• You me all alone i couldn't do anything,i cry every time im by myself,i drown in Terrifing memories i hold to myself left unsaid,why can't you come back?is this the way life goes?i ask myself so many questions left to be answered,i block everyone out so noyone breaks in,i fake a smile each day,it makes my heart ache.

    My world is pitch black,in my world rain that are my tears continuously fall down,theres a gate that surrounds my world so that i wont escape,that gate has;vines,thorns,and blood dripping off it,there's a huge chains around a huge lock thats budged,iv locked away all my emotions,i sit under a tall tree trembling while holding my knees and crying,of sadness,and hatred,these tears i shed are only for you,im a prisoner....

    Why is it that you left without saying a word?it hurts me alot,without knowing what were you going to do....you act without thinking....why did you leave me behind?!i miss you so much...iv lost myself,theres no light glancing in my eyes my eyes are just gloomy,i wonder places as it rains not knowing were im going,as i wonder through my memories.

    I want to hear your voice.
    I want to hug you tightly.
    I wanted to say i love you

    But now..its too late,your gone forver,i blame myself for letting you go...i should've been the one dead!....i wish you were here,its your fault!its your fault im like this!....rather its my fault.....for letting you into my heart soo much....its like you schemed to get into my heart alot and deep then break me once you've died...tell me was it all a scheme?or was it true?why did you leave me without saying a word?i don't know what to do anymore.......

    you promised me you'd never leave me.....but yet you did.....and now my heart is shattered into peices,im trying to put it back......but i cant because i drown in the memories of you,....tell me.....why did you come into my life?why did i have to meet you?....if this was how it felt to have somyone close and dear to you in your heart i don't ever want to feel this feeling again!i don't ever want to feel how it is to love somyone soo much!.....

    my heart aches alot from the pain thats burdeing me...i can't let you go.....you were my best friends,my lover....even though im young and your the same age as me 12......you and i had to meet,why did i have to love somyone and let them get the best of me and just sink into my heart.....?you wana know why?cuase i lovd you i couldn't see anyone else but you!we were both so young in love and me young and now the closest and dearest person has vanished,iv lost myself i can't get a hold of myself anymore....if this was how it felt to fall in love with you...i never would have let you got to close to me...but i did cause you were my first love .....

    Tell me....why did you leave without saying a word?.....ill never want to love again....or feel anything like this again...