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Posted: Tue Feb 23, 2010 7:12 pm
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*Paces around* ... I... I think I may have completely destroyed the relationship between my best friend and I. But I won't know until tomorrow... This friend of mine is the same one whose transgendered... The thing is, I've have... some very deep feeling for her/him. Just being around her makes me feel better than it does in any other way. I just want to stay as close as I can to her, no matter what. I don't have any interest in marrying her or have an intimate relationship with her... but still, I just can't control these feelings for her. I guess you would call it an asexual crush... because I only want to remain close to her/him... and nothing more... but still, it's been absolutely eating me alive for the last few days... what's worse, my friend has feelings for another boy, but.... arrrrrggggh!!!! *slaps herself a few times* cry
sigh... I just sent her an e-mail admitting everything... my feelings, my confusion, everything... which she probably won't be able to read until after work around 4 in the afternoon... sigh, I think I may have really screwed up... cry
We've been together for almost 10 years now!!! She's like sister to me!!! We've been through a ton of stuff together!! and now I feel like I've just messed up her life even more... Was I wrong to even tell her everything? She tells me to talk to her about everything, as I say for her to do with me, but still... I think I went way too far... I'm going to be worried about it until I get a message back... if she'll talk to me again...
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 6:35 am
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 11:05 am
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It's not the sisterly thing, though certainly it would make my life more easier if it was. I wouldn't have even bothered telling her about it if that was all it was. sweatdrop
Deep down, I WANT a relationship with her, and more than just "Hey, we're best friends" and all that rot. But I don't have those feelings of wanting to be in an intimate relationship. I don't know why, but she's the only person I've ever felt this way for, and I've had several crushes in the past... I always assumed that love and lust just kinda went hand and hand, and then, all of a sudden, these feelings just start coming out... (Well, they came out with abomb. They've been around for a while, but I figured it would eventually die out...)
Does that explain it a bit further? My apologies if it was really confusing. I was half asleep when writing this...
As for why I feel like I've said the wrong things, we've just had such a close bond in the past, and well, she always said she'd never date me cause I'm more like a sister to her.... sweatdrop I feel like, well... I've kinda went and violated the already really good relationship I have with her... if you get what I mean... Like I may have really overstep my boundaries.... Anyway, she doesn't get off of work until about 4 tonight... and i have classes till about 7 tonight... so, it's still gonna be a long wait... sweatdrop
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 11:46 am
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 1:47 pm
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 2:18 pm
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Posted: Wed Feb 24, 2010 2:54 pm
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Posted: Thu Feb 25, 2010 10:21 am
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Posted: Thu Feb 25, 2010 1:56 pm
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Posted: Thu Feb 25, 2010 7:31 pm
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Posted: Fri Feb 26, 2010 11:39 pm
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