thought stuck in my head.
    nobody believes in me.
    a couple people do, though.
    and i do.
    which is ALL that matters.
    i remember saying anger is an odd emotion to get someone to feel motivated.
    but when i think of all the assholes that have tried to bring me down throughout my life,
    it pisses me off.
    it pisses me off and i want to be better than all of them.
    show them they couldn't break me.

    lesson learned.
    anger is a great motivational tool, if used correctly.