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Posted: Mon Sep 23, 2013 10:30 am
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Tony couldn't help the relief that washed over him when Loki agreed to stay. Feeling Loki lay behind him, he instantly pressed back into him, fitting himself against Loki. He barely registered, the god's soft song at first, but when he did, he clung to it as a way of avoiding thoughts on his pain. Ever so slowly his shaking lessened and eventually stopped and the pain faded until the usual throb in his chest was the only thing remaining, just significantly worse than normal. Taking a few calming breaths, Tony loosened his grip on Loki's hand. "I'm sorry....." he finally mumbled, not moving to look at his lover, both not wanting to see Loki's reaction and not having enough energy at the moment to move.
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Posted: Tue Sep 24, 2013 4:05 pm
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Tony made a face at the memory of Loki so bloodied and beaten, but gave a small nod. It was similar, but he never intended on allowing someone to put Loki in such a state again. Letting out a shaky breath when Loki agreed to listen, Tony didn’t speak at first. “I’m glad I got of that cave…..got a chance to right my wrongs and help people, find friends and people I love…..I didn’t have that before.” He said slowly, pausing for a moment, unsure if he wanted to go on. “But there are times that I wish I hadn’t…..” he finally admitted. “I get so tired of hurting…..of remembering. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t remember Yinsin dying for me…..that I don’t remember the torture we both went through, the faces of the Ten Rings…..I haven’t had a good dream since I escaped…..and I constantly feel the pressure for me to be good and fix things, protect people. It makes me so tired…..” he said softly, holding Loki’s hand tightly as if scared he’d be disgusted and leave him.
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Posted: Tue Sep 24, 2013 6:49 pm
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Loki luckily did not see the look on Tony's face as the man thought about the state the god had recently fallen to earth in. If he had loki would have spent more time trying to soothe the man. Instead he remained quiet as he waited for Tony to explain his thoughts. Hearing the man's words loki couldn't help the look of sympathy on his face. He understood all too well what it was like. To wish things had ended despite what had come of the situation or to wish everything had ended because of how it had ended up. He understood Tony not wanting to experience the nightmares either, the pain that came with the memories. Shivering at the thought of the those nightmares and knew how much Tony had suffered while he slept. He didn't want to think about what it would be like if someone had died for him that had saved him and he in turn made friends with that person. In other ways he wished he could take all away for Tony, bring Yinsen back and obliterate the Ten Rings."I understand Tony," Loki assured squeezing the man's hand gently. "You wish that despite all good you have done that you could make it all go away. Despite everyone telling you how much of a better person you have become coming out the otherwise, you wish that you could get that person back to save the pain. Be that naive idiot, or even wish you had died instead of being saved so you could escape further pain." Loki continued. He understood all to well, it was the main reason he had let go when hanging from the Bifrost, he hadn't seen a way out. A disgraced prince, once king, trying to kill a whole other race. It hadn't looked well for him, it had seemed the smart thing to do at the time. Now he forever regretted it and the actions before it that he had made in anger. "There is nothing wrong with that. I can not imagine anyone who has not thought of such things." he finished
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