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One moment they were in the woods the next Lilith’s cave. She had only been here a few times when she was little but it was familiar all the same. Vadoma rubbed at her eyes with the palms of her hands. She felt empty inside, like everything she had had just drained away, her body heavy made it hard to move.

She stared blankly at the contents of the chalice when it was handed to her. Allowing herself to be moved towards the fire, she settled on the ground next to her grandmother. Lilith always knew what to say. She was wise and clever. Vadoma could only hope to be like her one day.

Finally she drank, draining the chalice with a few large gulps. It was tasty and she probably would have enjoyed it more if she were in a better state of mind. Red eyes, not unlike Grendel’s and Lilith’s stared into the fire. The usual glow dull, a thick wall of grief and sadness had gone up effectively shutting out the world around her. She was numb. And if she thought about it Vadoma would probably start crying again.

“I don’t understand…” Her throat was tight that the words were barely audible. “I don’t know what happened.” Vadoma’s gaze slid towards Lilith next to her. “I did something but I don’t know what. I don’t know how to fix this….”

Rubbing at her eyes again, Vadoma lifted the bottle and poured herself another drink. She wasn’t a drinker but for now the liquid was warming her belly and dulling her emotions. After drinking about half the second chalice she stopped.l, staring down at her reflection in the red liquid.

“I met someone. He was so sad and lonely so I wanted to cheer him up by being his friend but we grew to be more than friends. Everything was going well until today when I went to see him.” Her head snapped up. Red eyes staring into red. “Something happened and he lost all trust in me and he tried to kill me I think. I don’t know what I did, grandmother. But I still love him all the same.”

What was wrong with her?

He had gotten under her skin and established a permanent place in her heart. But he had tried to kill her, any sane person would run far away. But she still believed there was goodness in Rares, at least there could be. Vadoma would just have to work harder to gain his complete trust so this never happened again. Thinking of his scared her but it also made her heart ache. Like someone kept plucking at the strings everytime he crossed her mind.

Lilith was right. Vadoma’s instincts had always been strong even as a child. She was sure her instinct about Rares was right and she just wanted to take his loneliness away. Which she seemed to have done for a time. Still she was confused as to what reason he had.

“No, I do not. But I don’t know what his reason could be.” She gripped the chalice tightly. Taking another long drink draining the chalice of the rest of the f it’s concepts. She wished she knew what had happened, why he was so upset with her. “Whatever it was he didn’t even ask me about it. I thought he trusted me enough but I was wrong, grandmother.!i was so very very wrong.

Vadoma’s crimson gaze fell to the symbol in the earth, a curious look flicking across her features. Lifting her hand to rub at her eyes with the back of it before she really looked at it.

Lilith was right, it was frayed but not broken and that gave her hope. What her grandmother said made sense. This whole situation was unusual, something or someone must have gotten to Rares and played on his insecurities to turn him against her like this. Vadoma’s brows furrowed and she stared down at the wine in her chalice. She did know deep down how she felt, there was no denying it. This all had to be some big misunderstanding.

Finishing off her wine she set the chalice down, a heavy frown on her lips. She had to take back what she had said to Rares about not believing in unforgivable. Whoever did this, whoever turned Rares against her, was unforgivable. Vadoma clenched a hand, claws digging into the palm of her hand as she stares into the fire. The light reflecting in her eyes burned and scorched the earth around her. A heat rolled off of her as her jaw set in a hard line, shadow tendrils moved languidly behind her not quite so riled up yet.

“I need to go back.” She stated plainly. She needed to find Rares before he did something he would regret. Turning to Lilith she stares at her with such intensity, rage boiling beneath the surface. It was in this moment that she most looked like Grendel. She had never felt this way before, it was new and gave her a flood of adrenaline. Vadoma felt like she could do anything if she put her mind to it. “I need to find him.”

The energy swirled inside Vadoma like a rising storm, the sound of blood rushed in her ears. A darkness began to coil itself around her light. The rush of adrenaline heightened her senses. Her red eyes darkened to almost black and she watched the now blood red flames.

She wondered id that would be the same color of the person’s insides when she was done shredding them. She blinked at that thought. Never had she even had a thought like that. Never had she wanted to destroy someone so completly. Vadoma would find them, she made this promise to herself and Rares. Whoever had caused them so much pain….

Lilith’s voice brought her back into the present. The darkness of beside her now recoiled. The young vampire blinked again and tilted her head just a little bit. “Somewhere I cannot go? Who has him?” Was it the person who fed Rares lies? “Take me home please.” If she couldn’t get to Rares she knew someone who could.

As the storm swirled within her Vadoma listened to Lilith’s words. They seemed like they were coming from far away and then all of a sudden she was whisked back to the present where she could hear her grandmother’s voice more clearly. The rage eased as he mind mulled over the words. Lilith was right, she would know what was important when the time came. Vadoma didn’t want the darkness, but she accepted that it was a part of her.

She nodded.

As the candle was placed in her hand she gripped it tight. The warmth of Lilith’s embrace brought a warmth back to the young vampire’s eyes. Soon they were standing at the temple entrance. And before she knew it Lilith was gone. That last few minutes together seemed like a blur. Vadoma stood there at the bottom of the steps, clutching the candle in her hands as she looked up at the large set of doors. Sighing, she began to climb the stairs and it didn’t take her long to reach he too and make her way inside

‘You will see him soon.’

Gods she hoped so. Little did Vadoma know that he was already there, but in a place she could not reach just as Lilith had said. Vadoma made her way to the family living area and entered her room. Settling the candle in a holder near the window before settling onto her bed. All she could think about was Rares. Where he might be. What she would say to him when she saw him last. Would she be happy to see him or angry that he didn’t trust her enough that he just jumped to conclusions about her.

She laid down on her bed and drifted off to sleep. Her day had been exhausting and even though it was still early she felt like she could sleep. Her dreams filled with images of Rares. Those dark amber eyes, his smokey smell, the devilish smirk that he sometimes got. It was all there.