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[Chimerical Beast]

Table of Contents
1. You Are Here
2. General Information
3. Family Tree
4. Status
5. Relationships
6. Roleplays
7. Extended Information
8. Personal Effects
9. History
10. Frequently Asked Questions
11. Miscellaneous
12. Reserved
13. Official Art
14. Unofficial Art
15. Credits

 

[Chimerical Beast]

General Information

Name: Mircea
-Meaning: Peace
-Origin: Romani
Gypsy Name: Windear
Sex: Male
Species: Lion
Orientation: Heterosexual
Marital Status: Unattached
Pride: Kizingo'zaa
Brief Personality Blurb: Mircea is a naturally submissive and nervous lion (making his name seem like a cruel joke, really). He suffers from a form of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder that makes him feel guilty for pretty much everything. If one can manage to look past his overly apologetic and painfully shy nature, Mircea is actually a very sweet and generous individual. He has a fondness for music and glittery/shiny things, and an eye for detail. Mircea would make an excellent interior designer if he were a human.

 

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Family Tree

Mircea came from a small pride made up of his father, another lion, a few lionesses, and their offspring. Being male, Mircea and his brothers and half-brothers were encouraged to leave and start their own prides when they became old enough. Their sisters and half-sisters were likewise expected to join other prides or become mates of whichever lion hadn't sired them. Mircea left in late adolescence (a little later than some brothers; a little earlier than others).

 

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Status
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Relationships
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Roleplays

Complete
-[META] Land of Enchantment
-[META] The Dreamers

In Progress

 

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Extended Information

Seer?: Not rolled
Obtained: Prompt flatsale, Kizingo'zaa meta 2013
Playlist: Lover of the Light by Mumford & Sons, Unwell by Matchbox 20

 

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Personal Effects
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History

Mircea came from a small pride made up of his father, another lion, a few lionesses, and their offspring. At some time in his childhood, Mircea witnesses a rouge male challenging his father's friend for control of their pride. Though victorious, his father's friend is nearly killed. This event will haunt Mircea's memory for the rest of his life.
Being male, Mircea and his brothers and half-brothers were encouraged to leave and start their own prides when they became old enough. Mircea left in late adolescence (a little later than some brothers; a little earlier than others).
Being on his own with the Voice was disastrous, but Mircea was too ashamed of this "failure" to go home. Eventually, the thought of living alone with the Voice becomes unbearable. Mircea attempts suicide and fails.
He would have died of his wounds, anyway, except that he was found by the Dreamers. The group explained their mission and offered him a place in their troupe. Deciding he had nothing to lose, Mircea agrees despite harboring some doubts about the idea of a "kind" Voice.  

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Frequently Asked Questions

What's this Voice?
It's not a literal voice. Rather, it's a symptom of Mircea's Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. He attributes his "bad" and self-loathing thoughts to the Voice.

Why is he so skittish?
Aside from the anxiety disorder? He's kind of small, and anyone larger than him is viewed as a potential threat. Especially other adult, male lions.

He's scared of adult, male lions? Isn't that kind of sexist?
Little bit, maybe. But it's not like he isn't afraid of most everyone else.
 

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Miscellaneous

I have my doubts...
Your SN: Chimerical Beast
Name: Mircea (Romani in origin, meaning “peace”)
Future Gypsy Name: Windear
History: All his life, Mircea had been a little odd. He often performed ritualistic tasks throughout his day: touch the white stone with each paw before entering or leaving the den, turn around three times clockwise and three times counter-clockwise before lying down, blow through your mouth when you feel uncomfortable, alternate which side of your mouth you chew your food with after each bite... Some of these he would outgrow, but new ones would always rise to replace them. The rituals were frustrating sometimes, but they weren’t devastatingly maladaptive.
But the Voice? The Voice was.
The Voice was something only Mircea could hear, and it was never silent. The Voice hated Mircea- and it let him know. It knew everything about him. No passing thought was hidden, no transgression forgotten, no private humiliation kept secret. The Voice would force horrible thoughts into his mind, and recall unpleasant experiences at the most random times. And it talked to Mircea. A lot.
Mircea was bad, the Voice told him; evil, even. Stupid, lazy, worthless, dirty, weak, cowardly, greedy, awful. The Voice told him he was a waste of time and resources. He would never be good. There was nothing Mircea could do to make him un-bad- Mircea was just inherently useless and wicked. He did not deserve happiness, the Voice said, and it went about spoiling every pleasant moment Mircea’s life offered him.
He would often seek from his family the validation he couldn’t give himself. Am I bad? Did I do something wrong? I slept in today; was that lazy? Am I selfish? Sorry for asking…
Sorry for eating from a kill. Sorry for taking that sleeping spot. Sorry for pacing. Sorry for talking too much. Sorry for not talking. Sorry for not contributing more. Sorry for not being worthy. Sorry for breathing. Sorry for existing. Sorry; so sorry.
When he reached adolescence, he left with his family’s blessings. He left, ostensibly, to form his own pride. He left to stop being a drain on his pride’s resources, the Voice said. He left because he didn’t deserve them. But Mircea didn’t deserve his own pride either. What female would want him? The Voice asked. What cubs would not burn in shame to call him father? Bad Mircea. Broken Mircea. Tired Mircea.
Tired of the constant anxiety. Tired of the pointless rituals. Tired of being a waste of space and flesh. Tired of the Voice. So very, very tired.
Besnik and his troupe found Mircea after his greatest failure. Mircea had tried to silence the Voice. How? It doesn’t matter. What matters is that he failed. The Voice was still there.
The other lions stayed by Mircea’s side while his body tried to repair itself. They brought him food and water. They kept an eye on him, never daring to leave him alone. Then, Besnik told Mircea of his discovery.
The horrified reaction Besnik got was probably not what he had expected. Mircea told the other lions that they most certainly did not want to find Voices of their own. Voices were merciless, ever-watching shadows in one’s mind. They knew your fears, your weaknesses, your failings… They tore you apart from the inside out. Mircea knew; he already had a Voice. A Voice he would do anything- literally anything –to rid himself of it.
No, no, the other lions explained; Besnik had found Muses, not Voices. These Muses were not at all like the Voice Mircea described. Muses were gentle, wise, and loving. What Mircea had was not a Muse at all. Would he come with them? Would he like to find a Muse? A real one?
It took a moment for the concept of a kind Voice to register in Mircea’s mind. His knee-jerk reaction was to write it off as an impossibility, and yet… These lions seemed to be in earnest. Besnik had even heard them- these Muses –before.
And what did Mircea have to lose? Absolutely nothing. He would join these lions on their quest.
After the initial euphoria that came with this new hope (a feeling Mircea had not had in such a very long time) began to wear off, the Voice’s whisperings returned. Stupid Mircea: did he really think he could just exchange the Voice for another? How did he know the Voice was not his Muse? These other lions obviously had kind Muses because they deserved them. Mircea did not deserve kindness. He never had. That’s why the Voice came to him. And no matter what these lions promised, the Voice would never leave him.
Never.

Brief Personality blurb: Mircea is a naturally submissive and nervous lion (making his name seem like a cruel joke, really). He suffers from a form of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder that makes him feel guilty for pretty much everything. If one can manage to look past his overly apologetic and painfully shy nature, Mircea is actually a very sweet and generous individual. He has a fondness for music and glittery/shiny things, and an eye for detail. Mircea would make an excellent interior designer if he were a human.

Future plans: He's definitely going to be a Dreamer. If possible, I'd like Mircea to interact with 'Mali.' It'd be great if she'd take pity on him and bless Mircea with the ability to keep his muse with him even when he isn't by the cave (otherwise, the poor thing would probably never leave). Only problem is that he would almost certainly never find the guts to ask for such a blessing.
Eventually, he’ll give his muse a name.

Future Muse OR Future Rank: His muse is the wind. It manifests itself as a voice only he hears. There's almost always wind of some sort around: especially by the water. If, for some reason, the air is completely still, Mircea can contact his muse by running (therefore making his own wind). The wind-voice has its own personality, and pretty much runs counter to the other Voice in his head. His muse is the voice that tells him everything's going to work out, and that he's not worthless or awful. His muse can't make the other Voice shut up, but it can contradict it/drown it out for a while/comfort him after the other Voice has been particularly brutal. His muse also tells him it loves him every night before he goes to sleep.
Any additional remarks? In case you were wondering/worried about offending anyone, this is an actual type of OCD. Though it’s a largely ignored one, as it isn’t as “funny” as the I-have-to-organize-everything-pefectly-or-I’ll-have-a-panic-attack variety. I did not make any of the symptoms up, and I’m not going to make the disorder into a joke.
Any questions/concerns? None that I can think of at the moment.

He has an unedited cert, too:
 

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Official Art

 

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Unofficial Art
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Credits
Colored by Safaia
Edited by Thalion