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I'm thinking about becoming asexual.

Yup. I was and still am the biggest gay fox perv there ever will be, but to be honest, the concept of sex has become tedious and dull for me. (Who would've thought?) I'm unwilling to try kinky stuff, as most of it involves blood, leather, or becoming someone's slave. Not my kinda stuff. Maybe sex isn't within my interests. I don't understand why people make such a big deal out of it, because now I know the truth: Only people who talk about sex in a big way are those who have never had it. I've never had it, but hell, I've rp'd in chats and stuff and frankly, it's boring to think about. <********, I'll become an emo monk! Hell yeah! biggrin

Well, back from my weekend back home in ohio. Dentist says I have good, healthy teeth (and that my brother could take lessons for me) and the cavity I had last time I went seems to have dissapeared into thin air because we never went back to get it filled or such. I'm not complaining, it's just really weird that it was there before, and now it's not xD

And then I went to the eye doctor's yesterday and my eyes haven't gotten that much worse in the last 3 years, which is good, because between the last tyime I got new glasses and the time before taht, I had a HUGE change in my eyes. So knowing it didn't change that much again is a huge relief. I ordered new glasses, they are so cool. I can't wait to get them *excitedexcited*

And then I went to the doctors. And now I'm on Prozak. As well as I'm being put on a birth controll pill because my period cramps for as long as I can remember, have been crippling in pain. To the piont where moving even a little is a huge task. So...yeah, we finally decided it best to try and find things that may make it a little better. (that, and I am a college student who may want to have sex someday, and every litlte precaution is a good precaution =3)



And with all that said, I'd like to add in something I've been feeling lately. Maybe it's just the depression getting to me, or maybe other things, but I feel I'm growing bored with the internet, and gaia, and people online in general. Even though I know it isn't true completely, I feel like no one online who says they are my friend really...are. They're just pretending and dont' actually give a s**t about me. So, I'm finding myself caring less and less about getting online and talking to people, or doing things for people, and I think I may not do hte art I owe people and just give up on doing art for anyone but myself and maybe cash commissions here or there.

but I don't know. Maybe it'll change in a few weeks if/once the anti-depressant sets in. Or maybe it'll get worse because of the nice long list of side effects that the pills seem to have *chuckles*



Anyway, with that said, I'm off to go relax before I have to get ready for work.

Ciao.

Well, I'm off. My sister and I leave for the airport in 7 hours but don't actually get on our plane until 2pm. We decided to go to France, Portugal and Spain for two weeks. I'll see ya all when I get back

Make sure you have a safe trip. We'll be waiting for you.

EDIT: Hehe, Mantises are quite cool. We have a mantis on the Laundry flyscreen, it's been here for a couple of days. But tonight, I caught a couple of moths and threw it up under the window do it would fly up to the mantis, which caught them and ate them. Was quite interesting to watch.

EDIT2: Why is it, when I try to tell someone that they're not being ignored, they get pissy at me?!

What the ********. xd

Not very often do you come across a gay guy that is bi-curious. whee But how funny is it to hear a gay guy freaking out over having a sex dream with a girl like a straight guy that just had a gay dream? rofl Hillarious, simply hillarious.

sooo...mass chat was to fun last night. I lol'd a crapload. lots of fun.tons of fun.

So anyway.. last night, Fred(Blue Tongue Skink) got out of his cage. He was basking under the edge of my air matress. He pretty much cornered himself, and I didn't know it. I put my hand down, and startled him, and he degloved my pinkie. all the skin and nail is gone. As bad as it looks, it dosent require to mych attention,just wrap it. however, it was late, and no one knew it. So when gramma woke up, and came in my room for a book, she of course, flipped, due to the fact it bled threw last night,so my whole white sheet was red-smeered.

anywy, around eight we went to the hospital and got it taken care of. it was an emergency, but it made me feel better. the doctor was shocked i wasnt crying or anything.

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Beeper(Ball Python) is not a happy snake. I 'm cutting back feeding him, as this is what happens during winter for them in the wild,and I want him to go threw his reproductive cyclem just ike normal.
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Spot, my leopard gecko, is getting skinny. I'm a bit worried he might not make it threw the winter. no matter how much I feed him, hes dropping weight, and looking skinnier and skinnier... i'm worried. There isn't any reason to go to the vet, he is simply to small for treatment.
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Suade(crested gecko) is getting a new home! we have a brand spankin' new lock cage. This is the only cage he'll ever be able to have, cage clips that clip a screen lid onto the cage itself arn't good enough, hes very strong, and he's only a little guy! he's going to get pretty big, about arm lengh, maybe. They useualy get to be the size of a large rat. he's also beggining to go for my face when I pick him up, he leaps on me. he's getting better and better about being handled. :3
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Phantom(white cat) has been starting fights with everyone. Well, a few days ago, he got what he deserved! now his eye is being treated, because screech lost a claw in it. Litteraly. o_o
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Anry(Green Tree Python) and I are starting to understand each other. I'm starting to understand how I need to act around him, and how I need to be patiant and kind and gentle, and make him feel safe. He is learning I am only admiring him, and he's enjoying being handled, I think. He shows off, once he gets comfortable. He even moves from his beloved stick,to my hand, where he folds himself up, and shows how beautiful he is.
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Draco(bearded dragon) now has a reason to hate me. I put a harness on her, and let her run away. Lol. she didnt get far, but now she has a harness. hahaha! oh god, she puffed up like a gigantic balloon. she looked like she swallowed a balloon!
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I feel totaly guilty. Daisy(tort. shell cat)is my champion jumper.theres a two foot tall cat tree in my house, its goliath's. around Goliath's toys is a fence. So,to show case her amazing jumping skills, we put her on the cat tree, and bait he to jump over the fence, which is three feet away.Useually,she clears it easily, without any hesitation, and lands in the middle of the room. Well, a few days ago, she missed, hit the fence, the fence fell on her, and scared the crap out of her. She wouldn't talk to me (we have long, indepth conversations consisting of 'meow~' 'mow!') or even play with me. sigh.

Man, its...somthing special. Only a few weeks, and it will mark the day I got beeper. Its already been a year since this has all started, and its been an amazing year. I got my first snake last year, beeper. Now lookit the house. this year, I have aquired eight new animals. Two crowntail bettas, one GTP,one crested gecko, a ferret, a mantis, a leopard gecko,a blue tongue skink. lots of animals, and still, we are planning more. I'm so privlaged to have these animals, and i'm excited to know that i'll be getting more, and that i'll be able to handle and raise more animals. I'm excited.
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Saterday, i'm going with ashlee and possibly shawn to see the exibit Bodies at the scinece center where you can see lots of dead boddies, to be frank.
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Today I'm going to have an ultrasound, and some blood tests to see if we can find anything there. We've cleared every cureable diseases, we're now looking into rare diseases. While I want it to be fixed, i want it to be somthing not lifethreatening...

its been a long morning already. im going to go lay down again... -.-

Pfft...Lloxie, I'm not into anything like that either. Some really light stuff once in a while, but nothing that's really a "kink." Though I suppose it depends on one's definition of what's kiny...::shrug::

@ Shoki and Shaviv: =O! Woot! I'm not alone! :B *glomps both*