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 Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 2:11 pm
And I just found out I Hav ea total of about $3.90 to my name right now. And have a bunch of groceries I need to buy, and who knows what else *sighs* And I still can't find anyone to commission me, bleh. Oh well.
And NG, don't feel to bad about feeling lonely or such, everyone gets like that sometimes. But yeah, talking to your therapist is a good thing if you really feel you need to do it =3
And Crenn, I agree with what Shoki says xD
And now, I gotta go work on my color thoery color swatches painting homework, and various other things. So I'll see you around later.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 2:18 pm
shoki_de_nai Crenn I've lost my confidence in doing well in the exams... All this week I've been concentrating on English... my worst subject.... but I haven't been on Specialist maths.... my 2nd worst subject.... So... instead of wanting to meet up with my teacher today to discuss the essay I wrote (which I haven't written).... I just wanted to stay home and study for english. This stress is getting to me.... I've got so much to do and less than 2 days to do it all in. I'm screwed Just don't try to cram for exams, because that doesn't work. Try and space it out with plenty of breaks and sleep, reviewing at least the basics you'll need. Also, I find writing notes helps me remember even if I don't re-read them later. Because I had to think about it while writing, so it stuck a little easier. And you may remember easier in the classroom, since being in a similar situation as when you first learned the material helps with recalling said material later. So, it might just come to you when you take the test. I'm not trying to cram... that's what's stressing me. Breaks are easy to do... providing I go back to the work as for sleep... I'm lacking there. I get about 6 hours if I'm lucky... I keep on waking up at 5AM without an alarm clock. I've got so much to do.... but the main stress comes with the fact my first specialist maths exam is no technology (ie no calculators) and no reference notes. I have to memorise most of the course.... I seriously need to relax... but I can't currently. The chance of me failing is basically zero, but the chance of me getting an enter score of 95+ is slim....... I would have to go without sleep to do that....
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 2:32 pm
Crenn shoki_de_nai Crenn I've lost my confidence in doing well in the exams... All this week I've been concentrating on English... my worst subject.... but I haven't been on Specialist maths.... my 2nd worst subject.... So... instead of wanting to meet up with my teacher today to discuss the essay I wrote (which I haven't written).... I just wanted to stay home and study for english. This stress is getting to me.... I've got so much to do and less than 2 days to do it all in. I'm screwed Just don't try to cram for exams, because that doesn't work. Try and space it out with plenty of breaks and sleep, reviewing at least the basics you'll need. Also, I find writing notes helps me remember even if I don't re-read them later. Because I had to think about it while writing, so it stuck a little easier. And you may remember easier in the classroom, since being in a similar situation as when you first learned the material helps with recalling said material later. So, it might just come to you when you take the test. I'm not trying to cram... that's what's stressing me. Breaks are easy to do... providing I go back to the work as for sleep... I'm lacking there. I get about 6 hours if I'm lucky... I keep on waking up at 5AM without an alarm clock. I've got so much to do.... but the main stress comes with the fact my first specialist maths exam is no technology (ie no calculators) and no reference notes. I have to memorise most of the course.... I seriously need to relax... but I can't currently. The chance of me failing is basically zero, but the chance of me getting an enter score of 95+ is slim....... I would have to go without sleep to do that.... Going without sleep will actually make it much worse. Memories are sorted and stored into long-term memories a lot during sleep. So, sleep is good.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 2:34 pm
Except I can survive without sleep, resting for about 6 hours instead of sleeping is about as good as 8 hours sleep to me.... It's risky.... but I've done it before.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 2:53 pm
Crenn Except I can survive without sleep, resting for about 6 hours instead of sleeping is about as good as 8 hours sleep to me.... It's risky.... but I've done it before. Though it's not the same for your mind, which is what needs to be focused on. You may feel fine after just resting, but actual sleep would make remembering what you studied much, much easier. The question is would you rather get less sleep and study more, but possibly lose much of what you studied...or get more sleep, perhaps less studying, but be able to remember far easier?
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 3:37 pm
Not sleeping doesn't mean I'll be studing.... resting means I just lay there doing nothing... not studying... just resting.
Sometimes sleep isn't as good for me as you think.... sometimes sleep makes me feel worse than I was before. But either way, I need a balance.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 3:39 pm
DoomNeko Thanks Kriss, I'll try that with art, see what helps me out of this.
Quit honestly this has been going on (and getting gradually worse) since about 4 years ago so it's kindof getting out of hand at this point; and one f the big reasons I tend to want to make a masterpiece is that I'm reallyreallyreally perfectionnistic about my art when I am drawing it, even if at the time I'm lost in my lil' world and don't realise it. ^^;
Yep, just got to try and push through it. Try to look at the positive sides to mistakes. A lot of awsome things that happen in art pieces can evolve from a happy mistake. You also do want to fight against being a perfectionist. It is good in all, untill it paralizes you from doing what you love. Makes me think of a documentry I saw on people suffering from the need to be perfectionists in every aspect of their life. One of them was only a little girl, about age 10. They gave her a piece of paper and pencil to draw a picture with, but she couldn't. Everytime she drew a line she would immediatly erase it because it didn't look perfect enough to her. It was really said to see someone who wanted badly to draw a picture just like any other child, but couldn't because they were to set on being perfect. As for the hormones, just be as careful as you can. I wish you were doing this under doctor supervision, but I can understand your need to move forward even if the system isn't willing to move forward with you. Shaviv I guess I could probably handle a mantis with no trouble, then. I found one on the sidewalk a while ago and I got it to climb onto my helmet. I was surprised - I didn't think we had any here. But it didn't like my helmet, so it climbed onto my hand instead. I could feel the strength in its legs, and the little pinpricks where its claws dug into my skin for a grip. And good lord, when they fly... they're like fairies, you know? So slow and their bodies remain upright. And in the cold light of the streetlamps, it looks very much like magic. (Giggles) Wow that is such a pretty description of their flight being like faries. I never saw it that way. More like clutzy leg dangling splat into wall flight. I mean this is my mantises flying. Me- Come on, fly to mommy! (swaying back and forth) Mantis- (all excited and dancing back and forth) Yah, I want to go over to you! Come closer! (reaching with claws) Me- No, no, you have to fly over, come on I know you can do it! Mantis- (all excited finally gets up the nerve and launches toward me) Me- Yay! (open arms) Mantis- I'm coming, I'm coming, I'm.... (Misses me by two inches and lands onto the wall behind me after slamming into it). Me- O___o err maybe I should stand a little closer next time. Mantis- .... T__T XD That is what I think of when I see mantis flight. Such silly little buggies with poor aim. But they can get moving if they get a good gust of wind. XD UglyCoyoteNG Now that I know i'm NOT alone in my enthusiasm, that there ARE others like me, I want to be with them, despretly....yet I fear that if I delve to close into the personal lives,become to friendly, I might find that we are achingly diffrent,and alone again. Ill talk with my theripist, anyway. Thanks for commenting on that. Makes me feel little less lonely. smile last thing: XD Queeny is going to go meet my theripist today! You are always going to be different than everyone else. You are an individual after all. At the same time, there are always going to be deep ties that unite you with other poeple. Don't be afraid of the differences, that's what make people interesting. And yay for mantis therapy. XD One of the things I love about mantises is they are easy to take places. Remember when I snuck one in to see my grandmother when she was in the nursing home. She wasn't even the least bit afraid but talked to her and everything. Same with as my other grandmother. No fear of bugs there. X3 Shinigami Whistle And I just found out I Hav ea total of about $3.90 to my name right now. And have a bunch of groceries I need to buy, and who knows what else *sighs* And I still can't find anyone to commission me, bleh. Oh well. Is there anyway you can get some money from your parents. I really want you to go see some doctors about how sick you have been feeling. And as for the money you owe me for my commission, just shove it way to the back burner. I don't care if it takes months, just worry about your health and well being first.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 4:36 pm
I'm getting pissed. I ask for one day off a week, and my boss seems to think that I've stepped over some line or something. He is now cutting my hours to just eight hours a week. That's forty dollars a week. I cannot live on that. I cannot deal with that. I want at least twelve hours a week, if anything. Is it so much to ask for just one day off a week? Yes, I'm sure there are lots of other people out there that could do the job without needing days off, but I'm a good employee, dammit. I work hard, I'm always polite to the people I work with, I don't lie, cheat, or steal. I'm.....a good employee. And if he really needs me on a Tuesday afternoon, then he can call me and I'll be there. But really......if he doesn't like me taking time off, then I figure I'll go to Sallisaw and find employment there. Bill can hardly complain; he got a good three months of work out of me at that shithole grocery. And the other Marvin's is hiring, or so I've heard.....
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 6:04 pm
FogSage I'm getting pissed. I ask for one day off a week, and my boss seems to think that I've stepped over some line or something. He is now cutting my hours to just eight hours a week. That's forty dollars a week. I cannot live on that. I cannot deal with that. I want at least twelve hours a week, if anything. Is it so much to ask for just one day off a week? Yes, I'm sure there are lots of other people out there that could do the job without needing days off, but I'm a good employee, dammit. I work hard, I'm always polite to the people I work with, I don't lie, cheat, or steal. I'm.....a good employee. And if he really needs me on a Tuesday afternoon, then he can call me and I'll be there. But really......if he doesn't like me taking time off, then I figure I'll go to Sallisaw and find employment there. Bill can hardly complain; he got a good three months of work out of me at that shithole grocery. And the other Marvin's is hiring, or so I've heard..... Start looking for a new job as soon as you can Fog, because that's just ridiculous. I wish you luck.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 6:26 pm
Woot....2 bomb threat calls in two days. We'll start with Bomb threat #1
Got a call yesterday from Sgt asking for Tatum at 5:30am this morning for a credible bomb threat And it was at a community college btw. He said we'd only be there for 2 hours. Got there at 5:45am and started search, Got done with area in 1 1/2 hours. Three of the Bart dogs hit on a storage locker and they called Bomb Squad. Our dogs hit on a vending machine and we got dibs on the bomb squad next. The campus decided to close the school so we had to do total evacuation and kick everyone out. We put our dogs to rest for 1 hour, then the Bomb squad blew up the storage locker. And yes,.it was a big BOOm and the top of the storage locker flew off *hehe* Bombv squad checked vending machine but decided not to blow them up. We went out for a 2 hour search and my dog hit on 3 vehicles. We got called on a suspicious backpack, but got nothing and in process, was filmed by a freelance news crew Another 2 hours of rest for dogs. And then final search of rest of campus.
Oh and by the way, the person who had called said her brothers may be bombing the school monday, tuesday and wednesday. And to give an idea about how big this was, they pulled police from 5 surrounding cities to cover this >.<
While waiting to see if we were coming back tomorrow for another search, CLayton called to tell us that they had a bomb threat for a middle school. So we hustled our tired butts to the school to show up and they said they may have a bomb at the back of the school. So we walked through, saw nothing and ran the dogs. We got two hard hits from both dogs but found nothing. Clayton PD decided not to call bomb squad. Too bad kiddies...you may be blown up tomorrow
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 7:08 pm
Krissim Klaw UglyCoyoteNG Now that I know i'm NOT alone in my enthusiasm, that there ARE others like me, I want to be with them, despretly....yet I fear that if I delve to close into the personal lives,become to friendly, I might find that we are achingly diffrent,and alone again. Ill talk with my theripist, anyway. Thanks for commenting on that. Makes me feel little less lonely. smile last thing: XD Queeny is going to go meet my theripist today! You are always going to be different than everyone else. You are an individual after all. At the same time, there are always going to be deep ties that unite you with other poeple. Don't be afraid of the differences, that's what make people interesting. And yay for mantis therapy. XD One of the things I love about mantises is they are easy to take places. Remember when I snuck one in to see my grandmother when she was in the nursing home. She wasn't even the least bit afraid but talked to her and everything. Same with as my other grandmother. No fear of bugs there. X3 I didn't get to go to therapy. I was to sick. I think my gramma is thinking I say i'm sick every time because i dont want to go. Truth be told, I love talking to my theripist, I just end up getting sick all the time. Its stress, i think, actualy. Anyway, I just pursuaded Queeny to eat. That little rat! I had to hold the cricket before she decided she'd strike at it. then she sort of clawed at it with one hand, and looked at me like "HELLO? at least make it LOOK tough." so i wiggled it and she took it. XD Anry is 24grams! he's so tiny. he's very long; i'd say about 10inches long, and maybe half an inch around. He's very sweet, and he hasn't shown any sign of wanting to bite me. He lokes to curl around my finger, and he's VERY ticklish; squirming if I touch the wrong side to gently. He's so handsome and friendly.. heart
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 8:46 pm
Hey guys, me here. Just posting that I got banned from my computer downstairs, so i bought a laptop. my parent's don't know I'm using their internet right now, so I'm making this quick, installing all the programs I want and such. I'll be on randomly, probably leeching coffee house internet and stuff <3 I just finished instaling MSN Messenger again so you might see me around on there again.
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 9:14 pm
Audi Kitty Hey guys, me here. Just posting that I got banned from my computer downstairs, so i bought a laptop. my parent's don't know I'm using their internet right now, so I'm making this quick, installing all the programs I want and such. I'll be on randomly, probably leeching coffee house internet and stuff <3 I just finished instaling MSN Messenger again so you might see me around on there again. Awwr... that has to suck... well, it's good to see you on for a bit. Hope to see you soon
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 9:27 pm
Audi Kitty Hey guys, me here. Just posting that I got banned from my computer downstairs, so i bought a laptop. my parent's don't know I'm using their internet right now, so I'm making this quick, installing all the programs I want and such. I'll be on randomly, probably leeching coffee house internet and stuff <3 I just finished instaling MSN Messenger again so you might see me around on there again. Eep....good to know you're alright, though...thanks for checking in!! heart EDIT: Is it just me, or is the quoting system really weird now....??? eek
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Posted: Tue Oct 24, 2006 10:41 pm
UglyCoyoteNG what is this..furgasmic you people talk about? e_e i'm always looking to meet others.... XD to shy on my own though.
Late response, I know.... >>
It's a furry forum (and also an IRC channel) I'm hooked on. X3 Look it up, hehe. Gotta be 18 to join the forum, but the chat's PG-13 so anyone can be there if they obey the rules. o: Everyone there rawks. <^^>
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