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[xDarkWinterx]

"Micha didn’t mind Samuel’s behavior after all he understood it in a way. He had been in some areas of town, where he had to watch his back. When it came to their lifestyles, he knew Samuel was more sheltered in a way than him. However when it came to protection, he knew Samuel could still be cautious. As Samuel’s hand slipped into his own, Micha felt the coldness slipping into him. He shivered lightly at the feeling but tried not to let it show. Once his question was asked, Micha heard Samuel laugh. He didn’t mind the gesture as he continued walking along side Samuel. Hearing Samuel speak, it was his turn to laugh. Micha nodded a little, ”Yes, it does make sense.” He spoke smiling lightly. Micha knew that his home projected him in every essence, just as his studio did in a way. Although between the two, his home was his place of rest while the studio was his place of work. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

In all honesty he didn't know how else to put it. While he used to seeing other people decorate their homes with lavish furniture, expensive material items, and fill their walls with portraits. The simplicity in comparison to Micha's home was something of a welcoming change. It was as he said it suited him. If anything he'd likely be more surprised to see a house that was jam packed with personal items. From what he'd seen of his studio and learned from his personality, it seemed like Micha's idea of material belongings were nothing
more than a waste of space. Samuel beamed as the male laughed in response and confirmed that he understood his thoughts. As empty as it may be the place reflected him well; private, a true workaholic, and no need for things he couldn't or wouldn't use. "So now that I know where your house is does this mean I get to come bug you here? Or do you plan on spending more time at the studio?" he asked curiously. Though aware they both had work awaiting them, it'd be nice to know when and where their next little sleepover might be.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"When it came to Micha, he wasn’t materialistic. It was one of the things that were different between them. He didn’t need things in his life to make him happy. Micha could do without if he needed to. He was also very put together about things. Micha cared about the smallest things while others may care about the biggest things. He didn’t mind the different though after all everyone had their own particular way about things. Micha knew that as empty as his house was or his studio, it projected him perfectly. As he walked along side Samuel, he heard him speak. Micha smiled lightly shrugging a little at the question. ”Mmm…Depends really on how much work I have. Though I probably will be spending a little more time at home so you can always come over to bug me though probably call just to make sure I am home first just in case I might be at the studio.” He spoke thinking about it a little more. Micha had a few clients in the up in coming weeks, though that could change but he didn’t know. He could gain clients and lose clients just as quickly as he made his plans. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

The amount of stuff Micha had in his home didn't matter. It was about as important as the things he had in his own home. When he was with Micha he wasn't looking for the nearest television or gaming console. Those things weren't what he was there for. He just wanted to spend time with the male. Samuel knew after this visit they were both more than likely to be busy with work and other responsibilities they'd been neglecting. He wasn't expecting an immediate invitation afterward, but at least wanted to know if it would be alright to stop by once in awhile. Nodding quietly he listened to the male speak. It was as he thought. He knew he'd be busy, which was exactly why he called him a workaholic. "I will. But at least try to keep the weekends open. It'd be nice if we could try to keep one or two days a week we could guarantee to see each other. Assuming you won't have time for the club." he replied.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"Micha knew that he would be busy in the next couple weeks but he would try not to. He didn’t want to keep himself busy that he couldn’t at least spend a couple of hours with Samuel. Micha didn’t know if he would make it to the club but he would try. He knew Samuel had to at least have his own work to worry about as well. Micha was also stressing about a few things but he didn’t let it on. He was trying to push a few things to the back of his mind but it wasn’t working. Micha was still nervous and worried about the letter he had gotten early. He hadn’t opened it yet but such a letter could only bring bad news. Micha didn’t need bad news especially not at a time like this. He dreaded opening it but knew he would have to eventually. Knowing he was getting lost in his thoughts, Micha was pulled from them as he heard Samuel speak. He glanced toward him nodded, ”I will don’t worry.” Micha spoke grinning at Samuel knowing he could be a workaholic but he would try to make time for Samuel. They were nearing the deli as they continued walking. It was only another block away as they continued walking. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

Samuel knew it was useless to stress about being separated from Micha. Work beckoned them. If they weren't careful they could both easily go out of business. The thought of that gave him migraine. He didn't want to know who might sue him for breaking a contract or how many millions he'd lose to repay his clients to avoid going to court. It would be one expensive nightmare. And that was only to deal with his clients there was no telling what his family would have to say. Nothing good, he was sure. They were still somewhat new money, but old enough that they should know how to handle it. Going out of business would be unexceptionable. Stealing a glance towards the male he could see him a bit lost in his own thoughts before he spoke. He'd be lying if he said he wasn't the least bit curious. He wondered if it had anything to do with the letter from earlier. He'd yet to ask about it and didn't plan on asking anytime soon. The matter didn't concern him, it'd be inappropriate to interfere with it. Samuel watched the male pull from his light trace like state, a smile gracing his lips as he spoke. He smiled bit and lightly squeezed the males hand. "I'm not worried." he said. It wasn't worry that would keep him up and his mind abuzz; it was loneliness. But he wasn't about to admit that. Not yet anyway. He didn't want to seem desperate or clingy.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"Micha was still getting used to the idea of being with someone. He knew that being with Samuel still had some problems but he was working on them in his own way. Micha was happy where things were between them even if others would look upon him and call him insane. He didn’t care; after all he wasn’t going to blame Samuel for anything. Micha’s feelings for Samuel were growing, but to what he could not give it a name. He couldn’t simplify it as like but it was more after all like was only part of his feelings there was more he couldn’t describe and was afraid to as well. Micha had never really loved someone so he couldn’t really describe if that’s what he felt. They hadn’t been together long but he knew if things between them turned then he was suffer a big blow. Micha tried not to things of such things anymore as he wanted to think of happy moments. He felt Samuel squeeze his hand as he spoke. Micha felt something was amiss but he let it go as he directed Samuel toward the deli door. He opened it letting them both inside. It being late there were a few customers inside waiting in line. Micha walked toward the end of the line with Samuel as he stood looking over the menu board. There were premade sandwiches then customers could also create their own as well. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

If falling in love was what they were doing then Samuel was in blatant denial. He'd been in love, he knew what it felt like and all the sacrifices it would take to stay in it. He liked Micha there was no denying that. But he didn't want to fall in love him just yet. He wasn't ready for the commitment or the potential heartbreak that could follow. Samuel knew he'd already told him about his past but that didn't stop him from being cautious. There was still too much he didn't know about him. Not to mention they'd only been seeing each other for a couple of weeks; even dating only a number of days. It was ludicrous to think he could fall in love so quickly. And yet......he didn't know how to describe what he felt. He didn't know why he was so clingy, lost count of the times he found himself thinking about Micha last week at work, and awaited seeing him again like a dog waits for his owner to return. If this was love, he refused to acknowledge it just yet. Micha remained quiet as they soon reached the deli and Samuel made no attempts to revive the conversation. Following inside, he glanced around the unfamiliar restaurant. Joining the short line, Samuel stood a bit behind the male as he looked over the menu. He didn't really feel like getting one of those build you kind of sandwiches, so he stuck to the pre-made menu options. He took a few minutes going over the items before making his decision. With his mind made up, he took a glance at the other customers. To his relief no one paid them any attention. From his perspective no one paid attention to any of the other customers. They were all too busy checking phones, shifting weight, and sighing with impatience like they had somewhere to be; perhaps they did. Turning his attention back to Micha, he leans a bit against him. "You paying or should I?" he asked, keeping his voice low enough that only the person in front of them might hear.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"At the moment, Micha didn’t want to think about love. After all he didn’t know how long they would be together. They were lovers but he was Samuel’s secret. He could play that but who knows how long until that would last. For all they knew Samuel could be called upon to marry one day and then where would they be? Micha was happy with Samuel now but he didn’t think he could be his secret forever. He didn’t want to think about such things right now. Micha dismissed his thoughts for now and focused on the ones at the moment which were that he was hungry. He looked the menu over settling on the grilled chicken sandwich, with lettuce, swiss cheese, and honey mustard on a toasted croissant. As he stood there figuring out what he wanted. Micha felt Samuel lean against him, which he didn’t mind. He glanced toward him as he spoke, ”I can pay.” Micha spoke smiling at him not minding the idea. ”Know what you want?” He asked curiously wondering if Samuel needed more time to decide what he wanted. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

When it came to their inevitable break-up, Samuel kept it as far from his mind as he possibly could. It wasn't a good thought and brought up bad memories. He didn't want Micha to be just another guy he killed time with. But thinking he might actually fall in love with him and have to eventually give him up turned his stomach into knots. Unconsciously he briefly squeezed the males hand. Whatever appetite he had was nearly gone. He didn't want to worry the male though and smiled back as he spoke, nodding his head in response. He couldn't let these worrisome thoughts eat at him so easily. It would only cause unnecessary problems. Sighing softly Samuel waited with Micha as the line slowly moved forward. When it was their turn, he ordered a Philly cheese steak sandwich on wheat bread. He didn't bother getting any kind of chips or a drink since he wasn't that hungry. Samuel couldn't wait to get back outside, hoping the night air might make him feel a bit better.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"It was too early to think of breaking up at the moment. They had just started going out after all. He didn’t want to think of things between them falling apart just yet. Micha felt Samuel squeeze his hand as he stood there. He glanced at him curiously as he looked Samuel’s face over. Micha dismissed the gesture for now. He waited to see if Samuel was ready. When he was, watching as Samuel nodded his head. Micha shifted to move as they were next in line. He waited for Samuel to order, then gave his order next. Micha watched as the food preparers behind the counter put their orders together. He moved down the line with the rest of the customers until they were at the register. Micha shifted to pull out his wallet as he released Samuel’s hand. ”Did you want any chips or a drink?” He asked curiously glancing at Samuel as he fished out money to pay for their order. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

Was it too early to start thinking about their break-up? He'd like to think it was, but then again he was getting older. Samuel was nearly twenty-five years old and he suspected both his parents and future in-laws would be wanting grandchildren. Looking at his brothers, he was almost certain he'd be married off before he reached thirty, they'd likely want him and his new wife to be married at least half a year before trying to get pregnant. Maybe two years before thinking about a second or third child - depending on affairs of the bedroom. The very thought sickened him. Though he'd slept with a woman before it was an awful experience. One he deeply wished to never happen again. He forced himself again to leave such pesky thought alone as they came to give their order. Afterward it wasn't long before the line moved further down. He let go of Micha's hand, opting to put his hands in his pockets instead while he watched him fish out his wallet and pay the cashier. "No thanks." he said, when asked another question. Thanks to his wandering thoughts his stomach still felt upset. He wasn't even sure he'd be able to eat what he just ordered. If Micha asked any questions, he'd blame it on still being tired. He didn't want to worry him. After all he had his own things to worry about. He didn't need to pile his own troubles on to Micha. They were just stupid thoughts, nothing set in stone.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"The farthest thing from his mind right now was breaking up. He didn’t want to think about such things right now especially when things we going great between them. Sure they had some bumps in the road but wasn’t that normal in relationships? He glanced at Samuel waiting for his answer. He nodded figuring they could get drinks back at his house. Micha paid for the sandwiches grabbing his change and slipping it back into his wallet. He slipped his wallet back into his pocket then grabbed the bag of sandwiches. Micha turned his attention back toward Samuel. He started toward the door taking note of Samuel’s changed behavior. Micha pushed the door open heading out into the cold air of the night. He waited for Samuel before heading back down the block. Micha walked along side Samuel as he held onto the bag of sandwiches. He watched Samuel from the corner of his eye. Micha bumped Samuel’s shoulder lightly, ”What’s wrong?” He asked curiously sensing the sudden change in Samuel while they were in line. Micha wouldn’t be bothered if Samuel didn’t want to talk about it but he couldn’t help but be curious. "

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sɑɱυεƪ ᴊᴏᵴҥʋᴀ Ɖɑᴠіʂ
“Relationships are ropes. Love is a noose."

Waiting beside the male he watched the casual exchange of money and product. He quietly gave the cashier a smile and nod of thanks before turning to leave. Samuel followed Micha out the door, the cool air rather refreshing compared to the stifling air in the deli. Walking along side-by-side he could sense the male watching him. He didn't say anything. He first wanted to see if Micha would even bring up whatever it was he wanted to say. He didn't have to wait long before he found out. Samuel smiled a bit as the male bumped his shoulder and shook his head. "Nothing, I'm still a bit tired is all." he lied. He didn't like lying, but this was something he didn't want to talk about. If they didn't talk about it, he could keep on pretending things wouldn't change between them; that everything would work out alright. Sighing softly, he took the momentary silence as an opportunity to purposely changed the topic. "What about you? You seemed a little freaked out earlier. Everything okay?" he asked just as curiously. Samuel prepared himself for any backlash he might get. He knew how much Micha disliked being lied to and was aware of the very real threats of what could happen if he continued to lie. It was a risk he was willing to take though. He feared if he let his thoughts go on as they been he might accidentally set himself up for another panic attack. As common as one might be, it didn't mean he had to like letting the male see him in such a state.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

"Being lied to wasn’t something Micha appreciated but he knew if Samuel was lying then it probably wasn’t as important. He sighed a little as he continued walking along side Samuel. Micha nodded lightly not wanting to push the question after all he didn’t want to start an argument right now. He could take it for what it was. Micha was tired as well but it probably didn’t show. His nerves were a little high at the moment but he tried not to let that show either. Micha continued walking letting the silence grow between them. However he didn’t have to wait long to hear Samuel speak again. He glanced toward Samuel not surprised he caught on to his nervous behavior. Micha knew lying back to Samuel would do him no good just as the truth would do him no good either. He shook his head slightly, ”No..” Micha spoke pausing for a second. ”I think my father found me…” He spoke almost whispering the thought aloud, wishing it weren’t true. Micha had run away from the man who killed his mother, never wanting to see him ever again. He hadn’t seen him for seven years and now this. Micha couldn’t take it, and if his father did find him, it only meant that he couldn’t stay in the place he called home anymore. "