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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 6:58 pm
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 7:07 pm
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 7:11 pm
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 7:50 pm
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 7:59 pm
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 8:38 pm
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 10:18 pm
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I feel like I should share the going-ons of my life with the rest of the Guild. Nobody really reads my Sallie's posts much, since Manda's usually a fairly optimistic happy kitty NOTHING could possibly go wrong in her life...but a small handful of you have expressed interest in what's going on, so I might as well get this all typed out at once. There are 2 versions of the story: the abridged and the extended version.
Abridged: S-T-R-E-S-S
Extended: Ok. Many of you already know that I moved down to Florida to escape a relationship that I felt was going bad. But I still loved him....When I got down here I did my best to put him out of my mind, but my love for him never really changed. We've been together for 4 years (with two 3 month splits in there), and it's just not so easy to say goodbye. Really all I needed was some space to myself (and he needed the space too) to figure out just what we needed out of life. As soon as I was gone, we both came to some realizations. We're just not happy without eachother. While we were living together, we felt cramped in a tiny 2-room efficiency, and we lost track of what was really important in our lives and in our relationship with eachother. So I left Vermont entirely, leaving behind not only him but all of my family and all of my friends and EVERYTHING I have ever known, to go live in a completely new and foreign (literally) environment.
I moved to Miami FL to live with my gay uncle and his Peruvian boyfriend. For the first couple of months I thought I could do this. I thought I could actually put my boyfriend behind me in my past and move on, regardless of how empty I felt about it. I coped for a while, but after a few months we started corresponding again. If I had ever once wanted to put him behind me that was the last thing I should have done, but I don't regret it. We talked (a lot) and hatched some things out and we both have come to the realization that after 4 and a half years of knowing (and loving eachother) we still do love eachother and nothing really was going to change that. That made my being down here that much more difficult, and he arranged for a trip to come visit me for 3 weeks for the Holidays. His trip corresponded with a trip my mother was making to see me with my brother.
My uncle has been an amazing mentor for me in all of this. He's been supportive all while offering the outside opinion that is sometimes oh-so-important. He told me that if there was truly something about my boyfriend that I didn't like or couldn't live with, that would come out during the visit, and after the 6 month absence I had from him, it would be as obvious to me as a drag queen at a Catholic mass. Well, my boyfriend came down, and for 3 weeks I felt like the happiest girl on the planet. When it came time for him to leave I was a mess. I was so miserable about it, and the hardest thing I had to deal with in 6 months was to stand on one side of the Security Checkpoint at the airport and watch him walk away and out of sight to board his plane.
But there is more that I'm dealing with, not just my own relationship. See, while my uncle has been so supportive of me while I feel out my own relationship, he's lost his. After 5 years with his boyfriend, someone has stepped in to rip them apart forever. The United States Government. His boyfriend tried so hard to go through the system the legal way...hell legally he's even MARRIED. But the woman he married screwed us all over royally by skipping out of all the required meetings, and eventually the USA told him that he had to go back to Peru. Permanently. And he decided that if he couldn't stay in the USA legally he wasn't going to stay at all, so he went home to Peru. And my uncle is having to deal with that. And it's killing him I can tell. This is the time that my uncle needs me the most....
...and here I am talking about going back to Vermont. Everything in my life that has ever been important to me is up North. My family, my friends, my boyfriend, everything I have known and built over 7 years that I just abandoned because I was afraid of a ripple in a relationship that I just can't live without. I feel rotten leaving Miami after only 7 months of being here. My coworkers think I'm just giving up, but they don't understand that I'm not really giving up, I'm picking up where I never should have left off. My uncle supports me, even though I feel guilty as hell for leaving him COMPLETELY alone after the worst sort of split imagineable.
So now I have to go through the stresses of leaving a fairly good job, a fairly comfortable home and lifestyle to go back to something that never should have been left in the first place. I have to pack, quit my job, arrange shipping for my belongings (and for myself) and work out going Home.
But there's ONE last catch in the Drama that has ensnared my life. My friends HATE my boyfriend. My family doesn't really approve of him either. And it's not because he's a bad guy either....EVERYONE I talk to about it says the same thing: "He's a nice guy, we just don't think he's right for you..." And I understand that I don't need anyone's approval but my own, but their acceptance sure would make life easier....
So THAT'S what's been going on in the last few weeks of Manda's life. I applaud those who ACTUALLY read through all that..... sweatdrop
By the way: Angelic Muse, your pic is done (and has been for a while) and I just can't seem to get ahold of you. Here it is: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/327368/
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 10:55 pm
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Posted: Mon Jan 08, 2007 11:11 pm
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Posted: Mon Jan 08, 2007 11:39 pm
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Posted: Tue Jan 09, 2007 2:35 am
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Posted: Tue Jan 09, 2007 2:37 am
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Posted: Tue Jan 09, 2007 2:41 am
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Posted: Tue Jan 09, 2007 5:57 am
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Posted: Tue Jan 09, 2007 10:59 am
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