"Hello, You're Kin...."

[Meaeshana PhoenixFire]

Well seeing as no one else seems to want to make use of this section, I will. I wanna know how everyone came to understand a) that they are/were Kin, and b) what type of kin they are/were.

And if you're human... how you came to learn about others that are Kin, and what all of your views are on it. If that makes sense?

I just ask because I'm still a little unsure of what type of Kin I am. I've known about Kin for quite some time now, not that I'm an expert on it though, just... I'm still learning about it, and trying to understand what sort of Kin I am. So I think it would be interesting to learn about what you all are, and how you came to that conclusion.

So if you dun mind... ramble away. ^^;

 

[Terg]

*shrug*

My tale ain't as interesting as everyone else's, but I'll regale you with it anyway.

My trip to kin-ship begins waaaaaaaaaaay-back in my golden years. When I was too young to really care about or understand how much a screw-up the world was. Regardless of that, I was always a happy vibrant child. Even though ridicule was dominant, and my hot temper didn't do much to help either. I still lived each day as if it was my first day awake and alive.

Until, however, I got a stutter. A pox upon the tounge of those who have much to tell. And it only succeeded in making me an introvert. Especially after I got an explanation of how stutters come about: a part of the brain is shaped differently (most likely in the speech skills area). Where there was a ridge or fissure, there was not. While it was simply a medical explanation, it only proved to me that I was never right in the head.

I attended a Catholic grade school, so I got my fair share of theology in my cirriculum. Out of most of what's happened to me in my 'life', it was probably one of the most influencial things that happened to me. While the teacher spat out junk of how great gawd was and how Jeebus did all these awesome things in some place too far away from me to relate to, in a time too long ago for me to understand.

I began contemplation a year after I got the stutter, and I always got the message that there was something greater. Something stronger than the pity-love I felt from my parents. Me being the youngest, black sheep out of three children. A love that wasn't pity, but stronger than the rock of ages and more powerful than if all the stars in the existant cosmos were pulled into a thimble. I wanted to find that love, and cling to it.

Thus begins the most influential thing in my life, my cousin getting leukemia.

While I searched for that love, my cousin had developed leukemia and kept his strength burning inside him. It acted as a testimony to this love I was looking for.

I searched and contemplated while my cousin got spinal taps and Rob (his IV stand).

However, I got my first paranormal encounter when I had a dream in fifth grade. A dream of a lion falling into a dark abyss, and nothing I could do to save him. I first thought it was nothing but a dream, until it's foretold meaning became clear as day to me the next year when my cousin died.

My cousin's Zodiac sign was Leo, and he had fallen into death as the lion fell into the abyss.

How did I feel? Angry, upset, lost, lonely. I had thought that the love I felt before had vanished, and I went into a dark time of my youth. I searched for cosmic truths in dark places, and started to look into magick and witchcraft.

First, I looked into were-wolfism and shifting through two methods. Affirmations and a Satanist method I found in the intarweb. I had looked into lycanthropy because I had felt a beast rise up inside me when my cousin died, and could feel it pacing around in my stomach, and scratching at my ribs like it was a cage. I used both methods in hopes that one day I would be able to shed my humanity.

While I sought to be a werewolf, I also looked into psychic powers and famous psions like Uri Geller and past psychic sensations like that Russian woman who could seperate egg whites from the yolk back in the 50s. I honed myself to improve my aura, and my psi-potential. Which led to my early development of Telekinesis, Precognition, ESP, Spoon bending and Remote Viewing.

I never actually learned the word 'otherkin', or got my first exposure to magick until my eighth grade year. While on a search to find new abilties and tehcniques on Google, I found a site run by a fellow named Darkwander. I read all the information he had on his website and forum, and gradually began to understand kin. The whole year was a time of exposure and learning, which still pays off.

I never found my celestial nature until my freshman year, and eventually met Bassy when I joined another kin forum called "The Kin Den". And learned more there, as Darkwander's site was a little intimidating when I first joined. Later that year, I also found my name. Which revived my belief that there was a cosmic source of love and light which I respectfully call "Mother".

So, here I am, the village muse.  

[Meaeshana PhoenixFire]

Thank you Terg, that was most informative. Not exactly what I was expecting when I originally asked my question/s, but regardless, it has given me something to ponder. sweatdrop

If you dun mind, could you tell me how you came to understand you were a muse? What brought about that descision? You haven't much mentioned it. I understand the spiritual side of things, how you came to understand and believe you were something else, but you don't explain how you discovered specifically what/who that is?

Is there any reason for that?

Sorry if I'm askin' too much here, I'm just really curious and wanna know. Tryin' to figure myself out in the process here. stressed

 

[Terg]

I learned I was a muse when I first heard they existed. It just felt...so....naturally true. I can't describe it. It was a powerful sensation.

And a few months ago, I just learned my name. Karathiel.

Even some of the members of this guild knew me at some point in my existence. Lien knew me in several lives, and during our downtime on the otherside.  

[Meaeshana PhoenixFire]

Hmm, sounds reasonable. I suppose. Problem is I can feel my limbs, and know the sort of thoughts of my Kin-type, but I cannot find anything remotely like it... there is no description for what I feel. Which is rather confusing at best.

Thanks Terg.

 

[DemonicAngel12]

(This is gonna be short)
Well for me, the first thing that happened was I started gaining feelings, first those of betrayal and sadness which soon moved on to anger. Then the memories followed those feeling and I shortly grew to understand how the memories and feelings matched together. My name came to me after that with a LOT of help from Rufu *grins at her* and more memories arrived, I remembered meeting Ben and so on. I really don't remember how I figured out I was a demon but meh.  

[iRovan]

Mea-eshana

Hmm, sounds reasonable. I suppose. Problem is I can feel my limbs, and know the sort of thoughts of my Kin-type, but I cannot find anything remotely like it... there is no description for what I feel. Which is rather confusing at best.

Thanks Terg.

Hello, i think i already introduced myself on some other post before so i would let that for a later post here. I would like to know first, what kind of thoughts you are having? Maybe if you share them, we can help you to define wich kind of creature you are.  

[Meaeshana PhoenixFire]

Oh my, I'd forgotten I made this topic.
Glad to see I didn't miss anything.

However, I do have an update to add.
I've half figured out what I am,
Species-wise anyway.

Ever heard of a Leucistic Blynx?
No, neither had I until a few weeks ago.

I know, that's actually a Siberian Lynx.
But it's close enough.
Leucistic means without color,
And albino without the lack of pigment,
They're actually white furred, with white markings.
Interesting no?

A Blynx is a cross between a Canadian Bobcat,
And the American Lynx... or is it the other way around.
~thinks~
One or the other.

But yeah, that's what my true animal form is.
However, I still realise there's more beyond that.
For this is merely the image my soul has taken,
Or naturally has? I'm not sure.
It's -what- I am, now who I am.