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Posted: Thu Jan 14, 2016 8:58 pm
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Tony shook his head against Loki’s shoulder. “I don’t touch you because I don’t know what I am allowed.” He said quietly. He still didn’t know if or when Loki would reject him. “And I don’t know if I’d be able to stop if I started.” He added. He’d wanted Loki so desperately, missed his weight beside him in bed, missed the feel of his mind so close, missed his constant comfort. He wanted Loki so badly, he didn’t know if he could stop himself, and he still needed a little time and space to process and heal. Tears continued to fall as he spoke, and Loki’s whimper just sent him deeper into his sadness. “I just wish I could help you, that I knew how….” He mumbled. He could handle his own pain, he was used to it, he was a master at locking it away and ignoring it. But he couldn’t handle the pain of his mate.
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Posted: Thu Jan 14, 2016 10:09 pm
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Tony had no reply for Loki’s words. He knew Loki wanted to be close just as desperately as he did, but the hurt wasn’t the same between them. Not to mention the fact that Tony still felt completely inadequate for Loki. He’d spent months convincing himself that he wasn’t what Loki wanted, needed, or deserved. Some part of him still clung to that belief. It was the easiest thing to believe, and it hurt no one else but himself. Tony continued to let his tears fall in silence, unable to stop them just yet. By the time they stopped, he had a throbbing headache, but the weight of his worries felt a little less heavy. Wiping at the tear stains on his cheeks, he slowly lifted his head. “Loki….” He said softly, barely a whisper. He didn’t speak again until the god was looking at him. Studying the man’s red eyes, he didn’t try to hide the vulnerability he felt at the moment. “Don’t leave like that again…..please…..at least promise me that. If you ever want to leave, I won’t stop you…..but talk to me first…..please….” he asked slowly, a lifetime of loneliness and disappointments showing. The pain and insecurity he tried so hard to hide was drudged up in the moment, and he couldn’t help but ask for the promise to try and soothe himself a little.
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Posted: Fri Jan 15, 2016 10:31 am
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Tony listened to Loki’s words, eyes not leaving Loki’s. Taking a deep breath, Tony nodded, closing his eyes for a moment. He willed himself to believe the man’s words, tried to use him words to soothe himself. Leaning forward, he pressed his forehead against Loki’s, eyes opening again. “I missed you Loki….every moment.” He mumbled. Slowly reaching up, he cupped Loki’s cheek, searching the god’s eyes for something. After a moment, he slowly pressed a kiss to Loki’s lips. It was soft and gentle, but it held a weight. It was an olive branch, and a proof of his feelings.
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