• i'm starting up, into the dark night

    because i just lost my bright light.
    it was a war, i wasn't prepared for.
    instead you showed me to the door.
    she won you over, as easily as it is to breathe.
    now my chest can barely even heave.
    without you, breathing is just a waste of energy
    love is now my only allergy.
    when i see you two together, tears fall
    you can't take time to even call
    just to see im in alive, and breathing.
    even tho we were constantly seething.
    i hate being alive, without you here
    why did you let her win, my dear?
    this isn't how i wanted it all to end
    but you let my heart continuously bend
    until it finally broke apart.
    you said, this could be a new start
    but i don't see a new beginning.
    if only you could see what i was becoming.
    you don't care, so why would i?
    what if i told you, i always cry?
    or that i want to die?
    would that even matter to you?
    or do you want that too?