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*gives a little prayer* I am sure she shall find he way to those that have passed before her.

So yeah. Just a mild case of depression. I had an awesome time at MFF this past weekend. And now....now I'm stuck in BFE Virginia, alone for 3-4 days and over Thanksgiving. Just sucks being surrounded by a bunch of close friends, and then having them all leave you for some time.

I know she will, I'm sure her sister Siren, and all of my past mantises are surrounding her in spirit right now. I was so afraid she was going to die before I got home, and it feels like she has been clinging on for so long now to make it home for me. She was so sweet and friendly yesterday when everyone came over for my birthday. I can only pray her passing is a gentle one. I won't be leaving er side till she is gone. I just gently lifted her from the side of her cage and planced her on a blanket so she could sit out next to me.

I bury all of my mantises, in custom made coffins. I often use leaves or oragami paper, because it just feels more natural than closing them up in something that will take forever to decompose. They are all also burried around the fruit tree right outside my window. My dad always goes with me and we say a few words and such. Finally I top it off by making a slanted cross using a stick with a large leaf from the fruit tree as the upper horizontal part of the cross. The symbolic nature of that is that the mourning is suppose to be short (just as the makeshift cross will soon blow down/leaf will fall off). It is the happiness I try to remember, so that I smile when I think of all of them, not cry.

I do something special for all my animals after they pass. Though I am a firm believer that what you do with the bodies doesn't matter to the dead, I recognize it as an important part for the living to go through to help recover from the grief.


Edit- As for closing the eyes, in a sense a mantis does that on their own. When they pass, their eyes loose all color and you can't see the pupil. They turn a dark black. It is one of the signs that they have truely passed on. Their eyes with their pupils, are the last working part of them as they die.

Oh goody, I'm in deep deep s*** today.

Over the last 2 days I've been depressed (never really happy for a long period of time) and I haven't done chores either. Therefore I literally got a list of chores and in the note saying I was in deep deep s***. Apparently, I have to have permission to be depressed xp .

But the thing that brightened my day is that I got an email from Rain saying she got to her destination safely.

Anyway.... I'm do this list..... by the end of today. Oh yeah, the thing that started this entire thing off was..... no bog roll (toilet paper) in the upstairs bathroom, which pissed my mother off.

xd Oh, okay. I won't share my details, then.

I love it when my plans run smoothly.

Today is the start of the LAN party I wanted to go to, but couldn't. I wanted to get some files so I asked Kaz (a furry friend) if he could do it for me. He agreed and I made up a plan for him to pick up the stuff. And it worked perfectly.