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I believe that feeling is something you learn
it is not a given
many of you might disagree with me
or went on disbelief when i told you this
I've learned to feel sad, love and hatred
i don't automatically love someone
i don't feel a thing when my mother feed me
i've always said i love her but
the truth is
i don't really know
i come to reject all love
getting almighty when they said they love me
then the next day
i abandon them
ironically i like people base on my first impression
i judge them
base on how they look
and decide if they are good or bad
what is their hobbies, their characteristics?
i decide it all when i first met them
it was then when i learned more about them
they were somewhat different from what i see them in
i distant myself and look at them differently
they did not met my expectation
but what does this have to do with hatred?
is it that due to this
i trust them easily
i was betrayed
and betrayed them
the boy i met
i tell him my secret, my life story
i expect him to keep it
but the next day
i told it to everyone
in front of me
and they all laugh at me
it was a nasty feeling
even though i told him all of those thing
sarcastically, jokingly
but all of those thing are sincere
i began to hate him
want to rip him in pieces
wish that he were dead
maybe not to that extreme
but i did not want to see him
and want my revenge
but the boy is still clueless about what is going on
he still text me
but i wonder if all of those were truth
then i began to distant myself
i ignore and cut off contact with
wishing that i never see him again
what wrong on the story was
that poor boy did nothing wrong
the only thing that did is
that i trusted him
when i made up his character inside my mind
till today
i still hate him
it just keep on growing
but i don't want to hurt other
so i did not block him
but the boy keep contacting
which draw me insane
what is it that he want from me
please disappeared from my life
this is an disgusting feeling
and thing that i do
but i do not regret this
regret that i've hurt someone
- by sinsinloveyuuki |
- Poetry And Lyrics
- | Submitted on 01/11/2019 |
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- Title: hatred
- Artist: sinsinloveyuuki
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- Date: 01/11/2019
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