I gotta slight disfuction

[Status Quo Joe]

and it's that me and my BFFL like eachother.

Not really bad.
Just Complicated.
I'll give some Examples.


Example one.
Her: She shows me this on her computer http://i22.tinypic.com/2chlv9g.jpg
Me: *smiles* I've had that dream before.
Her: Really? Cool!
Me: Fo Cereal! Hey.
Her: What?
Me: Dreams should come true. I'm so lame.
Her: They should...
Me: *smiles*

and after that we just stared at eachother.
Nothing happened.

Example two. A few days earlier.

Me: What do you want out of a relationship, specifically one with me?
Her: Honestly? Commitment not tied down with words. I don't want to feel like I have to say, "I love you," I just want to be with you, dating or not.

So That really shocked me being that she told me that she would never get romantically involved with me, in fear that we would hate eachother afterwards.

The thing is.
We almost went out once.
My friend asked her out the day that HE KNEW I was going to ask her out.
So what if they'd been Romantically involved long before he popped the question.
SHE LIKED ME.
It should have been me.
I guess he used he's charm
He does it to all girls.
He's a man whore.
They broke up anyway.

anyway.
moving on.

I don't know what to do.
I mean.
It's obvious she wants something to happen.
At least kiss.
and honestly.
I wouldn't mind that at all.

Suggestions.  

[Status Quo Joe]

MORE STUFF!Recently
Me: I gots an idea.
Me: ..um *coughcough* My lips hurt.
Her: Huh?
Me: haha nevermind, it was an illfated plan to begin with
Her:

but it was just a peck on the lips. not like making out.  

[x I raped Jesus x]

Aww
I suck at relation ship things
But I say keep making moves
something will happen
and I doubt you will hate each other if you are good friends already
Remind them of all the good memories you two have had and then ask if theyed like to make more memories with you as a couple
maybe
idk


(p.s that lip hurt thing was awesome and Im going to use it) xp  

[Zealous Blue]

DOES SHE NEED TO HOLD UP A NEON SIGN FOR YOU?

CHRIST ******** MIGHTY. SHE OBVIOUSLY LIKES YOU. DON'T LEAVE HER HANGING.  

[Status Quo Joe]

Zealous Blue

DOES SHE NEED TO HOLD UP A NEON SIGN FOR YOU?

CHRIST ******** MIGHTY. SHE OBVIOUSLY LIKES YOU. DON'T LEAVE HER HANGING.

Yes.
She does.
haha.  

[Status Quo Joe]

So, I ******** up.

I made out with my ex.
I suck.  

[b0ybands]

NO.

YOU DID NOT.
I WAS READING THE THREAD AND IT WAS SOOOCUUUTE. D;


Make it ******** right again. I don't know how, just do it. D:  

[Pink Rain Today]

DARN YOU!!

HOW COULD YOU DO THAT?

FIX IT! WITH DUCT TAPE, AND LOVE, AND SOME RAINBOWS!!

GOGOGO!!

 

[Status Quo Joe]

I'm trying.

I'm bringing her to a Big D concert with me.  

[Pink Rain Today]

D is the beginning of "duct tape".

... This may just work.

Wish you the best. <3  

[Status Quo Joe]

So I flirted with her tonight.
and I made one mistake.

we got clumsy.
and smacked each other.
whee

but anyway, I should've kissed her.  

[Status Quo Joe]

I figured, you people don't actually no me or here. So an excerpt from my diary. I don't remember half of this as it was during an emotional rant.
Enjoy.

Quote:

I can’t do it.
So, there's this girl, and you can't imagine how much I love her. I love her more than the sky, the moon, the sun, my life. She is amazing and one of the best friends I can say, that I've ever had. She makes my existence meaningful and makes me want to shout with joy. She's what keeps me up at night. What keeps me on my toes. What brings me pain. What brings me joy. She's the reason I try so so so hard. She's the reason that I live. It's sadly gotten to that point. I ******** love this girl, and I've had too many chances. Too many chances for me to ******** this up now. I've worked harder for this than any thing in my life, if that's believable.
Tonight, November 4th, I flirted. I went out of my way to be with her. We as of this point in time are BFFL. I hope to keep that. I also hope to go out with her. Tonight I worked so damn hard. I brought her back to my shitty old house.
Flirted with her. Hugged and clung to her, but I just couldn't bring myself to kiss her, To say those six words. "Will you go out with me?" It just tears me apart. I love her. I love her more than I should. Yet I can't say a few ******** words.
It's bullshit. and I'm a p***y for not saying them. You don't know how many times I've just wanted to hold her in my arms and say that she;s mine. You don't know how many times we've come close to kissing. Which would be a big step towards complete happiness for me. Believe me, I want this for no lustful reasons. I want this cause I need it. I need the person who loves me as I love her. I just want this to happen. It doesn't matter. I ******** love her. I want to scream it at the top of my lungs. I want to write it on the walls and draw it in the sky. I want everyone to know I love her. I just can't let them know yet. That would be stupid. Right? I really don't know. "I don't know anything." The excuse I use for all the things I supposedly don't know about, but for once in my life this is as sure as the sun. I KNOW I NEED THIS. I just want to scream these things. I want to be in class and when asked who I love, I can proudly stand up and say with as much emotions as possible " I love Kelsey Elizabeth Forest more than anything in the world!" I want to be able to be with her for as long as needed. Even if it's for just three months. Those three months in my meaningless life would be the happiness, most wonderful nights I would've experienced in my entire life. I need this. I need this like i need the air i breathe and the water I drink. I try to fool myself with lust of other girls. All the sex and Drugs in the world couldn't make me feel as good as I do when I'm around Kelsey. It's inane. It's downright insane, but I LOVE KELSEY ELIZABETH FOREST!

 

[Status Quo Joe]

******** ******** ******** ******** ******** ******** ******** ******** ******** hate my timing.
My luck.
and my current situation.
every time.
Every time I don't kiss her.
Every time someone asks her out right before me.
Why?
WHY?  

[stellar sound]

if you love her so much than ******** ASK HER OUT ALREADY!!!!!!!!!! JESUS CHRIST IT"S NOT THAT HARD!!!!!! the worst that could happen is her saying no (which i doubt will happen if she likes you as much as she acts like she does) SO JUST DO IT!!!!!!!  

[Status Quo Joe]

We made out The First minute of the year.


It was fantastic.