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 Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 2:04 pm
Pantimime  Just so you know: You have someone here that'll listen too. *waves* I know, thank you (hugs)
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 2:06 pm
You guys see me online that means I am available for chat. razz
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 2:06 pm
Sirus Jin Pantimime Just so you know: You have someone here that'll listen too. *waves* I know, thank you (hugs)
*curls around and squeezes*
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 2:56 pm
So...went to the bank. Got that mess sorted out, I guess. Seems I was mistaken about how much I should have had, and indeed I did spend a lot of money...I think the biggest things were that I had an undeposited paycheck I was unaware I hadn't deposited, and I'm buying gas more often since my brother uses my car. Need to get him to give me money on a set date....Though it doesn't help that either he or my sister keep stealing the money from my wallet...making me keep having to withdraw more... stressed
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 5:16 pm
UglyCoyoteNG Shoki - I find it hillariously funny that the only anistetic that puts me out without making me stick is the kind they use to put out animals. smile Thanks, by the way. Ketamine/xylazine?
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 5:24 pm
Shaviv UglyCoyoteNG Shoki - I find it hillariously funny that the only anistetic that puts me out without making me stick is the kind they use to put out animals. smile Thanks, by the way. Ketamine/xylazine? all I was told is that they use it on cats and dogs normaly. No idea what its called.
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 5:30 pm
UglyCoyoteNG Shaviv UglyCoyoteNG Shoki - I find it hillariously funny that the only anistetic that puts me out without making me stick is the kind they use to put out animals. smile Thanks, by the way. Ketamine/xylazine? all I was told is that they use it on cats and dogs normaly. No idea what its called. The ketamine/xylazine mix is also called Ketaset, or just casually referred to as "cat tranquilizer". It causes paralysis and suppresses superficial reflexes (like the knee-jerk response) without damping deep reflexes as much as barbiturates do. Ketaset produces a mild twilight state, sort of light unconsciousness - that's entirely the xylazine. If you were given ketamine alone, you would remain awake and fully able to feel what people were doing, just unable to move. I realize it's none of my business really, but I'm very curious.
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 5:37 pm
shoki_de_nai So...went to the bank. Got that mess sorted out, I guess. Seems I was mistaken about how much I should have had, and indeed I did spend a lot of money...I think the biggest things were that I had an undeposited paycheck I was unaware I hadn't deposited, and I'm buying gas more often since my brother uses my car. Need to get him to give me money on a set date....Though it doesn't help that either he or my sister keep stealing the money from my wallet...making me keep having to withdraw more... stressed If I were you, I'd key your wallet under lock and key or something.....
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 5:42 pm
Shaviv UglyCoyoteNG Shaviv UglyCoyoteNG Shoki - I find it hillariously funny that the only anistetic that puts me out without making me stick is the kind they use to put out animals. smile Thanks, by the way. Ketamine/xylazine? all I was told is that they use it on cats and dogs normaly. No idea what its called. The ketamine/xylazine mix is also called Ketaset, or just casually referred to as "cat tranquilizer". It causes paralysis and suppresses superficial reflexes (like the knee-jerk response) without damping deep reflexes as much as barbiturates do. Ketaset produces a mild twilight state, sort of light unconsciousness - that's entirely the xylazine. If you were given ketamine alone, you would remain awake and fully able to feel what people were doing, just unable to move. I realize it's none of my business really, but I'm very curious. Probably diffrent. I couldn't feel it, didnt know what happened. Basicly e said count backwards from ten and I made it to eight before I was out. XD
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 6:26 pm
I think I'm going to end up crying. I've been holding onto my moods pretty well, I think, lately. They've been all over the place. I want to kill someone, hug them, and sob all over them within minutes. And I've realized why. Thanksgiving is just around the corner and I'm supposed to be doing things with my family, normally.
But I don't Have that option anymore. Why did I realize this? My dad and his wife wanted to invite me to Thanksgiving. They don't know how to get a hold of me (I purposely withheld that information. I hate them.) so they told my grandma to tell me to call them. She gave me a headsup. I said hell no. She said she'd pass it along for me.
I don't think she believed me when I said I had plans for Thanksgiving, because she invited me. And when I insisted that I did have plans, she said that it was always open. ~Sighs~ I do have plans, for Christmas too! It's just...
Not like me. I've got such a big family, that we have like five Thanksgiving dinners. There's one at Grandma Judy's, one at Uma's, one at Dad's, one at Penny's, and one at Aunt Carol's. Same with Christmas, but that's seven dinners and places to be.
So it's so weird to me.. to not be doing something right now. To not be involved in a huge gingerbread house making night. Or involved in the family talks about who's bringing what to our dinners.
Traci's family likes me, at least. I'm Traci's sister to them, they've known me for eight years plus. But. It's a whole new family structure and culture to be tossed into. I won't back out, of course. Traci's grandmother is a dangerous old woman who would track me down with her rolling pin and drag me there by my ear.
But I still feel.. so.. sort of mopey about it. I was describing it to Danny, who's not really a family person, and I started to cry and he got jealous actually because he's never done anything like that.
And I know why they invited me. Dad feels bad, because even though he's a whipped pussybitch, he's my dad and he knows I never want to talk to him again, just like my older brother who was kicked out by his wife too and has Never talked to him or seen him since then, which was years ago. And Lisa wants Dad to stop moping, and my sisters will be there, and she wants to stay on their good side so that they'll keep seeing my dad. She did this to my brother too, for a Christmas, and she ended up making my dad hate him and hide all the pictures of him. I can't do that. I refuse to be ridiculed.
So I'm going to go to Traci's and enjoy the time there and get used to the new holidays. I'm just.. so frustrated and angry, and betrayed right now. I don't know. I'm more mood-confused than before.
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 7:45 pm
Screw you! SCREW YOU family! ******** you. What the hell, even with my doctors clearence, the other side of my family is absolutely sure i've got the plague and i'm contagious. Thus, they are disowning me until im well. Screw you! I hate you all! ARGH. what the hell. I wont be doing anything with them for thanksgiving or christmas. My side of the family is furious. And im mad and hurt.
I'm tired and angry and I tried to eat my favorite comfort food- Clam Chow'd. (dont get on my a** about how I say it.) Now im hurting for it. damn it! This is such bull s**t.
Also, I slept alot today, so im doubly angry. I finealy got up at four, and I feel disgusting. Im absolutely exhausted and I'm fighting to stay awake. what the hell? I've been sleeping for a hell of a long time lately. Sigh.
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 8:06 pm
I think I'm going to be failing a couple of classes this year in college. I did what I've always done: goofed off instead of doing homework when I was supposed to do it. I just....I have no willpower to do homework. I don't like it, and I just ********, I don't know what to think any more. What am I going to do? How can I motivate myself to do work I have no interest in doing? Sure, my future is on the line here, but....I just.......I wish there was some way I could make my life easier. Some way.....I.......I feel so confused right ********.
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 10:25 pm
*sips chai tea* Ah the holidays.....the single most stressful time of year for EVERYBODY......
Everybody should remember to keep a cool head and remember just what it is about the holidays that's really important to you; whether it be family, religion, presents, or whatnot, just remember that through it all, this is supposed to be a happy season. I know it's stressful right now...families seem to conspire to stop agreeing around this time of year, everyone stresses on making things perfect, people feel left out of the holiday loop.....
Just try to keep a calm head on your shoulders and try to hold on to that single most important thing in your life for this time of year. And just remember: We all still have eachother as well! heart
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 10:31 pm
Crenn shoki_de_nai So...went to the bank. Got that mess sorted out, I guess. Seems I was mistaken about how much I should have had, and indeed I did spend a lot of money...I think the biggest things were that I had an undeposited paycheck I was unaware I hadn't deposited, and I'm buying gas more often since my brother uses my car. Need to get him to give me money on a set date....Though it doesn't help that either he or my sister keep stealing the money from my wallet...making me keep having to withdraw more... stressed If I were you, I'd key your wallet under lock and key or something..... I'm trying to get into the habit of hiding it when I sleep. I've lost $35 in a month's time. stressed
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Posted: Wed Nov 15, 2006 10:45 pm
With school I feel like I'm falling apart in the last stretch here...I've been staying up late to get woerk done, then not being able to wake up and end up sleeping through my class(es) and then I have more work to make up, so then I stay up late... crying
And if any of you have been mean to a customer service rep...don't ever do it again. D: I got yelled at twice today for something that wasn't my fault and/or I had no control over. crying
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