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 Posted: Tue Mar 06, 2018 11:32 am
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
While it would be unfortunate for their relationship to end for any reason, he hoped that communication would not be one of them. At the moment they seemed to be doing just fine as they were. Even after a year apart, it seemed so many unanswered questions, thoughts, and emotions were still there. He wondered if they would continue to communicate even after all those things were given answers. Or would they retreat in old habits? The optimist in him liked to think they wouldn't, but he couldn't be one hundred percent certain of that. As he laid beneath the male, he held on to his hips, enjoying the view of him being on top of him. He watched as he moved and listened to him speak. Samuel gave a small shrug in response. He didn't mind as the male leaned down to kiss his chest. "Honestly, I didn't have all that much planned before you showed up. I was thinking of going over the club's finances, work out, and go back to work tonight. Why? Is there something you wanna do?" he replied.
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Posted: Wed Mar 07, 2018 7:37 pm
As he pulled out of the parking lot, Jepsen checked in his rearview mirror to make sure Ally was following. He continued driving to the diner. It didn’t take long to get there. Jepsen pulled into the parking lot and parked his car. He turned off the car, as he got out. Jepsen glanced toward Ally watching as he parked his car next to his. He waited while Ally got out of his car. Jepsen took note seeing the tear stained face. He didn’t ask, knowing the reason. Jepsen smiled as Ally spoke, but pleading as well. He nodded, ”Of course there’s beer.” Jepsen spoke, turning as he started toward the dinner. He waited for Ally, as he opened the door.
Walking into the dinner, he looked around. It was early enough in the morning, that there wasn’t too many people. Jepsen spotted a booth in the back. He motioned for Ally to follow him. Jepsen took a seat in the booth, as he moved toward the corner. He shifted in the booth moving as he turned to lean back against the wall with his feet out before him. Jepsen grabbed two menus, as he set one across the table to Ally, as he opened his and started to look through it.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Mar 07, 2018 8:06 pm
At the moment he had no plans of moving. Micha was too content were he he was lying on top of Samuel. He felt Samuel’s hands on his hips as he sat there. Micha kissed Samuel’s chest, as he glanced up to hear him speak. He smiled listening to Samuel as he spoke. Micha knew that Samuel would most likely have plans, after all he knew Samuel never expected to see him again. He shrugged as Samuel questioned him. ”No, I really didn’t have any plans.” Micha spoke, as he sat up. He wiggled his hips a little, ”Though if you have plans don’t let me stop you.” Micha spoke teasing Samuel, as he watched him.
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Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2018 1:29 pm
 
Before stepping out of the car, Alaine did his best to clean himself up. He doubt it did much. He looked like s**t and felt like it too. Today had been such a complete and utter waste of his time. He just wanted to eat, drink, and crawl into bed. Preferably in that order. Getting out, he came around the car to meet Jepsen, asking him if there was any booze. He smiled a little as Jepsen assured him there was. Turning towards the diner, he walked through the door, and looked around a bit. It wasn't terribly crowded nor was it was completely empty. Alaine noticed Jepsen motion for him and he followed him down the isle to an open booth. Sitting across from him, he took the menu as it was handed to him. He barely glanced at it before setting it aside. He didn't care what he ate. He slumped back in his seat and stared out the window. It was still so dark. A couple of cars passed but for the most part it was still too early.
Feeling the table move, he turned his gaze away from the window to see a waitress setting two cups of water down on their table as well as straws. When she asked for a drink order, Alaine ordered a beer. He glanced towards Jepsen as he ordered his own drink. When she left, he went back to looking outside. Sadly the scenery wasn't enough to hold his attention. Looking away, he sighed softly. "How much of that fight did you hear?" he asked curiously.
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Thu Mar 08, 2018 3:25 pm
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
He didn't mind not moving either. In an odd way it was comfortable to have Micha on top of him like this. Before having Micha show up in his office, his plans for today were few and far between. Without the male around to distract him, he had managed to catch up on a lot of missed paper work. As well as get some other things done that he had been thinking about doing for ages. For example, he had set remodeling the club on the back burner almost two years ago in order to get the finances in order and find a contractor to meet his standards. When Micha left, it was one of the first projects he threw himself into as a distraction. As the months went by, he found himself able to run the club more efficiently than he had in months. In short, losing Micha had been terrible for mental health but great for business.
Lying beneath the male, he watched him kiss his chest here and there. His hands sat comfortably at his waist as the male smiled up at him and gave a small shrug. It wasn't surprising to learn that Micha didn't have too many plans either. At this point, it seemed neither of them really knew where to go from here and were just taking their time enjoying the others company. Their conversations, no matter how long or brief had been nice. Had he turned away Micha last night, he could only imagine what he might be doing now instead. Would he have flown back to Germany? Continued his search for a studio here in New York? Or just move on with his life in some new unknown direction as if their meeting had never happened? Who would know. It didn't matter anyway. Samuel was happy right were he was. He smirked as the male wiggled in his lap. "Well I'm sorry to disappoint you, but my only plans set in stone are to go in to work tonight. Though whatever that is you're welcome to keep doing it until I need to leave." he replied, giving his a** a playful swat.
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Posted: Sat Mar 10, 2018 10:13 pm
As he handed the menu to Ally, he watched as he barely looked over it. Jepsen looked over it, debating what he wanted. He couldn’t be sure he wanted chicken parmesan, but it would be what he most likely ordered. Jepsen glanced to see Ally looking out the window. He couldn’t help but stare, but returned his attention back to his window, not wanting to stare too much.
It wasn’t long before a waitress came over and set glasses of water down before them. Jepsen set his menu down, waiting as Ally ordered himself a beer. He ordered himself one, figuring he was off work anyways. Jepsen thanked the waitress, as she left to get their drinks. He returned his attention back toward Ally as he spoke questioning him. Jepsen shrugged a little, ”A little, but it’s none of my business.” He spoke trying to be nice, though not wanting to involve himself if Ally didn’t want to talk about it.
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xDarkWinterx Vice Captain
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Pure Acid Dreamer Captain
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Posted: Sun Mar 11, 2018 9:34 am
Alaine knew he needed to eat but at the moment he didn't even feel hungry. Just sad, a little lost, but not hungry. He knew he was going to need to eat something. After all it had already been over twelve hours since his last meal. By now he should be starving. If worse came to worse, he'd just have Jepsen order for him. He didn't care what he did or did not eat. He could take it home later and just stick it in the fridge. Alaine stared out the window just a bit longer before giving his drink order. When the woman was gone, he was again alone with his miserable thoughts. Hoping to find a distraction only to find none. Turning to Jepsen, he questioned him quietly. He watched as the male shrugged a bit and gave him a short response. It wasn't what he wanted to hear. "Be honest with me. You were right there......Do you think.....I'm sorry for...." he paused for a minute to try to get his words together. There was so much he wanted to say and not say at the same time. "It's really over now, isn't it? He's gone"
His head was a mess. His thoughts colliding and combining like tangled string. It wasn't long before their waitress returned, setting the drinks down in front of them. Alaine thanked the woman and pulled his closer. When asked if they wanted to order, he ordered the chicken parm. Lifting the bottle, he tipped it back and downed nearly half half of it. He licked his lips and reached for his packet of cigarettes, pulling one out and slipping it between his lips. "I guess it's for the best y'know. It's not like he loved me or anything...we hardly a couple. Just two people that shared too many nights together and it wasn't even on a ******** date. It was all work. Just that cesspool of a club." Lifting his beer, Alaine downed the rest of his beer and pushed the empty bottle aside. He motioned for the waitress to order another.
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Posted: Sun Mar 11, 2018 7:44 pm
Micha knew that in the last year, Samuel had thrown himself into his work. After all what other option did he have. He had been surprised by the thought however that Samuel hadn’t moved on. It only proved how much he didn’t know him in a way. Micha knew that Samuel took pride in his business, after all he wouldn’t expect anything less. As he remained in Samuel’s lap. He felt his hands remain over his hips. Micha laughed softly at his words as he spoke. He wiggled his hips more, ”Well until then, I will continue to do as I please.” Micha teased, as he leaned down to kiss Samuel. He shifted on his lap, as he ran his hands down Samuel’s chest toward his waist. Micha pulled back from his lips, as he moved along his jawline kissing him. ”So tell me, besides touching yourself, did you do anything else?” He asked, teasing him, as he ran his hand toward Samuel’s c**k, running his hand over it.
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Posted: Sun Mar 11, 2018 7:54 pm
Jepsen hadn’t really intended to talk about Ally’s break up. However it seemed he wanted to. He didn’t mind, though he didn’t know enough about either of them to say much. Jepsen was merely here for company, though if Ally wanted to talk about Liam then he would oblige him. He listened as Ally questioned him, indeed he had been there hearing every word. Jepsen shifted in the seat, as he faced Ally. ”I don’t think you have anything to be sorry for Ally, if anything I believe you should be mad at him.. Liam doesn’t deserve someone if all he is going to do is hurt them.” He responded before the waitress came over with their drinks.
Thanking her, Jepsen watched as Ally downed half his bottle, before giving his order. He took his own, but sipped it. Jepsen didn’t mind drinking with Ally though he worried if he was going to continue to drink like that he didn’t want to over do it himself. He ordered himself a chicken parmesan as well, watching as the waitress left to fill their order. Jepsen turned his attention back to Ally who had downed the whole bottle by now. He relaxed back in his seat, as he opted for drinking water between sips of beer. Jepsen listened as Ally spoke about Liam. ”Perhaps you need to find someone who won’t ******** you over.” He spoke smiling at Ally, at least offering his opinion. Jepsen knew dating someone from the same workplace was never a good idea, there was always conflict.
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Posted: Mon Mar 12, 2018 7:15 am
Unfortunately for Jepsen, Alaine did want to talk about Liam. He wanted to rant, rave, moan, and cry about the man until he felt nothing for him at all. It was only going to hurt him more if he continued to latch on to these feelings. Better to get them out now before he fell into a deeper depression. If Jepsen objected he was welcome to change the subject or leave if it truly bothered him. Glaring down at the table, he heard the male move in his seat. Glancing towards him, he listened to him speak. What he was saying made sense. Why should he be sorry? Liam was the one giving him an attitude and acting like he was better than him. He only kissed Jepsen because he was mad at Liam. He kept pushing him away and wouldn't even say why. Alaine grabbed his beer as soon as it hit the table and drink nearly half. He was going to need a lot more than beer to make him feel better. After giving their orders, Alaine drained what was left and switched to smoking.
Taking a deep drag, he heard the male speak again. Alaine shook his head and blew out the smoke. "No," he said quietly. "I'm done with dating. I'm tired of this. Every time I think I meet this nice guy he just turns into another ********. So that's it! I am done. No more dating, no more assholes, no more leaving for a ******** month and not bothering to even send me a goddamn wish-you-were-here bullshit postcard." Alaine paused. His emotions rising once more. The angry boiling in his blood, his words like acid. He hated the pinching feeling in his nose as his anger often turned to tears. The warning signs that he was getting too emotional and he didn't want to be so emotional. Not right now, not in public, with witnesses. "Why did Liam have to be just another jerk?" he asked quietly. Sniffling, Alaine raised his cigarette and took another long pull.
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Posted: Mon Mar 12, 2018 9:21 am
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
In terms of work, he didn't have too many other options but to focus on the club. But at the same time if he just decided to shut down tomorrow he could live however he liked for years to come. Given that he didn't go too wild with his both his inheritance and income from his investments. In the last year business alone had double as did his net worth. If things continued he could very likely just sell the club to some upcoming business grad student and start all over again. The thought nice. There were plenty of businesses he wouldn't mind trying out. But there was just one problem with it all, he was still so attached to it all. Even before Micha came around the club was his life. He had spent years building and planning and making it his own. He didn't want to give it all up because of one bad break-up. Perhaps that was part of why he couldn't move on. The club held just as many memories as every other thing he had gotten rid in an attempt to forget. Yet it was the one thing he held on to.
Samuel beamed up at the male as he laughed at his words. He watched as he moved his hips some more, enjoying the bit of friction between them. He chuckled softly as he was teased once more and his lids drooped as the male leaned closer to him. He kissed the male back sweetly, feeling his hands move down his chest, and watching curiously as he pulled away. The very tips of his long hair brushed across his skin before pressing his lips to his neck. Samuel looked towards the male as he spoke, wondering where exactly he was going with this. When he felt his hand move against his c**k, he figured it best to humor him. "Anything else?....Well, I watched my share of porn if that's what you're asking. Nothing extravagant though. Maybe a few twinks and this one bear couple I kept seeing." he replied honestly. If Micha was asking if he had been with anyone else, the answer was simple. One he was sure the man already knew the answer to.
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2018 10:59 pm
If Ally wanted to vent and rage on then so be it. Jepsen didn’t mind, he was willing to sit and listen. After all it just seemed Ally needed a friend. He didn’t mind being that friend, however he wasn’t sure how much feedback he could provide. Jepsen didn’t know either of the two well, but from the sound of it, they didn’t seem like two people who should be together if all they provided were chaos.
Jepsen relaxed in his seat, as he watched Ally smoke his cigarette and down his beer. He sipped his own beer switching between the beer and water. Jepsen worried about Ally getting home especially if he was going to be pounding them down.
As he responded to Ally question, it seemed he didn’t like his answer. Jepsen didn’t really know what had happened between the two, but perhaps breaking up was the best for them. He watched as Ally started to cry a little. Jepsen hated to see that sight of him, after all he was used to him either yelling at them, or being his normal moody self. ”I don’t know. Perhaps this break up is for the best, at least it happened now versus down the line.” He spoke trying to at least give some feedback toward Ally’s breakdown.
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Posted: Wed Mar 14, 2018 11:17 pm
The idea of Samuel being with another man after their breakup wouldn’t have surprised him especially knowing that Samuel had cheated on him. However he expected that Samuel had learned that moving on simply wasn’t easy. Micha had learned it as well. He couldn’t move on even if he wanted to. The year he took off was just the right amount of time for him to realize how much he loved Samuel and how much he couldn’t do without him.
Moving his hand down and over Samuel’s c**k, he listened as he responded to his words. Micha couldn’t help but laugh softly. The idea of Samuel watching porn amused him. He had never really been into the idea of porn, sure it got him hot and bothered but it was boring when he only had his hand to get him off. ”So what would get you off more, the porn or the memories of what we did together?” Micha asked teasing Samuel, as his thumb teased his tip.
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Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2018 10:03 am
【ᴡᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ,
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sᴏ ᴡᴇ ᴍᴜsᴛ ʙᴇ ᴄᴀʀᴇғᴜʟ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡᴇ ᴘʀᴇᴛᴇɴᴅ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ.】
Perhaps after some time had passed and the initial hurt of breaking up had passed he might have thought of sleeping with another man. But had never gone through with it. Instead he worked to the point of exhaustion, kept his attention on other tasks like staying fit and making sure he ate his meals. He knew if he went looking for another man, he was only going to start comparing him to Micha and that was unfair to both of them. Staying single, while lonely, was for the best. It helped him see how much he had taken for granted. He vowed if he ever did see Micha again, he wouldn't let him go before expressing how much he meant to him. In even his wildest dreams he would not have thought that Micha would still care for him so deeply. He was absolutely thriled that he wanted to stay and be a couple once more.
As he laid there, he gave the male a response. He was unsure if it was the one he wanted to hear. But the movement of his hand did not go unnoticed as he spoke. When he finished, he heard the male laugh again beside his ear. Samuel was pretty used to watching porn. He remembered when he was younger how his brothers used to steal their fathers magazines and share them with him. The images of Playboy, Sports Illustrated, and Maximum were a constant thing in his young teenage years. Even then they did nothing for him. But it wasn't until he was about fifteen that he started to look up gay porn. His first thoughts to gay porn were much the same as heterosexual porn: "I'm never doing that". It wouldn't be until later in his teens that he'd find pleasure in being a top and even later in being a bottom. Now in his late twenties he didn't watch much porn. Gay or any other kind. It didn't wow him as much in his days as a hopeless virgin. When Micha was gone, watching did help relieve his stress from time to time. But it just wasn't the same.
Samuel kept his attention on the male and not of the hand moving between them. Though the male certainly wasn't making it easy. He smirked at his next question. "Oh I don't know babe, that bear bottom could this thing with his hips." he teased back. Feeling the males thumb move against his tip, he turned his head towards Micha. "Obviously our memories are better. I love being inside you and watching you blush. Also you're really cute when you become impatient....Those are just some of my favorite memories of being with you." he said sweetly. He didn't care if it sounded cheesy. It was all true.
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Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2018 10:32 am
Venting and raging sounded like an excellent idea. The only problem was, he couldn't seem to ignore how much he missed Liam. Even now he wished it was Liam sitting across from him and not Jepsen. After work dinners had always been their thing. They would talk, laugh, and complain about their day. Now he didn't have that anymore. Jepsen was good company, but he didn't know anything about the man. He wasn't even sure if he could give him proper advice on dealing with new blow in his life. It was bad enough to be dumped in a semi-crowded room. But now he was going to have to find someone to fill a position in the work field. He was going to have to change his schedule, put up ads, take resumes, interview people, see if their dancing was any good, and probably end up disappointed because Liam was the best. Many of the customers were regulars because of Liam.
Alaine took another pull and inhaled deeply. Drawing the ashtray closer to him, he tapped the end to the glass rim as he slowly released the cloud of smoke. Alaine couldn't say for sure if he would continue to drink like that. He couldn't even say if he was going to go home tonight. The longer he sat there he wondered what he could do to waste time. Alaine watched as Jepsen sipped his own beer and waited for him to speak again. He nodded silently, taking another small huff and stubbed out the remains. "You're right. It's fine....it's for the - You know what. I'm gonna go wash my hands before the food gets here. I'll be right back."
Rising from his seat Alaine walked past a few tables to the end of the restaurant where a black sign hung, indicating which was which. He knocked once before entering the single use restroom. Closing the door behind him he locked the door and pulled his phone from his pocket. His hands shook and his heart was pounding. He opened his text messages, seeing their previous fight. Maybe Jepsen was right. Their relationship really was toxic. So why did it feel like defeat to just give up on him? He scrolled up further, seeing some of their happier messages. He hated that he didn't have so much as a picture of him. Perhaps it was for the best. Closing out of the message app, he shoved his phone away and turned on the faucet. He quickly washed and dried his hands and went back to the table. Resuming his seat he saw that his next beer had arrived. He pulled it close but did not drink.
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