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Posted: Tue May 30, 2023 8:39 pm
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) Samuel was grateful that Micha was being so open with him. He could have easily decided that he didn’t want to talk anymore on the matter and leave it at that. He wondered if he would be willing to tell him anything else about his life while they were apart. As they spoke, Samuel moved to be closer to him. He then questioned him again, curious if this had happened to him before. It was unsurprising to learn that this was a rather new experience for him. He knew that Micha did not have nearly as many partners as Samuel, nor did he date too many of them as long. Realizing the man was still awaiting his answer he shook his head. ”No,” he replied honestly. ”Even in my previous relationships, I know that I did love them. But it was never this intense, like I would miss them when we were apart but eventually I would get over it, do some work, or go do something on my own. Even when we would break up, I don’t recall spending so much time missing them, wondering if they were okay, or where they were.” Samuel didn’t know why he never accepted their break up for what it was. Maybe he was just too stubborn to give up on him, or too stupid to know when he let something so good go. Either way didn’t seem healthy, he worried even now about becoming too obsessed with him again.
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Posted: Fri Jun 02, 2023 7:46 pm
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Posted: Fri Jun 02, 2023 11:07 pm
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) To be open and honest, they essentially had to be just that. It was no use in talking if they couldn't be comfortable with one another. In answer to Micha's question, he recalled his past relationships and how they simply did not compare to what he had now. It made him wonder if it was normal to be so obsessed with another person like this. He too had never spent as much time with his past lovers. Maybe once or twice they had gone on a vacation together, spent the weekend over at each others' houses. But it was never as before where they were practically glued to the hip, going everywhere together.
The males voice pulled him from his thoughts as he questioned him again. That wasn't too hard to guess. "I'd probably be exactly where you found me. Working hard on a "forget Micha" party cleverly disguised as a week long start of summer bash." he replied honestly. "And from there a long list of guest DJ's, a big fourth of July event, something for labor day, and every weekend after until the holidays hit, when I'd all but be forced to close due to low crowds and family obligations." In an attempt to not sound too pathetic, he tried to keep his tone somewhat light and amused. He didn't want to admit that he really did have a whole schedule planned from now until the end of the year. He'd started working on it when he realized that he needed something in his life that didn't involve pining over his lost love. Since then he'd pretty much kept to that schedule and only continued to add to it. This was the first time in months he'd taken off for actual leisure than because Alaine worried he'd work himself into a stress-induced coma.
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Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 8:32 am
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Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 9:58 am
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Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 11:09 am
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Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 12:05 pm
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) The idea of breaking up was never appealing, even in a fictional scenario. But whether he would move on or not remained to be seen. Everything he said was a guess as he had no plans of breaking up with Micha. If anything, his plans were quite the opposite and he thought he had made his intentions known. Seeing the male wilt, he apologized and attempted to cheer him up. It only seemed fair that Micha engage him with some well-off lifestyle while living it up in Europe. Instead the assumption only seemed to upset him further as he was promptly corrected. Samuel watched Micha pull away, closing him off once more. His words felt as though he had been struck. He hadn't meant harm and yet he'd caused it. "I'm sorry." he said, his voice so low he wasn't even sure it was heard. Sitting up, Samuel reached towards the nightstand for the pack of cigarettes. He was quiet as he slipped the tip between his lips and flicked his lighter, breathing deeply as it lit.
Samuel took another drag before sighing heavily. "I did, actually." he admitted. "I wanted so badly to believe that you were doing better. A better life, a better boyfriend...I wanted you to be happy. Because you of all people deserved it." Samuel grew quiet again for a moment, inhaling deeply to calm himself. Releasing the smoke slowly, he turned back to the male, thinking about his words. "I don't know why you quit drinking. You didn't say and I didn't ask...so why? What happened to make you stop?" he asked, wanting more than ever to know. What happened to him while they were apart. He felt as though now he needed to know.
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Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 6:05 pm
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Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 8:50 pm
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) However Micha has been living all this time was quite the mystery to him. He knew that he had left the city and been living in Germany. But his actual day to day life, he couldn’t say. Micha had not given him enough to go on to know how he was doing, if his life was good or bad. Samuel was neither mad nor upset with the way their conversation was going. But he could tell that Micha was and he didn’t understand why. As the male questioned him, he mulled the question over curiously and moved to get his cigarettes.
When he did speak, he meant it, every word. He hated how they had left things and wanted nothing but the best for Micha. Even at his lowest he told himself that Micha had to be doing better than him. Because him doing better was the only thing that made sense for everything that had happened to them. Not just because of their break-up, but everything else they had experienced as well. After expressing that very sentiment, he turned to ask about his drinking. This was another thing Micha had failed to tell him. Granted he had not asked, so that ws his own fault. Samuel watched the male sit up and listened to Micha correct him in his assumptions. He knew that Micha had struggled with alcohol and would often abuse it when they fought. He never imagined that Micha would abuse it to the point of hospitalization.
Samuel was quiet for a moment. He didn’t know what to say, what he could say that wouldn’t upset him further. He felt as though he was only making matters worse. Lifting his hand, he took another drag. He felt as though a stone had dropped to the pit of his stomach and was weighing him down. This wasn’t the first time Micha had hurt himself. He wanted to believe that he was past that thought, that he was stronger. Blowing out the smoke, he grabbed his ashtray from the nightstand. ”How long have you been sober?” he asked. It seemed like the safest question as he was sure anything else he said would just make him more upset.
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Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 9:21 pm
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Posted: Sat Jun 03, 2023 10:49 pm
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![User Image](https://i.imgur.com/jdRgtZP.jpg) He would have to forgive him for thinking him to be upset at him. He didn’t exactly seemed pleased to be telling him all this, and he couldn’t say that he would blame him for being angry at him. He was prying into matters that didn’t concern him. Samuel allowed the male to talk and let the information sink in a few minutes. He knew he wasn’t helping matters by sitting quietly and smoking. But it was the only way he knew how to not make a complete a** of himself. He remembered the times before when Micha would hurt himself or find him completely hung over after a fight. Back then he’d been concerned but had never pried as he thought that Micha had a handle on it. Clearly he was mistaken.
Samuel wouldn’t exactly call his way of living a way to move on. More like it was his way of finding distractions, something to keep him so busy that he wouldn’t have time to wallow. When they first broke up, he was devastated. Everything hurt and he wanted nothing to do with anyone. He felt no joy, no love, all of that had been taken from him the night Micha left him. It was only when he started talking to someone and put that energy into a project that he made any real kind of progress. Sure he was still miserable, but he was miserable with a purpose.
He didn’t regret the male telling him everything. It was something that needed to be said. When he did speak, it was with genuine curiosity and the concern for Micha’s own wellbeing. Pulling his ashtray closer he tapped the tip to the side of the dish. He soon heard the man speak and was surprised the incident had happened so quickly after their break-up. Again, he was unsure what was the right thing to say. He knew he needed to say something. ”What happened after that?” he asked, no longer able to hold back his curiosity. If Micha was willing to tell him this much, he wanted to know what else he’d been up to since that happened.
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