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[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • Micha much preferred words to silence. He hadn't known what Samuel was thinking. Micha only guessed his sudden confession shocked Samuel. He wasn't perfect, though he'd had a handle on his drinking habit until they broke up. Micha hadn't been drinking as much when they got together. He knew Samuel didn't like his drinking. However when they broke up, he saw no reason he couldn't do as he pleased and then some. Depression had taken over and he crashed in it.

He waited for a response from Samuel. Micha had felt ashamed about his confession and Samuel's silence only scared him. Although indeed, if he had waited would it have made a difference? "And now?... What are you thinking?..." Micha asked curiously wondering if Samuel had thought of something more after he left.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

He couldn’t say that had Micha waited to hear him out things would have turned out better. He liked to think it would have at the very least avoided this situation. Micha hadn’t been the only one that didn’t know how the other was feeling. From his perspective Micha seemed pissed off for telling him all this in the first place And with each of his questions he only seemed to get more pissed off. Samuel had worried that it had been his prying that led to Micha running off yesterday. When they were together before, he knew that Micha drank but he never saw it as a problem. He didn’t know where this idea of him silently judging him for having a drink came from. If he was so judgmental about others drinking habits he wouldn’t hang around the bar in his club.

When Samuel spoke again, he was still confused by the way the man misread him so much. He thought by now he would have known all his quirks. He listened as the man questioned him again and reached to take his hand. ” I think…it was very brave of you to tell me how hard it was for you. So thank you for that. Also, …I think we just need to stop listening to the anxiety ridden voice in our heads that want to believe everything is going to s**t. If we had just kept talking like this yesterday, we would’ve been fine.” he said. Samuel gave him a small smile.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • Owning a club still had its flaws, even if it was more upscale. Micha had been questioned about his drinking in the past. He had kept it to himself amongst other problems. Micha wasn't used to explaining himself and was still working on it. He didn't want to hide from Samuel.

Micha understood Samuel to some extent at times. However he couldn't always read him especially if he was already panicking. Questioning Samuel, he watched as he reached out to take his hand. Micha allowed it as Samuel spoke, answering him. He found it amusing as he watched Samuel. "Perhaps though what about your inner voices Samuel?" Micha spoke referring to Samuel's panic attack which they had yet to talk about either.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Sitting beside the man, he took his hand as they continued to speak. He was happy that Micha was trying to share more with him. He knew it wasn’t easy for him to do. Just as Samuel struggled with sharing his own thoughts and feelings. He continued to hold his hand as Micha turned to question him in return. ”They’re annoying little bastards…but I’m working on it.” he replied. He knew they had yet to talk about his most recent panic attack. Frankly he preferred if they just left it alone. But after so much talk about Micha’s depression, alcoholism, and suicidal episode, he didn’t think he was getting off so easily.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • Micha didn't think he was going to get an explanation but he tried. He listened as Samuel soon responded. It wasn't the answer he wanted but knew it was all he was going to get. Micha wasn't going to push Samuel into talking. He found it funny, Samuel could talk to a therapist about his feelings but not him. "Hm, that's good then." Micha replied simply not wanting to push the issue.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

It wasn’t easy talking about his panic attacks. Often times he didn’t remember what triggered one or why it happened in the first place. This wasn’t exactly the case with the latest episode, at least he didn’t think so. It was hard to tell, even now what that was about. He hated that Micha had to see him like that, but he didn’t think talking about it would make a difference. As of yet, even his therapist wasn’t aware of that particular panic attack. When he said he was working on it, what he meant to say was that he was trying his damnedest to forget it ever happened. As the man spoke, he nodded. ”So are we back on the same page now? Do we hug it out?”” he said, joking a bit to help lighten the mood.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • Forgetting was easy though it wouldn't solve anything. He didn't want to push it seeing as Samuel didn't want to talk about it. Micha wasn't about to start a fight either. He was going to drop it. Micha listened as Samuel spoke, questioning him and joking as if everything was better. He didn't want to push the matter even though he wasn't fine with the situation. The idea of a hug sounded lame but he would settle for something more. Micha shifted in the seat, "Mm, can't I have a real kiss instead?" He teased, referring to the kiss on the cheek Samuel had given to him earlier.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Eventually he was going to have to talk about and maybe by then he would have a decent answer to give him. Right now, Samuel couldn't tell him anymore about what he was thinking or feeling in that moment than on the day it happened. He felt it was best to just leave it. He got a little antsy and too wrapped up in his own head, that was it. As he joked, he knew that things weren't completely settled between them. He was sure at one point or another they would circle back to this conversation and attempt to add on to it. Whether those would be successful or not he couldn't say. As he offered the male a hug, he watched him shift in his seat and turn as he teased him. Samuel smirked. "What, my earlier kiss wasn't good enough?" he teased back. With his free hand, Samuel caressed his cheek and brushed back his hair. He then slid his hand back down the males jaw to his chin, grabbing it with his thumb and index finger, and pressed a soft kiss to his lips.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • While the conversation ended for now, Micha couldn't help but turn it into more playful. He teased Samuel about his cheek kiss. Micha appreciated the kiss and yet it wasn't enough. He watched as Samuel smirked and soon teased him. Micha shook his head as he smiled at Samuel. "No, I didn't." He teased, grinning at Samuel. Micha watched as Samuel turned toward him. He waited as Samuel soon reached out to him and caressed his cheek, pushing his hair aside. Micha soon felt Samuel's hand slide down his jaw and toward his chin. It wasn't long before Samuel took his lips against his own. He closed his eyes as he leaned into the kiss.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

With their conversation over for now, Samuel didn't mind the males' teasing. If anything he felt a bit better knowing they were back to something light and playful. He in turn couldn't help teasing him back as he smirked. Samuel watched him shake his head and listened as he continued to tease him. He playfully rolled his eyes and caressed his cheek before taking his chin into his hand. Drawing him close, Samuel kissed him softly. He felt Micha kiss him in return as he leaned into him. He slipped a little closer as he kissed him once more earnestly. He felt himself calm, not having realized just how much he needed this, needed him.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • Micha didn't want Samuel to worry right now. He just wanted to enjoy himself right now. Micha didn't know what Samuel's plans were for the rest of the evening. It was still early. He returned the kiss feeling Samuel slip closer. Micha couldn't help himself as he pulled back from the kiss. He slipped off the stool and moved toward Samuel. Micha stepped between his legs as he moved to run his hands against his thighs. He leaned his head up as he took Samuel's lips against his own again as he kissed him deeply.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

In all honesty, he didn't know what he was going to do for the rest of the evening. He hadn't foreseen Micha coming over and was originally going to go in to work. But now that he was here, he wanted to blow it off and spend time with him. Especially now that they had been able to talk in person, he didn't want to be rude and tell him he had to go back home. As he kissed him a second time, Samuel slid a closer on his stool. It wasn't long before he felt Micha pull back. He opened his eyes just in time to watch him slide off his stool and step into the small space between his legs. He moved his hands to the males waist and accepted his next kiss. He kissed him back passionately, wanting now more than to savor it. No longer did he want to think about their miscommunication and bad assumptions. He didn't want to fight with him any more. His hands smoothed over his sides as he held, not even a full day and he had missed him so dearly.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • Sliding off the stool, Micha moved between Samuel's open legs. He felt Samuel's hands slide over his waist. Micha leaned up to kiss Samuel deeply. He too was done talking. Micha just wanted to drink himself in Samuel's love and comfort. He ran his hands up Samuel's chest as they kissed. Micha enjoyed the feel of Samuel holding onto him as they kissed. He didn't like to argue with Samuel. Micha knew avoiding the conversation was probably better than talking about it. He didn't want to create unnecessary drama at the moment.

 

[Pure Acid Dreamer]

Holding onto the male, they continued to kiss. The taste of his lips, the smell of his scent, the press of his body. He felt Micha's hands sliding up his chest. Samuel wanted nothing more than to scoop him up into his arms and hold him. He knew he wasn't helping by avoiding these conversations, but he also didn't want to repeat any of their past mistakes by just blurting out everything and hurting one another. They both clearly needed the support as well as a break from the topics. The night was still young, they could come back and try again. Preferably in an area with a better seating arrangement than the kitchen had to offer.

 

[xDarkWinterx]

⋮ ۩ ) • • • Avoidance was what they were best at. He wasn't going to voice it however. Micha could easily ignore the conversation, he'd done it before. He kissed Samuel, letting his hands travel as they pleased. Micha pulled back from Samuel's lips as they traveled to his jawline. He soon reached his neck. Micha nipped playfully against it, moving towards his ear. "Want to head back to the living room?" He asked, teasing Samuel as he nipped his earlobe. His hands caressed Samuel's chest.