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Belly keeps growing. Big ball. I hope I can still ride the rides in stuff. Last year I got on rides just fine but my bar or strap only clicks 2 times where my brothers get like 4 to 6 clicks. Now the belly bulge is a little bigger and keeps growing I can feel it.

Gonna be upset if I can’t make my bar click or only clicks once due to my freaken beer belly bulging out too much.

Futures gonna suck, eventually I’ll say oh I can’t ride that cuz my beer belly is too big.

My belly yet again has slightly grown a bit, it’s a really huge bulge. If I keep gaining weight only in my belly, it’s gonna get soo big I can’t stay standing up, bump into things etc. I can feel my weight on my belly, feel heavy in the stomach area.

Soo weird. I’ve been eating practically only fast food and never healthy stuff. Just had Taco Bell for dinner. I want a burger tomorrow. I feel soo fat. Darn fast food made me fat and grow a beer belly. I can’t help it, fast food is good.

I sense I may become diabetic soon.

My diet is really bad. All I eat is fast food. Had burgers 4 days in a row. My belly feels like a ball is inside it when I sit down. Can’t stop feeling my ball belly and my fat areas. Feels soo weird in my belly area. Belly is getting hard like I can’t grab much fat, also feel like I breathe too hard.

I look really overweight overall. Only my face and hands are skinny. Sometimes I feel like I’m wearing a fat suit. Gonna probably have a weird body type where I’m obese all over but skinny face. Being overweight does cause more wrinkles I think. Like on my wrists when I move my hand up, get like 4 to 5 lines/creases, where I see fat people and when they do it they only get 1 or 2 line/creases, more like a fold. Their hands look fat though, mine look normal and kinda skinny. I dunno. It’s weird.

My belly feels rock hard now. It’s weird, why is my fat only going to my belly? Blame the alcohol. Bulges out too much.

I give up, I have a beer belly soo round.

I’m probably gonna get a heart attack soon. sad Geting like slight chest pain.
It’s because of my ball belly. For a weird reason, men only store fat at their belly where our organs are at, so my heart is provably surronded by fat. I mean my bulge is huge and getting hard. Probably have ascites cuz my brother is same build as me but his isn’t all bulgy and round like mine. I look pregnant, but guess I’m just fat. Lolz. I just get soo out of breathe when I lift stuff, my brother thought I was weird when we were moving stuff and I started breathing hard but not him.

I’m soo really really obese on my belly area. I’m soo fat but least my belly will keep me warm. My belly I think looks more like a pregnant belly rather than fat beer belly. Brothers always make fun of my body proportion. d lowercase is what they see my body as. Severe apple shape cuz belly is 44 inches and hips only 40. I get soo tired easily and out of breathe cuz of the belly provably fat surrounding my lungs, maybe even ascites. My belly central area I feel really round, must keep going. I want a bigger ball. Pretty sure I have the pregnant belly meaning fluid buildup. I mean I look skinny from the front, but I turn to side and it does look like a d. Pregnant bulge. eek

Not sure if I should call my big round belly a beer belly or pot belly. Cuz I smoke weed a lot so should be a pot belly. Feel like a pot belly pig lolz. Thick in the middle. I can sense that I’m gonna get chest pains soon caused by my belly. I just get a uncomfortable pressure feeling on my upper left chest area. It kinda hurts and since I don’t wanna get rid of my belly, feel it’ll get worse.

I’m soo happy and excited about my beer belly because it’s getting pretty round like a ball. eek My hips are only 40 inches but my belly is 44 inches meaning I have central obesity. I don’t have a cheesy pear shaped body like Kazerin, she’s weird. And I still wanna keep it growing but heard beer bellies means that you have fat surrounding your organs. I don’t know why my fat only goes to my belly. My belly is getting pretty hard meaning fat can’t go outward anymore so it goes inward around my organs. (My goal is to clog as much of my heart arteries as possible.)

I think I’ve completely lost my mind, wanna know why? Cuz I want heart disease. I want my heart to stop so I can see what it’s like.

I also hope I get a heart attack ASAP, should get it if I keep growing my belly. Can’t wait, lolz. I’m soo weird. I’m probably gonna get sudden cardiac arrest eventually cuz lots of young people are getting heart failure.

My heart is stupid to, no matter how hard I try I can’t get it to beat any higher than around 130 to 140ish. I feel my heart beating and pounding in my chest all the time to, where I can check my pulse/heart rate at will. Soo weird. I heard that it’s called palpitations where if you get them all the time, online says to go see doctor ASAP. Of course I’m not going to, cuz I’m not bothered by it. Feels weird though, it’s like in cartoons where their heart jumps out of their chest, that’s what my heart feels like, Had it for soo long I’ve gotten used to it, but if it really pounds, oh god help me, literally jumping out of my chest. I put my hand over my heart so my heart won’t jump out lolz. O.O Sometimes when I get up and do stuff, then quickly sit down to rest, my heart feels weird and suddenly slows downs with the most intense pound/palpitation ever where it feels like if it continues, my heart will stop. I get slightly dizzy/light headedish when it happens, scary feeling but it doesn’t hurt, just feels uncomfortable. Scared one day I’ll get lightheaded and pass out. Hoping when I wake up I’m fine. I’m probably gonna die from sudden cardiac arrest. Especially since I take lots of pills. The heart is basically a muscle that never stops twitching. It has to stop twitching eventually. I wonder what will happen if you stick Botox in the heart.