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Ok so I have a friend who's been my friend since forever but thing is he's going to be engaged soon and he said since he's not engaged yet,that its up to me what I want if I want to be with him for a one time thing only,basically a friends with benefits thing. I tried telling him I only wanted to be his friend but he said that he misses having sex with me online.

Thing is in my past I had a friends with benefits thing with my friend but right now I told my friend that I have a bf already but it seems its going on an up and down thing for me and my bf, and my friend said that he didn't mind me using him so I told him no,I don't want to use him. Thing is I was mad at my bf so I was thinking in my mind not right to be with my friend. I'm so confused.

What should I do in my situation?.

Thats exactly why I was the one who turned down my friend for the friends with benefits thing,but now he's the one pissed at me. And I told my friend I'm not cheating on my bf since its not right,that's why I went against the benefits,it was my friend who was forcing me into the friends with benefits thing. And I do have feelings for my now bf and that's why I told my bf the whole truth since I told him I'm not going to hide things from him especially since my friend told me not to tell anyone about the whole him asking me for sex. And my friend wasn't understanding which was the asinine thing to do since he was the one mad at me because I said no.