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 Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 5:22 pm
Krissim Klaw The clothes, the clothes! You know you've put off doing your laundry to long when your pile of clothes is greater than you. I don't even know how I got that much clothes, I mean I don't even like clothes that much, hardly shop but for the neccessities. gonk A lot of my clothes are years old and don't fit. A lot of others have unmendable holes and stuff but I've been sentimental and such and not done what I should have, which is cut them up for rags and spare buttons. Oh well. I should get some more button-down shirts. I look best in pro-casual dress anyway (say, jeans and a nice button-down), and yet the cedarwood in my closet isn't staving off all the moth larvae, nor does the fact that I sometimes impulsively decide to wash my car or do other chores regardless of what I'm wearing help.
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 6:23 pm
shoki_de_nai Leyla Giselle I do not appreciate getting comments such as "Your prices are too damn high for your talent. Good luck with that." when my prices happen to be fairly low. Suffice to say, this particular comment came from DA, which is really no surprise. All anyone on DA can do is bash or give compliments to no talent artists rather than constructive crticism. I do not like people telling me my art isn't good enough for $20. Why say something like that when you could say why it isn't? Or maybe even give a more appropriate price. I have never had a commissioner tell me my prices are too high for my talent. I've even known people to get money just so they could buy art from me. I am very unhappy with this at the moment. I already deal with enough stress from looking at better artists and finding myself inferior. My own boyfriend tells me he hates my art. Is that right? Is it right to just blatantly be rude about another person's life? And yes, art is my life. Yeah, I feel like s**t. Doesn't help that people rarely buy art from me other than Rainey. *waddles off to sulk* People are idiots. If it wasn't worth $20, then no one would buy it. And it's natural to not like your own work, because you focus on all the flaws or you know when the image you drew didn't come out the way it was in your head. I do that myself. ^^;; As for your boyfriend...well, at least he's honest? I don't think it's right for him to hate it, but I guess we all have our own taste in art. My mate tries to be honest, but nice about my art when I ask for an opinion. Anyway, just ignore that person. Seriously, just the fact that anyone buys your art means you've got talent. No one buys mine, not for real currency anyway. sweatdrop Yeah, I know. It just pissed me off that someone would say that without any sort of constructive remark
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 7:30 pm
I don't know what people are thinking when they are getting dogs. my sister's friend is getting a Bloodhound for ******** sakes. You never get a hound unless you're planning to work it.
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 10:42 pm
FogSage You could always pour bleach into your ear canal and therefore, into your brain, thus obliterating whatever memories you have of your aunt and thus replacing them with that of your mother. :3 No offense Fog, but I found that to be very insensative. I very much doubt that was what Crenn needed to be told right now. Personally, if I was in his place and saw you write something like that, I'd want to smack you. That is all.
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 10:43 pm
So, why is it that guys have nothing better to do on weekend nights except make prank calls? And obsene calls? I don't get paid enough to have some little s**t tell me to suck his d**k.
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 10:58 pm
shoki_de_nai FogSage You could always pour bleach into your ear canal and therefore, into your brain, thus obliterating whatever memories you have of your aunt and thus replacing them with that of your mother. :3 No offense Fog, but I found that to be very insensative. I very much doubt that was what Crenn needed to be told right now. Personally, if I was in his place and saw you write something like that, I'd want to smack you. That is all. I realize now how cruel it was of me to say that, so I think I'll erase that from the thread. >>; People seem to want to smack me a lot these days.... Sorry Crenn, I said it in jest, but I suppose I didn't think it out well enough before typing. sad
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Posted: Fri Feb 02, 2007 11:12 pm
FogSage shoki_de_nai FogSage You could always pour bleach into your ear canal and therefore, into your brain, thus obliterating whatever memories you have of your aunt and thus replacing them with that of your mother. :3 No offense Fog, but I found that to be very insensative. I very much doubt that was what Crenn needed to be told right now. Personally, if I was in his place and saw you write something like that, I'd want to smack you. That is all. I realize now how cruel it was of me to say that, so I think I'll erase that from the thread. >>; People seem to want to smack me a lot these days.... Sorry Crenn, I said it in jest, but I suppose I didn't think it out well enough before typing. sad It just bothered me is all, I didn't find it to be as funny as you intended it to be. 'Course, I'm not in a mood for jokes right now. But, I'm glad you feel bad about it, means you're not as insensative as you sounded.
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 1:20 am
There's a poster in another guild who's getting to me.
Not in a bad way, mind you. She's nice, if a little bit prickly sometimes. I like her. She's... nice.
I don't actually know what she looks like, but I know the general aspects of her ancestry (Chinese).
So... couple weeks ago, I woke up out of a strange dream, that I had met her on a trip to New York, and we were engaged in some not-so-innocent goofing off. I (as my alter-ego, mind you, not my ordinary human self) had been standing behind her and licking and biting her neck and shoulders. I'd imagined her as just sort of a prototypical Chinese woman of about my age, and I have no idea if she actually looks the way I dreamt.
It's a weird dream though, since I am pretty sure she's not interested romantically in me, and I'm not really romantically interested in her either.
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 5:12 am
Fog, I felt a little hurt by your comment, but I accept your apology.
My father had his 50th birthday picnic today. It was ok except for the few things of I felt very lonely since hardly anyone shared the same interests as me, but that improved when our other gay 'uncle' came to it. But now I have sunburn, and according to my family, very bad. My sister appologised when she knock the sunburn but got aggitated when I said it didn't hurt and showed her by punching the sunburn patch. She got a little angry about that and said something seriously must be wrong...... I know what that is, if there is pain it's not as bad as my back.
Oh yeah, I finally have had some success in finally seeing someone about my back, I'm going to see a chiropactor hopefully this week. I know it's going to hurt, but I need it done..... I should try to finish cleaning my room before then.
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 1:56 pm
My mother is at it again. She's complaining about how I don't do as much as I should..... not true. Yesterday I cleaned about half of my sister's room and I still have more to go. Oh wait, I forgot, that's not a 'chore' in her eyes. But isn't the compost (half rotted due to all the heat in the house because of a single portable aircon unit.... no more than that), unpacking the dishwasher and then all the little things either her or my sisters make me do (as well my father making me and my sisters, so not always me, make drinks for him).
But I made one mistake and she's now saying that she can't rely on me. Depression express anyone? Oh and even better, she told me that once I want to move out of house, she'll help pack. Oh yipee, that's basically a notice before been told I'm being kicked out of the house.
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 2:07 pm
I'm exhausted...both mentally and physically...
In short, I work on computers for a living in the Air Force. I'm what you would consider a Cisco tech in the civilian sector. Basicly, I keep the network up and running, as well as keeping the computers working. There's always things going on in my shop, so there's always things that need to be done. However, on top of that, I have five very thick books to read to finish my training, and then take a large test over them. And all that's starting to take it's toll on me. I get up early, go to work, come home, study until it's late, then repeat the whole process all over again.
The problem is, I haven't been able to get much sleep lately. For example, just the other day, my shop got called in at 4:00 in the morning, and I had just fallen asleep about an hour and a half beforehand. I had already stayed up late studying, as usual, and I was dead tired, but for some reason, I just couldn't fall asleep. So I ran off that hour and a half all day, and by the end, I was almost to the point of passing out. That would have been perfect, but it never happened. I was awake until two or three that morning, tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep.
Problem is, this has been ongoing for the last month and a half. I honestly don't know what to do, though I do know I refuse any medication of any kind. I'm not to keen on taking sleeping pills...or any medicine that messes with your mind. I've had to do that before with Ritalin when I was a kid, and hated it. Even the one thing that I know can knock me out hasn't worked though...Sleeping under my quilt. It's so warm and comfortable that it used to be nearly impossible to get me up in the morning. But now, not even that helps...
My body is reaching it's limit...I took the day off Friday to try to sleep, and, while I did get some, it was only an hour here and there...I think that's the only reason I can really think clearly now, for the most part...
I mean, I know for a fact that I can go at least a week on an hour of sleep a night, but when I did that, it was intentional. This isn't. I want to know what's causing this insomnia. I'm starting to wonder if it's from the studying....But I doubt it. When I first got those books, they would knock me out after about ten minutes, or at least have me struggling to stay awake to study them. It doesn't help that I get called in early so often, either.
*sighs* I dunno...It's 11:00 at night here...I'm going to try to sleep, if I can...
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 2:34 pm
A couple tips.
Davin, stress has a way of not ending, even after the stressful things have been dealt with. It keeps you awake at night, thinking, making you uncomfortable and irritable.
Before going to bed, take a long, hot bath and just try to relax. If you get called out, is it REALLY necessary? Is there NOBODY else out there that can do the job they need you to do? This might sound like you're complaining, but if I was as stressed as you sound, I think a bit of bitching might make you feel better.
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 2:44 pm
That's the trick though, Fog...When I get called in, I have to go. It's an order, and I have to follow orders, as much as I don't want to. Such is military life...
But thanks for the bath tip. I'll have to try that.
*goes to run some hot water*
Thankfully, my suite mate's asleep or out, so I don't have to worry about him beating on the the bathroom door. (The dorms are kinda strange...Two people share a bathroom, but it's one person a room. Bathroom's in between the two rooms)
I just hope it isn't like this for the next five years...
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 2:49 pm
If you have trouble sleeping, you may have to organise a time where you can take a herbal (not something 'hard') sleeping pill to try to get some sleep. And if you think going for a week with only an hour sleep each night, try a week without any sleep. Not exactly fun, but I'd also take Fog's advice, relaxing may not get you sleep but it also can help you with the fact that your body relaxs during sleep, so in theory, relaxing can be almost as good as sleep.
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Posted: Sat Feb 03, 2007 2:51 pm
Davin_Nightwind That's the trick though, Fog...When I get called in, I have to go. It's an order, and I have to follow orders, as much as I don't want to. Such is military life... But thanks for the bath tip. I'll have to try that. *goes to run some hot water* Thankfully, my suite mate's asleep or out, so I don't have to worry about him beating on the the bathroom door. (The dorms are kinda strange...Two people share a bathroom, but it's one person a room. Bathroom's in between the two rooms) I just hope it isn't like this for the next five years... Maybe you should talk with your C.O. about the problems you've been having lately. However, I'd suggest you go to a doctor, regardless of whether you want drugs or not, because he'll be able to advise you on what options are available to you.
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