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 Posted: Fri Jun 15, 2007 11:10 pm
Katzekinder *bristles* My mother said I looked pregnant today. And she's apparently stopped buying me food. Gnarrggh.
Basically called you fat and plans to starve you? That seems a bit heartless.
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Posted: Fri Jun 15, 2007 11:41 pm
Diana Vulpes Katzekinder *bristles* My mother said I looked pregnant today. And she's apparently stopped buying me food. Gnarrggh.
Basically called you fat and plans to starve you? That seems a bit heartless. Well, with the not getting me food, I'm not sure she did it on purpose, hence the "apparently". But yeah, she likes to call me fat. u.u
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 2:17 am
Just letting everyone know, I'll be gone for a while as I'm moving all my data to my desktop and formatting my laptop. Afterwhich, It's going in for repairs. So I'll be on my craptop or my crapbox until it comes back.... if it ever does xP
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 3:26 pm
Yay! Zanzarus I'm glad this thread has been a good success. It is nice to know there is a safe place in this guild for members to share their joys, vent their frustrations, and ask for advice.
And now, finally some good mantis news.
After the mishaps with the mantises my Cousin tried to get me, I decided to just order some egg cases from my usual place. Three of them arrived in the mail yesterday and they all are well shaped and of good size. Hopefully within the next few weeks they should hatch.
To top it off, Spook finally shed his skin last night. It has been about two months since his last shedding. Because of his species build, shedding can be more risky for his type, and they are more prone to deformaties and even death do to their shapes. Thankfully however he seems to have made it through without a problem. So happy. I'll be taking him out later night to get a close look at his new skin and larger size. X3
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 5:02 pm
I dislike when I dream..... they're always so sad.... this particular one actually caused me to cry all night.
Oh, moving the data and the laptop's reformat went well. Just updating it now but tomorrow I'll be contacting the place which holds the extended warrenty so I can get it repaired. The performance still seems sluggish.... which isn't a good sign.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 9:42 pm
I took my five hour course today. Needless to say, any car I'm driving or riding in, everyone near me damn well be wearing their seltbelts, or I better be heavily sedated.
Oh! Speaking of being sedated! I had words with my shrink, I've got an appointment the end of either this month or next, I can't remember, to see about getting me some prescribed (!!) antianxiety medication. Wewt! Although, I'm getting a little tired of him inquiring about the self mutilation thing. That was what, six years ago? It was a phase! And a damned unpleasant one! I'm well rid of that particular skin.
I need a job still. It's really easy to find places wanting them, but REALLY HARD to get them to like me. I apparently don't have the proper charisma.
According to my dear sweet mother, I look "pregnant", "chunky", and altogether horselike. Thanks, Mom. ):
My head hurts, and I really (really!) need to sleep.
My self esteem has been taking blow after blow after blow today. I'm about one harsh word from being a sniveling wreck. I don't like this turn of events. Overview: I'm fat, I'm unattractive, guys at magic tournaments don't even find me vaguely hit-able-on, I'm WORTHLESS at my only almost-skill, I can't drive, and I'm going to die eventually and it's going to be the most horrifying moment of my entire life.
And tomorrow's fathers day, and all I have for Dad is a 6 dollar shirt, a 2 dollar pair of sunglasses, and a heart full of seething anger.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 10:03 pm
Katzekinder I need a job still. It's really easy to find places wanting them, but REALLY HARD to get them to like me. I apparently don't have the proper charisma.
I'm in that same boat. ::paddles around with Katze:: whee
On the plus side, the head of Career Services at my school called me yesterday; I am eligible for Work Study, so on Monday I'm gonna go and pick up the paperwork, then fill out an application for the school library.
I really, really hope I can get a job there; it would be so convenient. Not as convenient as working at one of the shops down the street from my apartment (*coughBarnes&Noblecough*), but still convenient.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 10:09 pm
Sunegami Katzekinder I need a job still. It's really easy to find places wanting them, but REALLY HARD to get them to like me. I apparently don't have the proper charisma.
I'm in that same boat. ::paddles around with Katze:: whee
On the plus side, the head of Career Services at my school called me yesterday; I am eligible for Work Study, so on Monday I'm gonna go and pick up the paperwork, then fill out an application for the school library.
I really, really hope I can get a job there; it would be so convenient. Not as convenient as working at one of the shops down the street from my apartment (*coughBarnes&Noblecough*), but still convenient. I think it's partially my own fault, for holding out for a job that doesn't involve much people skills. Since I major hardcore fail at that part of life.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 10:10 pm
I know I have to complete work on the last laptop, except I've gone into deep depression thanks to my mother..... I hate living with her.... but I have no where else to go.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 10:54 pm
Katzekinder I think it's partially my own fault, for holding out for a job that doesn't involve much people skills. Since I major hardcore fail at that part of life.
eek OMG, me too!
Wait, that's not really something to be proud of. . . I fail. xd
@Crenn: I've been in a similar situation when I was living with my dad and his girlfriend. She basically verbally abused me, and he did nothing about it. . . flash forward a few years later, I have nothing to do with her, but my dad and I have a pretty good relationship.
Anyway, the point is that you're not alone, and things will be better. ::hugs:: heart
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 11:05 pm
Sunegami @ Crenn: I've been in a similar situation when I was living with my dad and his girlfriend. She basically verbally abused me, and he did nothing about it. . . flash forward a few years later, I have nothing to do with her, but my dad and I have a pretty good relationship. Anyway, the point is that you're not alone, and things will be better. ::hugs:: heart Thank you, the words help me. Everyone in my family agrees, she needs to see a psychologist because her hate of her father is..... I'm not sure what word...... wearing her out I suppose..... But she also doesn't trust psychologists, which provides a problem.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 11:18 pm
Crenn Sunegami @Crenn: I've been in a similar situation when I was living with my dad and his girlfriend. She basically verbally abused me, and he did nothing about it. . . flash forward a few years later, I have nothing to do with her, but my dad and I have a pretty good relationship.
Anyway, the point is that you're not alone, and things will be better. ::hugs:: heart Thank you, the words help me. Everyone in my family agrees, she needs to see a psychologist because her hate of her father is..... I'm not sure what word...... wearing her out I suppose..... But she also doesn't trust psychologists, which provides a problem.
You're welcome. heart
Negative emotions are very draining. I say this from personal experience. Being full of hate all the time made me feel constantly tired and ill; when I moved to my own place and finally allowed myself to let go of the hate, it was literally like a breath of fresh air.
And yea, that is a problem.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 11:21 pm
Sunegami Crenn Sunegami @Crenn: I've been in a similar situation when I was living with my dad and his girlfriend. She basically verbally abused me, and he did nothing about it. . . flash forward a few years later, I have nothing to do with her, but my dad and I have a pretty good relationship.
Anyway, the point is that you're not alone, and things will be better. ::hugs:: heart Thank you, the words help me. Everyone in my family agrees, she needs to see a psychologist because her hate of her father is..... I'm not sure what word...... wearing her out I suppose..... But she also doesn't trust psychologists, which provides a problem.
Negative emotions are very draining. I say this from personal experience. Being full of hate all the time made me feel constantly tired and ill; when I moved to my own place and finally allowed myself to let go of the hate, it was literally like a breath of fresh air.
And yea, that is a problem.Yes, especially since she was talking about murdering him.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 11:28 pm
Crenn Yes, especially since she was talking about murdering him.
Wow. Yea, I'd say that calls for some kind of intervention.
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Posted: Sat Jun 16, 2007 11:49 pm
Good Lord I am messed up. I'm not falling asleep at all or falling asleep early in the morning (like, 5am) and then sleeping like I'm dead for about twelve hours, and still tired. It's messing with my class, and I can't afford to take it again. Actually, I can't afford anything right now since I have no job. I'm stuck in this lazy, unemployed state and starting to put things on my credit card (like gas). I dunno where to work though that won't irritate my hands. I also need to find someone to tell me wtf is wrong with them, but my dislike for doctors is stopping me. I tend to see idiots.
Maybe I need new meds, depression can ******** with sleep. Ugh, I hate switching meds though. There's that fun period of seeing if it works and if I'll get side effects from the new meds. Side effects are so much fun to discover, I tend to get some nice ones. Like, one time the medication stopped me from feeling full, which was exciting 'cause I would keep eating since I never felt full. Lost like, 20lbs once I got off it. Blarg.
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