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 Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 9:54 am
Mood swings suck. I'm so moody and empty feeling today neutral
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 10:52 am
shoki_de_nai Manda_Tifa *heavy sigh* I just had a fight with my mate....we haven't fought in so long. But it seems lately that he's been doubting my sexuality (wtf?). He seems to think I'm bisexual...and quite honestly, I don't know that I'm not. But he want's a monogomous (sp?) relationship, and I'm fine with that, but if I'm going to be spending my life with him and only him (and that goes for the sex too) then what does it matter what my sexual orientation is. Even if I'm bi, I'm with him, so I guess that means I'm straight....But any bi fantasy's I may or may not have are private and my business...but he seems to think it's his too. So after much bickering, I ended up just hanging up on him and turning my phone off. But that left me with so much doubt...in myself. Am I straight or bi? Does it really matter? If the relationship is as serious as it's supposed to be, does that mean I have to share that with him? Should I? Affy's been talking to me about this..but I guess other opinions might help me out.... sweatdrop If your mate is anything like mine, he may be a bit paranoid. He wants to know if he has to watch out for both genders or just males that may want to steal you away. It really doesn't matter if you're bi or not, you're right; you're with him and no one else. As for sharing any fantasies you may or may not have, that's entirely up to you. My mate and I share fantasies sometimes, for ideas and to get an idea of what the other likes. Do I share all of them? No, but not because we're not close enough. Some things are just better left unsaid...My mate is a bit...insecure sometimes. sweatdrop I think that might be most of his problem: insecurity. I don't know what he has to be so insecure about though.....we've been together (off and on) for 4 years, and the times we were "off" were for issues between us, not between me and anyone else. I consider myself ridiculously faithful...ever since I met him I haven't even thought about anybody else, even during our "off" times where technically it could have been alright.... I dunno....I don't like fighting. emo
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 3:14 pm
Fog had the checkup for his hernia. Yes, I'm making a big deal out of this.
No hernia. Not a hernia, a pulled muscle, is what the doctor said.
Exam was brief and slightly awkward. sweatdrop
And if the pain comes back I'll have to be referred to a surgeon.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 3:45 pm
stressed i'm su ******** pissed. I can't say a WORD to anyone, and its over the most ******** pathetic thing aswell. I hate this s**t. I'm so tired of it. ********.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 3:57 pm
UglyCoyoteNG stressed i'm su ******** pissed. I can't say a WORD to anyone, and its over the most ******** pathetic thing aswell. I hate this s**t. I'm so tired of it. ******** class="clear"> .......... Ooookay then. Would it be a bad thing to ask for more info as to why you can't say a word to anyone? And why you are pissed?
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 4:02 pm
FogSage UglyCoyoteNG stressed i'm su ******** pissed. I can't say a WORD to anyone, and its over the most ******** pathetic thing aswell. I hate this s**t. I'm so tired of it. ******** class="clear"> .......... Ooookay then. Would it be a bad thing to ask for more info as to why you can't say a word to anyone? And why you are pissed? can't say it here,but somewhere else.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 6:18 pm
Manda_Tifa shoki_de_nai Manda_Tifa *heavy sigh* I just had a fight with my mate....we haven't fought in so long. But it seems lately that he's been doubting my sexuality (wtf?). He seems to think I'm bisexual...and quite honestly, I don't know that I'm not. But he want's a monogomous (sp?) relationship, and I'm fine with that, but if I'm going to be spending my life with him and only him (and that goes for the sex too) then what does it matter what my sexual orientation is. Even if I'm bi, I'm with him, so I guess that means I'm straight....But any bi fantasy's I may or may not have are private and my business...but he seems to think it's his too. So after much bickering, I ended up just hanging up on him and turning my phone off. But that left me with so much doubt...in myself. Am I straight or bi? Does it really matter? If the relationship is as serious as it's supposed to be, does that mean I have to share that with him? Should I? Affy's been talking to me about this..but I guess other opinions might help me out.... sweatdrop If your mate is anything like mine, he may be a bit paranoid. He wants to know if he has to watch out for both genders or just males that may want to steal you away. It really doesn't matter if you're bi or not, you're right; you're with him and no one else. As for sharing any fantasies you may or may not have, that's entirely up to you. My mate and I share fantasies sometimes, for ideas and to get an idea of what the other likes. Do I share all of them? No, but not because we're not close enough. Some things are just better left unsaid...My mate is a bit...insecure sometimes. sweatdrop I think that might be most of his problem: insecurity. I don't know what he has to be so insecure about though.....we've been together (off and on) for 4 years, and the times we were "off" were for issues between us, not between me and anyone else. I consider myself ridiculously faithful...ever since I met him I haven't even thought about anybody else, even during our "off" times where technically it could have been alright.... I dunno....I don't like fighting. emo I can feel your pain. I have a feeling I'm not the straightest stick in the wood, which freaks my mate out because he's afraid I'll leave him for a girl. How's that for insecurity? We don't really discuss it, and we haven't for a while. I'm sure your mate will come to terms with it, since he has to accept you for who you are and people don't change easily, especially their sexual orientation. And aren't fantasies private thoughts? Why should he be concerned about them (unless of course he's part of them)? It's not like you're acting on them. You know where to find me if you need it ^^ P.S. Plan F? Remember that?
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 7:57 pm
Currently very pissed off.
I have 3 chores for this afternoon:
-Unpack the dishwasher (I'm fine with that)
-Take up the compost (I'm ok with that)
-Clean up my eldest sister's room (Well ******** that)
I'm been given no choice of the matter, it's a case of I HAVE to clean up her ******** room. She tries to 'bribe' me into doing it, I accepted the 'bribe' because I know I don't get a choice in the ******** matter, whether I accept the bribe or not, I'm doing the ******** cleaning for her.
But I just 'love' her using her heart condition as an excuse, she's had that for years but she's cleaned up her own room plenty of times. However there is particular reason, which she won't admit to, to why she won't clean her room. There is a mouse in her room, most of us have seen the damn thing. But there aren't just mice in her room, they're in the walls, roof, etc. But my parents won't call a proper exterminator because they'd be too embarassed due to the mess of the house. Well ******** me, do you think that the exterminator might not care?! Also, they blame me (and I'm serious) that the reason the mice got into the house was the fact I accidently left the door to open the house for a night. I'm not sure about you, but I remember someone telling me to leave the stuff because it was too late.
Anyway, the last thing I have to get out of my system is this. I can be force to clean other's rooms, but I can never get any bloodly help with my room unless I promise things for my sisters (ie hair dryings, hair brushing or foot massages). Is it me, or is that a little unfair?!
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 8:01 pm
It's only unfair if you follow through on the promises you made to them, Crenn. Personally, had I any choice in the matter, I'd tell em right to their face to go clean their own ********' room and leave me the hell alone, unless they enjoy listening to Marylin Manson music blasting through my bedroom wall in their general direction.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 9:23 pm
FogSage It's only unfair if you follow through on the promises you made to them, Crenn. Personally, had I any choice in the matter, I'd tell em right to their face to go clean their own ********' room and leave me the hell alone, unless they enjoy listening to Marylin Manson music blasting through my bedroom wall in their general direction. I did follow though with the promises >.< . And If I say that.... well.... it wouldn't be good for me.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 9:36 pm
LilKitty115 Manda_Tifa shoki_de_nai Manda_Tifa *heavy sigh* I just had a fight with my mate....we haven't fought in so long. But it seems lately that he's been doubting my sexuality (wtf?). He seems to think I'm bisexual...and quite honestly, I don't know that I'm not. But he want's a monogomous (sp?) relationship, and I'm fine with that, but if I'm going to be spending my life with him and only him (and that goes for the sex too) then what does it matter what my sexual orientation is. Even if I'm bi, I'm with him, so I guess that means I'm straight....But any bi fantasy's I may or may not have are private and my business...but he seems to think it's his too. So after much bickering, I ended up just hanging up on him and turning my phone off. But that left me with so much doubt...in myself. Am I straight or bi? Does it really matter? If the relationship is as serious as it's supposed to be, does that mean I have to share that with him? Should I? Affy's been talking to me about this..but I guess other opinions might help me out.... sweatdrop If your mate is anything like mine, he may be a bit paranoid. He wants to know if he has to watch out for both genders or just males that may want to steal you away. It really doesn't matter if you're bi or not, you're right; you're with him and no one else. As for sharing any fantasies you may or may not have, that's entirely up to you. My mate and I share fantasies sometimes, for ideas and to get an idea of what the other likes. Do I share all of them? No, but not because we're not close enough. Some things are just better left unsaid...My mate is a bit...insecure sometimes. sweatdrop I think that might be most of his problem: insecurity. I don't know what he has to be so insecure about though.....we've been together (off and on) for 4 years, and the times we were "off" were for issues between us, not between me and anyone else. I consider myself ridiculously faithful...ever since I met him I haven't even thought about anybody else, even during our "off" times where technically it could have been alright.... I dunno....I don't like fighting. emo I can feel your pain. I have a feeling I'm not the straightest stick in the wood, which freaks my mate out because he's afraid I'll leave him for a girl. How's that for insecurity? We don't really discuss it, and we haven't for a while. I'm sure your mate will come to terms with it, since he has to accept you for who you are and people don't change easily, especially their sexual orientation. And aren't fantasies private thoughts? Why should he be concerned about them (unless of course he's part of them)? It's not like you're acting on them. You know where to find me if you need it ^^ P.S. Plan F? Remember that? *claps hands in glee* Whee heeeeeee!! Plan F all the way, baby!! You and me!! heart (good memories=good times.... rofl )
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 9:36 pm
Manda_Tifa shoki_de_nai Manda_Tifa *heavy sigh* I just had a fight with my mate....we haven't fought in so long. But it seems lately that he's been doubting my sexuality (wtf?). He seems to think I'm bisexual...and quite honestly, I don't know that I'm not. But he want's a monogomous (sp?) relationship, and I'm fine with that, but if I'm going to be spending my life with him and only him (and that goes for the sex too) then what does it matter what my sexual orientation is. Even if I'm bi, I'm with him, so I guess that means I'm straight....But any bi fantasy's I may or may not have are private and my business...but he seems to think it's his too. So after much bickering, I ended up just hanging up on him and turning my phone off. But that left me with so much doubt...in myself. Am I straight or bi? Does it really matter? If the relationship is as serious as it's supposed to be, does that mean I have to share that with him? Should I? Affy's been talking to me about this..but I guess other opinions might help me out.... sweatdrop If your mate is anything like mine, he may be a bit paranoid. He wants to know if he has to watch out for both genders or just males that may want to steal you away. It really doesn't matter if you're bi or not, you're right; you're with him and no one else. As for sharing any fantasies you may or may not have, that's entirely up to you. My mate and I share fantasies sometimes, for ideas and to get an idea of what the other likes. Do I share all of them? No, but not because we're not close enough. Some things are just better left unsaid...My mate is a bit...insecure sometimes. sweatdrop I think that might be most of his problem: insecurity. I don't know what he has to be so insecure about though.....we've been together (off and on) for 4 years, and the times we were "off" were for issues between us, not between me and anyone else. I consider myself ridiculously faithful...ever since I met him I haven't even thought about anybody else, even during our "off" times where technically it could have been alright.... I dunno....I don't like fighting. emo Yeah, my mate and I have known eachother for about 4 years now as well, and just several months ago a question of my sexual orientation came up. rolleyes He dropped it quickly, but the fact he felt the need to ask seemed silly to me. Also, throughout the years he's been jealous of every close friend I've had. Foolish males and their insecurity. He grew out of it, but he's still very paranoid about me leaving him. Guess it's cause he's been cheated on, and every break-up he's had was because the girl found someone else.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 9:38 pm
shoki_de_nai Manda_Tifa shoki_de_nai Manda_Tifa *heavy sigh* I just had a fight with my mate....we haven't fought in so long. But it seems lately that he's been doubting my sexuality (wtf?). He seems to think I'm bisexual...and quite honestly, I don't know that I'm not. But he want's a monogomous (sp?) relationship, and I'm fine with that, but if I'm going to be spending my life with him and only him (and that goes for the sex too) then what does it matter what my sexual orientation is. Even if I'm bi, I'm with him, so I guess that means I'm straight....But any bi fantasy's I may or may not have are private and my business...but he seems to think it's his too. So after much bickering, I ended up just hanging up on him and turning my phone off. But that left me with so much doubt...in myself. Am I straight or bi? Does it really matter? If the relationship is as serious as it's supposed to be, does that mean I have to share that with him? Should I? Affy's been talking to me about this..but I guess other opinions might help me out.... sweatdrop If your mate is anything like mine, he may be a bit paranoid. He wants to know if he has to watch out for both genders or just males that may want to steal you away. It really doesn't matter if you're bi or not, you're right; you're with him and no one else. As for sharing any fantasies you may or may not have, that's entirely up to you. My mate and I share fantasies sometimes, for ideas and to get an idea of what the other likes. Do I share all of them? No, but not because we're not close enough. Some things are just better left unsaid...My mate is a bit...insecure sometimes. sweatdrop I think that might be most of his problem: insecurity. I don't know what he has to be so insecure about though.....we've been together (off and on) for 4 years, and the times we were "off" were for issues between us, not between me and anyone else. I consider myself ridiculously faithful...ever since I met him I haven't even thought about anybody else, even during our "off" times where technically it could have been alright.... I dunno....I don't like fighting. emo Yeah, my mate and I have known eachother for about 4 years now as well, and just several months ago a question of my sexual orientation came up. rolleyes He dropped it quickly, but the fact he felt the need to ask seemed silly to me. Also, throughout the years he's been jealous of every close friend I've had. Foolish males and their insecurity. He grew out of it, but he's still very paranoid about me leaving him. Guess it's cause he's been cheated on, and every break-up he's had was because the girl found someone else. *pokes you* Are you, like...living my life or something?? eek
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 9:44 pm
Manda_Tifa *pokes you* Are you, like...living my life or something?? eek Naw, we just happen to have mates with some simalarities. Actually, lots of males seem to have that insecurity thing going on. Some more than others.
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Posted: Tue Jan 30, 2007 9:52 pm
So, I need motivation. Something to get my a** out of bed and to class in the morning. It doesn't seem worth waking up anymore, it really doesn't.
Also, this medical clinic has sent me to their collection agency for a $10 copay that's been paid twice now. Can't find the reciept for the first time, but the second was paid with a check and I do have the copy of that. This is ******** ridiculous. Now I have to call some agency tomorrow since I only have 30 days to respond or they assume the debt is valid. What bull.
I also need my w2 things...which means I have to call my old boss, and find the right place to go with my current job since neither have sent me those. Gaaah...
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